Treasures of Life

KL Trip

2008-12-05T13:41:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, I left for KL together with Abby, Ben and Kang Wei. The initial flight was supposed to be to Bangkok and stay at Bai Yoke Hotel, Bangkok's tallest hotel. However due to the political unrest there, all flights to Bangkok was cancelled and we had to change our plans to KL instead. The bummer part was that AirAsia has a policy in which they do not refund money but creditted the amount into an account instead. It's an unreasonable policy given that it was an unforeseen circumstance and that our flight was scheduled only a couple of days away. As a result, we had to top up another $138 for our flight. Super frustrating!

The time spent at KL was relaxing though and it was time away from work and from reality. Our hotel was Dorsett Hotel and beside ours was Ritz Carlton, and at the back, it was Mariott Hotel. We did our shopping at Pavilion, Lot 10 and BP which was located near our hotel. Other than these places, we visited KLCC, Twin Towers, KL Tower and one other place which I have forgotten the name of the centre. Unfortunately, we didn't carry enough money to eat at the revolving restuarant but Secret Recipe and Ichiban there are really to die for. No kidding. It is so much cheaper than Singapore. Though I didn't do much shopping, I guess I'm quite satisified with what I bought back. One point to note though. The train travelling within KL was a total waste of time. We had to wait for 20-30 minutes for one to come which was totally packed and one broke down along the way.

And now, it's back to the real world and to work. Before I left for KL, I was frustrated, pissed and angry that left me in a daze even when I was heading home in the train. It was the first time after so long that I felt ever so angry. Since I came back, work has been a drag and I'm having no mood to work. The feeling of lostness is also starting to appear all over again.

Sigh. I'm so looking forward to Christmas! A time of love, joy and peace. :D

Reality at Work

2008-11-04T22:12:00.008+08:00

Lost. Confused. Demoralized. Words describing how I feel at work.

The MarComm colleague is about to leave in 2 days time and reality seems to be sinking in deeper and deeper. Not so much about her not being around, but the handover of portfolio and workload. For the first time I've got to admit, I'm not in the mood to work.

The increased workload, challenges, deadlines, intensity, strain on my brain and stress . Not that I'm complaining because I sort of like being busy. But somehow this week, it just feel different and I guess it's because I'm starting to be in the "real world".

Initially when I was notified that I will be taking over the portfolio, I was half-surprised because I know that I'm not qualified nor experience enough. I wanted to ask why but decided not to. On the other hand, I was looking forward to the work challenges that lie ahead and I thought to myself, I can do it! But now, I am doubting myself. I am doubting myself whether I have the capabilities to handle all these. I feel inadequate. I feel lost. I don't have the confidence anymore. I feel scared!!!

When I first started out in this company, I told myself to give my best, add value and prove myself. At the same time, to be myself and treat the people (colleagues) around me as I would treat my friends. And looking back, I believe I have accomplished all!

But then, why do I feel that I'm not being appreciated? Why don't I feel valued? Why do I feel that everything I do is not worthwhile anymore? I don't like this feeling and it is making me feel confuse and miserable. Workload is getting heavier, stress is increasing and I'm feeling more dejected. No matter how much work I put in, it doesn't make a difference. There's no balance. Salary, title and respect just do not tally.

Now that MSN has been banned from use at work, I feel even more disheartened. At times when I feel the stress (or sad), I would be able to release some of it by chatting with my friends but that has not and definitely not affect my productivity. Work still gets done. Now it's a whole new different story. One thing though, I am really thankful for my colleague, Jacqueline, who brings cheer and laughter everyday. Thanks Jacq! You rock! :)

It did occurred to me to quit since my contract has not been renewed and it ends this year. But it is not until now that I should look into this option. A friend has told me to quit and said that I'm still young and have a long way to go. Probably I should consider full-time studies instead of part-time. In that way, it will be less stressful and tedious for me as well.

However being a down-to-earth person, I know that it is not the right time to quit as we are entering a recession period. I don't want to trouble and burden my parents with my expenses because I still have two brothers who are in Secondary school. It's time for me to grow up, be sensible and take responsibility. And I guess it is a plus that the corporate culture in this current company is nice and I get to learn, grow and be challenged. But I know that actually the true reason for my staying is because my boss is pregnant. I don't want her to get stress up or overwork for that matters.

I guess I will just have to press on, endure and see how it goes. Still, I am thankful to God for this job, my boss and colleagues. :)

Isaiah 40:28-31

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Frenzy Funny Friday

2008-10-18T01:43:00.003+08:00

Today was a frenzy and funny Friday and one which I don't think I will forget. :) It all started when I received a call from my BD colleague...

Together with my boss, they had a meeting at 2pm after which, boss would return back to the office while my BD colleague head to another meeting at 4.30pm. When my BD colleague called around 5 plus pm looking for our boss, I told her that boss wasn't in and that I thought that boss could have gone home as it was rather late already. And that's when I found out that a taxi was booked to send my boss back to Shaw Centre. When we checked with the taxi company, it was confirmed and affirmed that the taxi driver had indeed send her back at 4.30pm.

That's the point where everything started. Both my BD colleagues and I got worried and we started calling and SMS-ing our boss, hoping that she would reply soon. Between 5 plus to around 6.15pm, my BD colleague called about three times to check if boss was back and she wasn't. This made me even more worried. As there were things that had to be packed due to the renovation being carried out over the weekends, my BD colleague was on her way back to the office. Everyone in the office left by the time she came back, leaving my big boss, her and me (excluding the people doing the reno). By this time, both my BD colleague and I were really really worried. Why?

1. It was unlike our boss to not contact anyone of us should she be away during office hour.
2. Her laptop was still on and she always keep her laptop before she leaves.
3. We have not heard from her for the past hour and she is pregnant with the fact that she can actually give birth anytime soon! (Even if she wasn't pregnant, it would be less worrying but still worried.)
4. We care and are concerned about her safety.

