Sunday, October 15, 2006

Usually for my entries, I just title them with whatever event that happened in during that particular week. But for this entry I am about to blog, I have entitled it, "Everything happens for a reason."

This sentence has been so real and outstanding to me throughout this week. It started when I went to town with simon, ben and avon where we caught a movie, You, Me and Dupree. The show was hilarious especially the '-ness' part and after sending avon off, the three of us went for dinner and that was where everything started off. We were talking about crusade, church and lots of other stuffs. One of the question I asked was, "Why are we going to church/youth ministry?" and it was encouraging to hear one another's testimonies especially simon's. Two main points he brought up were: 1) The place where your life was changed and 2) There is a reason why God has placed you in that church/youth ministry. All the sharings made me think back to the times I spent in youth ministry since I stepped into it. It was only then I realised that youth ministry has actually played a large role in my Christian life. Without it, I may still be a 'Christian' by name.

The second time was when I met up with irene, yap min, lee huan and howe luen for a time of catching up at Kennedy Rogers. It was good food, good fellowship and good sharing. Lee huan shared this one thing that I will never forget, "What I learned and gone through in crusade can be applied in church." That hit me and I asked myself, "Why am I in crusade?" I remembered that I did not want to have anything to do with "Christian stuffs" when I first entered TP, especially crusade since I first heard it from cheryl and jialing. I wanted my life back. It is not that I did not have a life when I was in secondary school. I had a wonderful time going out and spending time with church people and serving in church. It is only that when I thought back, church took up most of my secondary school life and now? Hence when I entered TP, I just wanted to make friends and hang out.

But still, I ended up in crusade and not only that, I became super involved in it. It is so ironic but I never once regretted being in crusade. Instead, I thank God for pulling me into this ministry. And it is so true that what I grew in and learned in crusade can be applied in church (though I am not doing it). Is that why God placed me in crusade in the first place?

As for the third time, it happened during ST meeting today when phyllis shared about her classmate's death. I shall not go into it but I will share some main points. In her sharing, she said that she asked God how come and God replied her through the Word that He allowed it to happen. God allowed it to happen because He has His reasons. And it was true. Lecturers whom phyllis did not know were Christians, went down to the hospital to pray for her friend.When her friend died, she and her Christian classmate,together with 6-8 non-Christians, gathered to pray although she could see the uneasiness in them.And phyllis's only Christian classmate started talking to her about stuffs that they never talk about before until this happened and the deceased happened to be a non-Christian. This whole incident has created a breakthrough and reminded us that life is fragile.

Indeed everything happens for a reason whether you know it or not!!! For me right now, I have no idea why I am still going to church where I feel lost and empty. All I can do is seek God and pray about it.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:02 PM