Thursday, February 03, 2005

when an invisible wall starts building up, it is difficult to pull it down. first time ever this feeling lasted that long. it's like toking to a stranger. the type of 'hi!' n 'bye!' greetings. worse still, i found out tat it was juz an act as if noting has happened when someone's ard. i tot everyting was resolved the following day it started, but it was juz my part of wishful thinking. now i noe how the phrase came abt, 'easy to forgive but difficult to forget.' dunno how long tis will last..


seeing n hearing many things, but not able to do anyting. or how abt tis? seeing n hearing many things, but haf no choice n to wait and see. which is worse? toking wif my fren n hoping to get some 'advices', ended up receiving the expected usual ans..pray. how many times did the conversation had the word 'pray' in it? most of the time.. pray, pray, pray.. all the time is prayer. watch n do noting but pray? wait n see what God says? ahhh... i dun understand.. tot 'actions speak louder than words'? how will u ever noe He has given a reply? wat if He take years to reply? wat if by the time u got His reply, it's too late?


in Nehemiah 1, Nehemiah mourned, fasted n prayed for some days. then he said to God in the last verse to bless his prayer. aft tat, he went to the king for permission to go rebuild the gate n wall. from this, yes..he did prayed. but he took the action by seeking the king's permission. so which is which? pray n take action or pray n wait for God's directions? my conversation wif my fren was directed to praying n waiting for God's directions. yes? no? dunno? tis is so frustrating.. if it is to keep on praying, i dunno how long i can take it. n u noe wat's my fren's ans to tis statement, pray for God's strength. pray again..i really wanted to scream..argh!!


tink i will go crazy toking abt it. k..shall stop. tat's all..nitez..

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:45 PM