Hence, we decided to wait for our big boss to come back and see if she has our boss's hubby number. While waiting, I decided to keep boss's laptop and clear her desk. Finally arpund 6.30pm, big boss appeared and my BD colleague told her what has happened. Initially big boss didn't appear worried and even commented that she was pregnant before. But as we shared on stating that it was so unlike our boss, she started getting concerned. As she also didn't have the hubby's number, she contacted two of our colleagues who are currently overseas for the number. She got the number and contacted my boss's hubby who started freaking out too!

That's not all. The three of us (big boss, BD colleague and me) then went to big boss's room to start calling the hospitals to see if any pregnant woman had been admitted for the past three hours. By then, it was past 7pm already. Even more worried! So we called 995 first, followed by Gleneagles and Mount Elizabeth hospitals. We also double checked with the taxi company and even requested to speak with the taxi driver. As I was about to call KK Hospital, big boss received a call and the first word I heard was my boss name!!!

It was such a relieved to hear that she was fine and the moment we came out of the room, my boss had walked to the front of the room. I wanted to like hug my boss but didn't. Hee. Anyway, she was shocked because she received 19 calls in total with don't know how many SMSes. The whole thing then seemed super funny that we all started laughing. I was like SMS-ing the good news to those who knew about it and laughing at the same time. Even on the way back in the train, I was laughing to myself. Hahahahahaha :p I wonder how she is going to explain to her hubby and especially to the two colleagues overseas.

But seriously, thank God my boss is safe and sound! :) One thing I realised is that we don't have each other "emergency contact" in case of unforeseen circumstances. Probably we should especially from my boss as she is pregnant. Heh :)

I have some other things I want to talk about but I shall end off here for now. Nitez!

Lord, thank you for watching over my boss and keeping her safe and sound. Thank you for the good laughter we had to start off the weekend on a happy note. Thank you for the realisations I have made yesterday and today. I pray for your blessings to be on each S&M team member and watch over them and keep them safe from any harm. Be with them Lord. In Jesus Name I pray, Amen.

Working Life

2008-09-25T13:11:00.001+08:00

Okay...I realise that I have updated my blog for a super duper long time. I wanted to change my skin before uploading a new post, but have not been able to find the time to do it. So I shall just update.

It's coming to the 4th quarter of the year already which means I have already worked for 6 months. Working life is really different from school life. My eyes and ears have been opened to new insights and experiences. Although I start work at 9am, I will reach office hopefully by 8.30am. It's something I sort of like because the office is quiet and peaceful.

Working for this long has affected some of my decisions I thought I have decided upon. Things like furthering my studies. I know I want to get a Degree (you can't survive without one in Singapore) but whether full-time or part-time, I am now in a state of confusion. Also, I don't know whether I want to stay on in my current company. I like the corporate culture here, my colleagues are nice and I get to listen to music and msn. That's quite a huge deal to be honest.

With all these positive factors, you must wonder why I want to change job. Firstly, I feel that I'm not given the recognition. My current designation is "Marketing Communications Administrator", but I am supporting both the Marketing Communications and Corporate Communications side of things, and given projects to do. Here's the dilemma, when my friends ask me what I do or what my position is, I am lost for words. Sometimes I am just tempted to say, "Like what my designation states, I am doing administrative duties." This is true because that's how I am feeling. So stop telling me, "No la!"

Secondly, it is the pay. I thought when my contract was extended to the end of this year, I would get an increment. It didn't happen. I feel underpaid while my friends are earning $2K. Everytime when I hear people say about pay, I feel sad inside. Thirdly, I have become more introvert at work, which I am not. Sigh..school has its own headaches and so does work.

Currently, I have not decided whether to stay on but I'm looking at evening/weekend job to earn extra income and substaniate my salary. It's going to be tough but I hope I will be able to cope.

Oh well..I shall stop here. I am feeling unhappy already.

New Year 2008

2008-01-06T00:43:00.001+08:00

Ok..I have not updated my blog for a super long while.

This time my Christmas was spent overseas with my mum as we visited different parts of Europe for 12 days before returning back to sunny wet Singapore. It was freezing cold there and the lowest temperature it hit was -10 degrees celsius. Brrr..cold! The trip was more of sightseeing than anything else and besides, it was too cold (esp.when the wind blows) to do anything. But as usual, I bought clothes, a Swatch watch in Switzerland and boxes and boxes of chocolates from Switzerland and Belgium. Too bad I'm not working if not, I have bought Louis Vuitton and Gucci stuff when I was in Paris. LV stuff there is at least $500 cheaper than the ones sold in Singapore. Ahhhh...probably next time when I have worked for a while.

Some of the highlights are as follows:
1. The cost of beer and wine there are cheaper than water and food was salty, super salty. Sausages there are good though.
2. Places I visited include Wind Mill, Cheese & Clog Factory, Cuckoo Clock Workshop, Summer Palace, Eiffel Tower, Mozart's Museum, Diamond shops and many more.
3. I had 3 different types of fondue for one of my dinners: Cheese, Meat and Chocolate Fondues Which was the best? Chocolate because the cheese one had wine taste and steamboat is much better than meat fondue.
4. I had blackforest cake at BlackForest which had wine in it and tasted Ice Wine for the first time and it was sweet but good. A must try!
5. Houses in Switzerland has 22 windows or more. If I am a maid there, I will die of exhaustion due to work.
6. I boarded the world's only revolving cable car and did tubing on one of the mountains in Switzerland. The view at the top was breathe-taking.
7. The waffles in Belgium is a must try! I had mine with chocolate syrup and strawberries. Yum!
8. A visit to the red light district in Holland was erm..interesting. They had girls in bikini posing at the window and there was one which was a transexual.
9. Consumption of marijuna is legal in Holland.
10. I twisted my ankle on the day before I had to take the flight back to Singapore.

Yes! I twisted my ankle when I alighted the bus at night and missed a step on the ground. Initially the pain was bearable and as I landed back in Singapore, it felt alright and I thought it was just a usual sprain. Being me, I went home, put my stuff down, rested for a while before going down for META camp at Faith Methodist Church.

The camp was different than the ones I attended for the past two years. This time round, it was day camp. The speaker was Dave Park and he was a really good speaker plus a really good imitator. His imitation of people was so accurate and...real. As for the workshop I attended, it was 'Reaching Out to A Changing World'. It was on the use of Internet and films to reach out to people of this generation.

