Monday, March 06, 2006

This wk was real bordom. I have been trying to look for part-time administrative jobs but to no avail. It's getting frustrating as I need money. Mom wants me to supplement my own needs. Bleah. That sux. Plus I want to be able to save enough to go Cain and do sky-diving and white-water rafting. Now all these juz seem to be fantasies that would never come true. *Sigh*

Sometimes I wonder what life is worth living for when your life is filled with anxieties, questions, doubts, wishes and dreams that seem to be your own wishful thinking. Many times people would tell you something that goes like this, "When you believe, it will come true." In psychological terms, it is true as our minds controls our entire body, its movements, functions, etc. But is it ALWAYS true??

I think not. Believing is one thing. Having the capabilities and within one's means are another thing. There are limits in whatever we believe in. Let's take for example. I belive I will win the race tmr. I believe I will be the fastest. But in the end, you were outran by another runner. See what I mean. What you believed in turned out to be 'empty.'

I guess life is filled with mysteries and uncertainities. Who knows what will happen the next day? Remember this familiar quote, "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways. " It's true isn't it? Every living being will die in the end. But here's a quote that I find says a lot about life, "We cannot tell what may happen to us in the strange medley of life. But we can decide what happens in us... how we can take it, what we can do with it... and that is what really counts in the end." (Joseph Fort Newton, Author) Indeed we can never know what may happen to us or around us. But we can know what happens inside us. Our personality, our character, our inner being are shaped by us, our will, our choice and our actions. And that is what life counts.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:35 PM