For this camp, my group consisted of Joelle (CGL), Jeremy aka Jem (ACGL), Dyna, Klement, John, JiaLiang, Eric and myself. I was the only year 3 in the group but not the oldest. Opps. Haha :P. This time round, I felt that the CG time was different and better than last year's. The sharings we had really taught me a lot and it was an enjoyable time. (Joelle and Jem: If you are reading this, thanks for being the CGL and ACGL respectively. You two did a great job! :) )

Now, my ankle did not hurt until the following day. It started swelling and the pain was so bad that I teared. Every step was a torture but thankfully, I had Klement and Irene to send me home. Thank you so much!!!! :) My parents bought me to A & E and I had to be on crutches to help me move about. As a result, I was given medical leave for the whole week and the medication caused me to be drowsy and tired. But even with the medical leave, I had to return to school twice to submit reports. My ex-tutors saw me and they asked the same thing, "What happened to my leg? Went chasing after guys is it?" Dotz. ^_^"

Anyway, I attended life meeting on Wednesday evening and I-Ching came down to talk to us on worldviews. It was an eye-opener and I remembered one thing, "To deny something, you are in fact affirming that thing". How true!

Okie..shall end off here. I will post photos of my trip when I have the time. See ya! :)

A Grand Affair

2007-10-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

Ahhh...I realised that I have not updated for a super duper long time. It has either been I have no mood to blog or I have been busy with my SIP.

Currently, I am doing my internship with Adecco under Sales and Marketing. Adecco is a world leader in HR solutions with the largest branch network in Singapore. It is a Global Fortune 500 company with 6,700 branches in 70 countries and territories. In Singapore itself, Adecco has 15 branches/specialty divisions. The reason I could remember this was because of the latest career fair by JobsCentral at Suntec City. Thankfully I had the basic information provided from the briefing notes memorized, if not I would not be able to answer the attendees' questions.

The career fair was an interesting experience to me as it was my first time. I had to attend to the people approaching our booth and ask if they would require assistance in anyway. During the career fair, I attended to different kinds of people and I realised that there would indeed be freebie hunters. Our main attraction was our bubble pens which I liked a lot as well. Haha. O yeah...neither of Adecco's competitors were present at the fair. I was looking for Kelly Services during my free time but could not find them.

The highlight for this week was the staff night, A Grand Affair, which took place yesterday at Chijmes Upper Club. Initially, I was not going as interns were not allowed to attend and in addition, the invitation would have to be extended to the other interns (about twenty of them) from both Temasek and Nanyang Polytechnic should I be going. However in the end, my supervisor, Glennis, told me I was cordially invited to the event as I was in the organising team and besides, she wanted to see me in action during the event itself.

Besides working on the e-invite, poster, food and lucky draw for the staff night, I spent an entire week working on a video which is a montage of Adecco's past events. The video turned out to be a huge success as everyone was so engrossed by it that they stopped eating and there was also requests from the staff for a copy of the video. Now because of the video, I am known as IT savvy but I know I am not as I just like to fiddle around with new things. I was also invited to attend a meeting with the vendors together with Glennis and Jay, Sales and Marketing colleague, at Upper Club. It was really interesting to see how details were communicated between the various parties. Apart from that meeting, I got to attend Sales and Marketing meeting every Monday and although the past two meetings lasted after 6 p.m., I have no regret but instead, I am thankful for the opportunity. Anyway, I have stayed back in the office way past 6 p.m. for a few times already and I have no complains about it. There were times in which I was given a lift back home by Glennis.

For the event, a photographer was hired as well and the photos were those kind that were instant and customised. I got a few shots taken with my colleagues as well. :) I looked rather different as I had make-up on which was done by my colleagues. As the dance floor was opened for dancing, the night extended past our initial closing time and I got roped on to the dance floor several times. It felt awkward and out of place for me as I did not know anyone other then the people from Orchard branch and Mangement Office. Also, I do not really know them as well as the others. Overall, the staff night was a success and everyone enjoyed themselves, including myself. I did not know Adecco's staff were super fun, wild and crazy. Haha.

Before I forget, I had to show our regional manager the video which she was afraid that it could not be played during the staff night as there was no internet access. At first, it was Glennis who told me about it and I tried to figure out a way for it to be played offline. After a way was found, I told her about it and she asked me to tell our regional manager about it. I was super hestitant and told her that I am afraid of telling our regional manager. If I am still a bit afraid of her, what more towards the regional manager?

Looking back, I thank God for placing me in Adecco for my SIP. The corporate culture in Adecco is nice and my colleagues are really nice people. I am also thankful to Glennis for all the opportunities she has given me to enhance my learning experience during my internship with them Adecco and I did learned a lot from her as well. O...and she was from Temasek Poly too. For the JobsCentral Career Fair and the staff night, I was the only intern taking part in both events and I am really grateful and glad to be part of both. There is nothing like hand-ons experiences to enhance one's learning journey and experiences.

Okie..That's all for now. My body feels hot and itchy after the event. Could it be allergy to the wine? Hmmm...

One Week Hols

2007-09-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

One week of holidays just passed by like an aeroplane and I will be starting my SIP soon in a couple of days time. I have been posted to Adecco which I found out is a HR company and a competitor of Kelly Services. This is definitely not what I had selected as my interest for SIP and I don't care if I was highly recommended for this attachment or not. I just want what I had initially stated my interest in. I did some research and found out that there is an "Events and Exhibitions Division" at Shaw Centre where my orientation will be conducted. Hopefully (fingers cross) I will be placed into that division.

Apart from that, this week was super duper fun. I had class chalet from Monday to Wednesday and the turnout was quite good though I was hoping that the whole class could be there. The first night my class had a BBQ and there was a lot of food left over. And after the BBQ for those who stayed over, we had some pretty wacky and crazy games. It was fun as everyone was spontaneous and sporting. We played games such as "Handiplus" and "Big Fish Small Fish". After that, we decided to relax and played "True or Dare" but this time round, we only played the "True" part. It was an interesting and eye-opening time. However, I did not followed them for breakfast as I suddenly developed a swollen eye which subsided the following night. It was most probably due to the medicine I took for my migraine.

On Tuesday, I decided to give Theme Park a miss and rejoined them at night for dinner at Sakura. The theme for the dinner was "Black and White". However, my white bottom got dirtied along the way and I had to change into something else. Sad. I felt so weird. And I learned how to pronouce the word "Oteh" the right way. Haha. It was amusing after that as they used it in a game. After dinner, we went back to the chalet to rest for a while and catch the 9am chinese show and CSI before we drove to Cinneleisure for a time of KBox. At first, everyone was awake, jumping and singing but gradually, one by one got tired and we left after 3 hours. After packing up, we headed for MacDonalds to have breakfast before we went home.

After the chalet, I went home to sleep for about 4 hours before meeting up with Abby and JiaLiang to watch "HairSpray" at CS. When we went there, I was shocked to see so many kids outside waiting to watch "Ratatouille". Anyway, the show was good for someone like me who likes musical and I found out that my neighbour was sitting behind me. What a concidence. Then at night, I met up with Grace, Ben, Eric, Wen How, Jeremy and Chun Yong at Cathay to catch "Ratatouille". Yup. That is two movies in one day. The only seats left were the first row which we took but definitely worth it. It was really a hilarious show with an interesting story line. For those who are out there still deciding whether to watch this show, go and catch it. It is worth your money. And lastly, it was Mind Cafe with my small group on Friday and we had a ball of fun. Haha. :)

Up to date, I have caught a total of 3 movies within 2 weeks. The other show I have caught was "Evan Almighty" after my final paper last Friday together with Daphne, Mel, Hamizah and Abi. O yeah..I finally had the time to watch "Brave Heart". The show was a mix of love, betrayal and passion. It was gruesome but at the same time, touching.

Okie..that's all for now. Ciao.

Event is finally over!!!

2007-08-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

Phew! All my projects are officially over and next week will be my exams soon. That is fast. This semester seems to pass by so fast. I guess it is due to all the work that seemed to last forever.

Last Thursday was my class event, "Family Fun Carnival @ National Museum". It was a huge success as there was a large turnout on that day and the programme went as planned. The event was supposed to start at 10am as that is the time National Museum opens. But as typically Singaporeans, the queue started at 9.30am and by the time it was 9.45am, the queue was super long. As expected, there were complaints or more like unreasonable Singaporeans such as an uncle who made such a big commotion over six goodie bags and holding up the queue. Come on la! He one person wanted six goodie bags. Kiasu man.

The queue was super long that my members at the registration counter went super busy and the goodie bags "disappeared" like lighting. We had to go up and down the escalator to carry more bags down from the room and thankfully, I had my little brother to help out. And not to my surprise, there were parents who helped their kid colour for the art competition. We weren't stupid to differentiate a child's artwork to a parent's artwork. So to be fair, when it came for the judges to judge the artworks, those obviously "created" by the parents were taken off.

All the stations including the traditional games and the kite-making had lots of people taking part. The kite-making station had such a big participation rate that we ran out of supplies and had to rush out to purchase more. When the registration counter closed, there were some who wanted only the sticks to bring home to do their own kite and we gave since there were extras.

Overall, the event was a roaring success and from the feedback gathered from Katharyn, National Museum had the highest visitation among the other three museums amounting to about 4,500 people. I was super surprised but happy as well. Komala was such a super good emcee that she did it so professionally. Thanks Komi!

Now that the event is over, I can finally relax but I missed using the walkie talkie. Haha. It was fun. O yeah..abby if you are reading this, thanks gal for helping out. :)

I wanna blog somemore but I think I shall stop here for now. Till next time. Toddles.

I am tired.

2007-07-05T02:14:00.000+08:00

I am tired. My body is a wreck. I feel like breaking down soon.

It has been a busy week for me for the past two weeks. There were test, project and individual assignment due. Besides school, I have to have worries from home as if I do not have enough in my mind to occupy me already. Arghhh...I really feel like throwing everything aside and not do anything at times. There are times when what you see on the outside does not always reflect the inside.

I need to work...badly. Not because I want to but is I "NEED" to. I hope I am able to cope with the additional load once I start work. My GPA has to maintain consistent or go up and hopefully, I can get into uni.

But life hasn't been that bad. I feel really blessed to have Abigail as my friend and sister. She is not only my swimming kaki, but a chilling and shopping kaki as well. Recently, we went shopping and caught "Fantastic Four". It was a great movie and yeah, Jessica Alba rocks. She is not only hot but her acting in this movie was super good as well. A show worth watching and now, I have two complimentary passes to "Nancy Drew". Abi?? Monday??

As each day passes, the NMS event draws nearer and things are starting to get heated up. There are more pushing to be done to get things done and datelines to be met. And recently, there has been quite bad news for sponsorship but to balance it off, there was good news as well. Thank God! I pray that I will keep a cool and calm head as the day gets nearer and things are more rush. As for today, I decided to meet my committee heads for a last minute meeting and it was a good session. From here onwards, I hope things can be ran better. For all freeriders out there, here is an early warning. "I will come after you if you don't get things done and I mean it!" Don't say I did not give any warning.

Just to touch a bit on my two-week break. I went for youth camp, Ignition, and it was really different as compared to past camps. There was focus on facedown worship and I PLUS ONE. It was a brand new experience for me to see things happening that I have never seen in youth before although the camp was not catered to my age group. And it was this that reminded me of a vision I once had went I visited Joel's church. This is just the beginning. There will be more to come. Also, I am glad that my SG members learned something from this camp and was ministered by God. Now, they are more opened than before and I thank God for each one of them. However, this may most probably be my last youth camp that I will attend. Don't bother to ask me the reason if you are not close to me.

For the next 37 days, it will be a challenge and test for me as I am taking the 40-day fast. I hope that during this period, I will draw closer to God as I depend on him for strength and wisdom. Take care my friends and God loves you and so do I.

Leadership

2007-06-09T04:13:00.000+08:00

Phew!!! School break is finally here after weeks of projects and mid-semester tests. Thank God there were only 2 papers for mid-semester test and 2 more after the break. But that can wait. Haha.

Since this semester started, there have been a series of super nice movies that I want to watch all but could not. However, I did catch 'Pirates of the Caribbean' and 'Shrek 3' recently. Both were quite good shows so no regrets. And GSS is on which mean I have been on retail therapy though now together with movies and good food, I am broke. But what's new? Haha :P

Besides school, I attended two conferences, "i-Hope" and "Habituat Leadership" in the past 2 weeks. The speaker for "i-Hope" was Sy Rogers and he was a really inspiring and humorous speaker. Just a bit of background about him, he was once a homosexual (yes...you did not hear me wrong) who become a normal guy who is married and has a daughter. Although the way he speaks, his voice and his actions still reveals his past, his testimony was an encouragement to all and it was an eye-opener to certain things that you will never actually think about especially questions regarding to homosexually. And for "Habitudes Leadership", it was on leadership such as the analogy of the iceberg and starving baker. There were sharings from Pastor Glenn (I think), Daphne Khoo (Singapore Idol participant), Elim Chew (Founder of 77th Street) and a cancer patient.

Recently, I have also watched this video on a guy called Nick Vujicic twice and his testimony is encouraging, brings new things to light and reminds me of things that I have taken granted for. Now you must be wondering what's so special about this guy? Well...he was borned without limbs, meaning no hands and legs. Can you imagine how life is like without limbs? If I was him, I would have taken my life already. But this guy is different. He has completed a Bachelor of Commerce, an international motivational speaker and has his own house. The videos on his website tell it all so do check it out: http://lifewithoutlimbs.org/media.php.

As for today, I decided not to go to Sentosa with the crusaders as I was tired and no mood to play volleyball. Instead, it was a rest day for me to just relax and slack. However, some interesting thoughts came into my mind which I like to share here. They were basically on leadership.

- There is a fine line between respect and trust. The context used here is the respect for leaders and not for others. I may trust the leader to lead and guide the team, meaning I will listen and obey, but that does not necessary mean I have the respect for the leader. In my opinion, respect may attritude to one's own personal gain. A person may gain respect because of his/her position and power. But if that leadership position is taken away, will he/she have the respect from others? I believe that trust is the most important value in a team for things to work. As for respect, it is achieved through time but should not be the main concern of the leader.

What if the following questions were posted to me in regards to my NMS team:
a) Who is/are the most dispensable in the team?
- My answer will be me. I believe that even without the chairperson, this event will still carry on and things will still be done. Event is after all business. The team consists of members who are efficient, responsible and resourceful enough to ensure that every last details are being covered. Besides, there is still the vice-chairperson.

- Another person will be whoever has been contributing the least and not doing his/her part for the event. Following of the ground rules is taken into consideration as well. I don't like free-riders and I believe hard work should be rewared. There should be fairness in everything we do.

b) Who is/are the most indispensable in the team?
- My answer will be everyone. Everyone's effort and hard work play a part in making the event successful. And besides, it is thanks to the members that things get done. Without them, nothing would have been accomplished. But if I was required to target a specific group, I will say the committee heads. They are the driving force in their committee, information providers and task allocators. Although without the members, it will mean more work for them.

So before I end, I will like to thank all my team members for all the effort and hard work you have put into this event. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! Without you, things would not have gotten this far. :)

Back from Mongolia

2007-04-11T16:37:00.000+08:00

Ahah..I just realised that the link I placed in my previous entry for my mission trip is wrong. Oppsie. Haha :p Anyway, I am back from Mongolia after being there for 1 month as I just came back on Sunday.

Having my mission trip in Mongolia has been a memorable, fruitful and an unforgettable one with so many friends made and lessons learnt. Truly I have seen God's love and protection throughout the entire one month there.

1) God protected me from falling all the way into the sewage hole at night. As the lightings on the streets are few, it was rather dark at night and plus I saw that the sewage hole was being covered only by a flimsy piece of cardboard over it. I wonder if anyone had fell into it before. It would be scary to hear about it because I suffered from terrible bruises on my leg after that. And another piece of information, there are many sewage holes on the ground.

2) God's love for the students in both Ulaanbaatar and National University and the kids in Elementary School. As we were spilted into three different campuses, I was assigned to Ulaanbaatar University together with Ronald, Howe Luen and Clement where we taught English to six freshmen classes. As it was tedious for all of us to take all six, we decided to pair up and I was paired with Ronald. The classes we took were the A classes. In other words, the more fluent in English ones and I really thank God for their teacher who gave us lots of help especially in explanation of certain words. Apart from the lessons, the students arranged to meet us after school and they were really hospitable. They had the whole afternoon itinerary planned out for us. There were even students from National University who came over to our house to cook for us. But not forgetting why my team was there in the first place, we invited our contacts twice over to the Student Centre with one, trying Singapore food and the other, sharing Christ with them. They were opened and by God's grace, 21 accepted Christ.

3) One of the Saturdays, my team decided to go give out food to the poorer families and at the same time, share the gospel with them. When I reached the place, there were mostly Gears everywhere where the families stay in but I found out, that there were families worst off than them. There was this particular family who lived in a house made of wooden planks that at first sight, it was obvious that it would not be able to keep them really warm inside. And amazing thing was that the house was built by the mother. Later on, we found out through Saraa, a student leader, that they are Christians. Apart from visiting the families, we approached people who were collecting garbage from the area where rubbish is usually dumped. Besides all the "houses" and rubbish dump, there was this large area filled with tombs but what struck me was many of them had only a year to live. Imagine that. Overall, the families and people were willing to listen and to be prayed for. I pray that God's love, protection and providence will be with them.

4) My team met this 'street' kid at the Cafeteria who turned out to be a boy who ran away from home. At first, we did not know about the truth as he told us he was an orphan (through Zulaa, a student leader) and we bought him food and told him we would like to meet him at the same place on Sunday at night. And he turned up. My team bought him food again and brought him to our home to bathe. It was then we got to know the truth. However as my team was heading to the countryside the next day, we decided to bring him along and send him back home after that. Through this incident, we saw God's love upon Him as even though he was living in th streets for 10 days already, he was a happy kid and he did not steal to get money. He rather begged and his dream is to be a policeman.

5) God helped my team to unite and work together despite our imperfections, flaws and strong characters. It was His love that helped us to love and accept one another as who we are. Living, interacting and seeing for one whole month was no joke and that was where we got to see each other's personality and character. No one is imperfect and it takes time to learn, change and even overcome our weaknesses.

6) God's love and providence were shown through the MCCC staff and student leaders. My team received meal treats from a few of the staff and Zulaa. Also, we received a lot of help from Od and Bolormaa especially Bolormaa who spent a lot of time on us. I am truly grateful and thankful for all they had done for us. No words can describe my aprreciation towards them.

Ok..I shall end off here. I will update more next time. :)

Transitting in Seoul

2007-03-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

Now it is 12.30pm in Seoul and the temperature outside is 2 degrees celsius. Luckily and unluckily for my team, we are stuck in the airport like a caged hamster till the evening where we will take the plane to Mongolia. So far I am surviving except that I am starting to cough and getting headaches, plus my shampoo, conditioner and body wash have been confiscated by the airport. Wahhh..that's a sad news for me.

On a brighter side, we had a wonderful breakfast in the plane and with some of my members asking for second portion. Haha :) And when we reached the airport, we saw the sunrise and we spent the time praying and worshipping God. It was good to remember that we are not going on a holiday but is really about doing God's work in Mongolia. We will faced spiritual warfare and that's no doubt about it because it has already happened even before we left. But I pray and claim on to God's promise that He will be our guide and strength that He will be with us and we shall not fear.

Okie..that's all for now. Will try to update as much as possible. If you are interested, my team has a blog itself, www.everlastingtots.blogspot.com. Do keep us in prayer. :)

Mongolia here I come

2007-03-11T03:11:00.000+08:00

I will be leaving for Mongolia soon in about 19 hours time. After days of meetings at SP, Clementi and GCTC, the day has come for my mission trip. Although I do have worries such as the weather there (0 degrees to -15 degrees) and in reaching out to the University students there, I look forward to it and pray that God will use me to share His love. My team will basically be organising mass evangelism and special program, and teach the students English and Chinese. Hopefully they will be able to understand us. Okie..gtg now. Need to sleep. Will be back on 6th April. Till then. Take care. :)

Mugging

2007-02-25T02:58:00.000+08:00

Mugging mugging mug mug. That is how I have been spending most of my time this week. CNY was short as I only went visiting for 1 day and there were some not so good news. Even so, dinners were good as I had steamboat on Sunday and Monday and a few mahjong sessions. Up to count, I have a total of 4 steamboats this mth. Wahhh..enough already. Still, it is healthy so I don't really mind. Haha :P

As stated in front, I have been spending my time studying outside together with the crusaders. The places we went to eat or study or both were the airport (T2 BK, Macs, Starbucks & staff canteen, T1 Popeye & Delifrance Cafe) and Peninsula Plaza's BK. The recommended place to study is actually the Delifrance Cafe as it is more quiet as compared to the rest. My studying has been quite productive so far as I have covered finish my 2 HR modules. Hopefully I am able to remember and retain in my head the stuffs I had tried to remember, learn and understand. I really want to do my exam papers well this semester so that I can pull all my grades up to A besides Communication Skills 2 that is which I hope to at least obtain a B. :)

This coming monday, 26 Feb, will be Gen12ii Commissioning for my mission trip to Mongolia. Please continue to pray for me in my support raising as I still have a long way to go to reach $2,500 and also for the weather there because it will be -10 degrees to 10 degrees. Blurr..somemore I can't take much cold. O..and pray that as my team is there, we will take the chance to really share Christ to the students in the 2 Universities we will be visiting and that God will break down all barriers especially communication as most of us do not know the Mongolian language.

Ok..I have better get back to my studies. To all my TP friends, all the best for your papers. Press on. Jiayo. Ganbatte. :)

Projects are mostly over

2007-02-11T03:14:00.000+08:00

I can finally take a breather after weeks of doing projects. This term has certainly been tiring and tedious with all the different projects and tests to study for. The whole process would have been a killer if it was not for certain group of people that God has placed in my life.

1. My indispensable group members (Tajjlee, Eunice, Vivien, Priya & Delvina)
- It has been great working with all of them through the projects. Without these guys, the projects would not have been going smoothly nor would we have fun doing them. And I don't know whether I should be thanking for this or not but thank them for the different nicknames they have given to the tutors because it brought humour to my group.

2. The gals in Daphne's group (Daphne, Melissa, Hamizah, Abigail & Lay Yi)
- Their group has been great company in the Comm Hub. It was wonderful knowing them all through the meals, chats and laughters.

3. Tutors (Ms Tay, Ms Tan, Mrs Thomas & Mr Nah)
- Thank God for such tutors who are approachable and available as well as who care more than just having to teach and do what they need to do. They have been patient in meeting my project groups especially for CJP and Comm Skills.

4. Foo Min (My group's contact personnel from PA)
- The project internship would not have been going smoothly if it was not for all the help Foo Min has given my group. She has been super nice to us.

I really thank God for all these people who have made this semester better than it is supposed to be.

This week was almost the finale for all my projects. There were submissions for HR report, collaterals, speech writing, CI manual, crisis manual and 2 reflective journals. Also, there were CJP&PCC presentation, HR role-play and mind-maps presentation. Now all thatis left is Comm Skills role-play. Hence, I am super happy. Haha ;)

However, all was not lost besides the projects as I still found time for other things. On Monday, it was the last DG for this semester and I did a spiritual gifts test with my gals. It was interesting to hear the gifts they have developed or are developing. On Wednesday, it was pizza under the stars during LM and on Thursday, something interesting happened. When Ms Tan pressed the button for the screen to move up, the projector was lifted up from its position as the bottom of the screen was hooked underneath it. It was super funny especially since it took quite a while for one of us to react as the people who saw what was happening just sat shocked with "Oh my god" coming out of their mouths. It was super funny. Hahahahaha :P Also, I received my test grade and thank God I did not do badly. I got a B so it was quite acceptable.

As for Friday, I was in the Comm Hub and had lunch there together with gals in Daphne's group as my group did not want to eat yet. After Daphne's group left for their presentation, I was waiting to collect the reflective journals and stayed on with Eunice, Vivien, Priya, Delvina and Tajjlee. Soon after a while, only Eunice, Vivien and myself were left in the Hub as I was only meeting my mission team at Dover only at 5pm and I was lazy to go home. And guess what I did? I was so tired that I combined 2 roller chairs and slept on it. Haha. Next time I shall bring sleeping bag and leave it in the Hub. Wahahaha. :P

I left at 3pm to place the journals on the tutors' tables before heading off to Dover. My bus took super long to come and I could not board the first one that arrived as it was fully packed. I only managed to get onto the second bus at almost 4pm and that was when I received a call from Daphne few minutes later. I was surprised to hear that that her group just finished their presentation since I heard it was supposed to start at 2pm. Anyway, her call made me alight the next stop and returned back to school as we needed to discuss our role-play due to something important that has happened. The frustrating thing was that I could have left at 5pm if I knew earlier that Ms Tan was on half-day leave and we did not need to wait for her to call me back. Arghhh. In the end, I left at 6pm and reached Dover at 7 plus for my mission team meeting at SP. Somehow when I was at SP, it felt like I was in Secondary School instead of Poly because of its structure, floorings, doors, etc. But it was so cool that SP Crusaders have their own crusade room. May TP Crusade has one too. :) After the meeting, we had dinner at Clementi before heading home. I need to start planning for the special program for my Mogolia mission trip as logistics need to be settled soon and plus, I am the program IC. So there it goes.

As for today, I had to go back to school for role-play meeting. Sad can. Somemore it is a Saturday. As expected, the guy could not come and that left us the gals to try to sort things out as the role-play is a group collaboration. Hence, we went to find Ms Tan who was not in her room but instead, at JAE Admission in the Auditorium. It was kind of interesting as we could post off as the students coming for the admission when we entered. As we were waiting for Ms Tan to finish her talk, one of the tutors approached us and his face displayed a surprise and shocking expression when we told him we were looking for our tutor. Haha. It was not surprising as who would come down to look for a tutor on a Saturday especially at JAE Admission.

However, I felt that Ms Tan was sort of expecting us but probably not all of us as I had left her a note on her table the day before. Initially, I was waiting for her call in the morning but she told us that she had to be at the Auditorium, thus she did not have the time to call me. Still in the end, we went to find her and it was a good thing we did. She helped to lift a big rock off our backs. O..and we saw Ms Tay and her cute son. Haha. It was my first time seeing her dressed casually in school in tweety bird t-shirt, jeans and sling-bag. Lecturers in Business School are always dressed nicely and poised. Well...the meeting went pretty smoothly and we ended before 12 noon. After that, Magdalene and I went to catch the movie "Miss Potter" at TM before heading for lunch at Sakae Sushi in White Sands.

Yup..that's all for this week. Next week is going to be busy and I have to take injections on Monday. Ahhh...I don't want. O well. Ok..till another time.

Projects and more projects

2007-01-22T02:01:00.000+08:00

I realised that I have not update for quite a long while so I shall do it now before I do not have the time to do so. Since the start of this year, it has been hectic with at least one project submission each week and CJP test. The results for HR mid-sem test was relatively good and average for my PCC test. But sad to say, it was a different story for CJP. I just barely passed and somemore it's my favourite subject as compared to the rest of the modules. Bleah. I felt even more sad when Ms Tay told me she expected me to do well. Boohoohoo :(

Last week, I attended FUSION 2007 which was held at Suntec City. The workshop I went to was good and it was conducted by Pastor Benny Ho. The night rallies were interesting as they had performances done by different churches. The dance performances were disappointing though. But the worship sessions really ushered in the presence of God and Y0uth Alive was invited.

As for this week, it was a mad rush as my group just got started on our project portfolio which was due on Friday. We only discussed which were the private and public companies that we were going to do on. Priya and Delvina had to go down to KKH to get the collaterals on Monday, while Tajjlee and I went down to Parkway Holdings to meet the Corporate Communication Manager. And guess what? I got mistook as a NUS student when we introduced our names. Hee..the meeting felt like SIP but it was a good experience. In order to finish doing the project, we spent nights in the Comm Hub till 10pm. It was fun though. Haha ;)

O and thursday, I changed my Kelly Service attachment to the morning and as it was Open House, James asked us to help pack stuffs into the goodie bags. It was hot as I was in formal clothes and the I-Guides were nonsense. I was super irritated by them. We are not their packers can. Melissa and I wanted to 'scold' James but did not as he bought the six of us a Snapple and curry puff each. Heehee ;P

On the same day, I realised how lame my Comm Skills tutor could be. She saw me wearing formal and asked if I was wearing for Kelly. I said yes and she asked again twice and my reply was the same for both. But I noticed that each time I replied, her smile got bigger and I realised what was happening. So when she asked the last time, I said, "No. It's for their services." My goodness gracious. I don't even know who Kelly is. Dotz.

Then on Saturday, I had to come back for project and we completed it relatively fast. As there was no good movies showing and the remaining three of us, Shukie, Dinesh and I, were getting comfortable being in the Comm Hub, we stayed in there till about 3 plus. What were we doing? We were watching videos on Ms Swan, chatting and eating strawberry dipped in chocolate. Yum. Haha. Before we left for lunch at LJS, Shukie and I went to take a look around at the Open House. Somehow I felt that this year's Open House wasn't as happening as last year. Actually, it was quite disappointing. O wellz..not for me to decide.

Okie..shall end off here. But before that, I like to thank all my project group mates (CJP, PCC, HR, Comm Skills, KS) for everything and being my friends. You guys rocks. :D

Metamorphosis 2006

2007-01-01T04:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all out there!!! May all your wishes come true and God bless!!! :)

I'm back from METAMORPHOSIS 2006!!! This year, it was a combined camp of all the Polytechnics, Universities, Student Venture and Laselle/Nafa. It was held at NUS Prince George Park with the theme, "Movements Everywhere...Be That Someone." From TPCCC, we had two teams and the CGLs were Bo Chun and myself, and the ACGLS were Phyllis and Ben.

Coming to this camp was refreshing for me and a break away from my projects and studies. Anyone who says Poly life is slack is so so wrong. It is totally not slack at all, maybe more fun and independent in a sense. METAMORPHOSIS was way different from my youth camps and this time round, it was focused on training. For the first two days, I attended "Wave 1 Mission Trip Training" for 3 hours or more each as I will be going to Mongolia in March for mission trip. I'm looking forward to it though I do have certain worries. The workshop was intensive as there were a few speakers covering different things all within that 6 hours. There was no time to absorb plus I was tired and cold, super cold. It was raining heavily outside and the air-con could not be adjusted as it is controlled by a central system. Bummer. Apart from the worship, I attended a hip-hop lesson conducted by a professional hip-hopper. Whoa. It was super fun, tiring and I want to do it again!!! Hee. As I was wearing shorts, I ended up with bruises on both my knees and my arms hurted.

Besides the workshops, there were speaker sessions in the mornings and evenings. It was difficult trying to keep my eyes open as I was tired. I slept late like around 3am and kept waking up many time in the night as it was cold. Videos were showed as well many times and the ones on CM 2007 were super funny. They used the Korean shows but replaced the characters' faces with the staffs'. Super hilarious. Worship was great with the theme song 'Hosanna' by Paul Baloche.

On thursday, we had Project X the entire afternoon. TP was assigned to ChinaTown and I was partnered with Irene. Why am I not surprise? Last year, I was paired up with a staff as well, Calyn. I felt stressed and in the end, it was good as she encouraged me to approach people. The first person we approached was a chinese uncle and Irene shared with him the booklet, "What You See Is Not All You Get," in chinese. I kept praying and praying especially when she turned to another page and God indeed is at work. The uncle was at first reluctant then slowly he started to open up and his final answer was he will consider. I was really happy. After that, I shared with an ah beng who is around my age while Irene shared to 3 of his friends who appeared later on. Through the sharing, I could hear that his English was not that fluent and later, I found out that he was a school dropout. In the middle of the sharing, his mother appeared and she looked fierce but left after saying some thing to her son. From that though, I could see that he had parental problem but I did not probe on it. I continued sharing and he was willing and open to read the words out and guess what, he accepted God!!! Praise God!!! And even better still, his 3 friends accepted God too!!! Halleujah!!! Praise God!!! :D The last person I shared the booklet to was to an Indonesian uncle who turned out to be a Christian and was trying to test me as I was young. No wonder he asked me questions that were weird but thank goodness, Irene was with me.

As for Friday, there was a session "Out of the Box" where TRP together with NUS N0rth and Laselle/Nafa grouped to discuss the individual problem faced by TRP and Laselle/Nafa, and NUS North. It was a good session though I felt there were many ideas that were not fresh, new and feasible for TP. Still, I feel that there should be more of this kind of sessions. After that session, we had our own campus ministry time and TRP is together. We celebrated Yap Min's birthday during the session and as usual, we opened the time to share something about her. Other than that, we had a time of sharing and prayed for each other. At night, there was this part after the speaker session where the speaker prayed for the people for three things:
1) Full-time ministry
2) Spiritual Multiplier
3) Baptism

I wanted to stand for the full-time ministry but I did not. I'm lost what God wants me to do and I felt that I am not ready plus there are other worries as well.

Overall, METAMORPHOSIS 2006 was great and I learned a lot through it. The shirt design was really nice and we received our TRP jersey as well during the camp. On the last night. we went out to have prata and when I came back to the campus, I had Macs. No wonder keep gaining weight. Haha :p Well...I am looking forward to my mission trip in March where I will be going to Mongolia. I am really trusting God in my support raising as I need to raise up $2,500 for my trip. Anyone who would like to support me financially or/and in prayer, do let me know. I thank you in advance and may God bless you richly in His full abundance. :) Okie..that's all and now, I shall leave you the theme songs. I will put in the photos soon.

Hosanna

by Paul Baloche

Praise is rising, eyes are turning to You, we turn to You

Hope is stirring, hearts are yearning for You, we long for You

'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day

In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

Come have Your way among us

We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

Hear the sound of hearts returning to You, we turn to You

In Your Kingdom broken lives are made new, You make us new

'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day

In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

Come have Your way among us

We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day

In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away

'Cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day

In Your Pres- ence all our fears are washed away, washed away

CHORUS

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

You are the God Who saves us, worthy of all our praises

Ho- san- na, ho- sanna

Come have Your way among us We welcome You here, Lord Jesus

(Repeat)

Ho- san- na, ho- san- na

18th Birthday

2006-12-13T02:42:00.000+08:00

I'm finally eighteen!!! Elegant Eighteen. Forever Eighteen. Woohoo!!! :P I would like to thank all of you out there who wished me happy birthday, especially my crusade family. Thank you so much you guys for the surprise birthday in the airport last Friday. I thought I won't have any birthday because of the project and mid-sem test but you guys made my birthday a happiest one. I love you all!!! *hugs* Also, I would like to thank delvina, eunice, priya and vivien for the birthday lunch at Pizza Hut on Sunday after our project at Yew Tee CC. It was really nice of you gals. Love ya :)

Besides my birthday, another highlight was last Wednesday when 2 groups, daphne's and mine, stayed in the Comm Hub till 10pm after our PCC peer teaching session. Although most of us were rushing to complete our Observer's Report, which was due at 5pm that afternoon, and HR Report, which was due at 10am the following day, we had lots of fun. Wondering why? Heehee :)

Around 6 plus, daphne, melissa and myself when to buy dinner for everyone and some of us ate outside the Hub. This was because the three of us on the way back to the Hub saw mrs thomas and some other teachers in the room just few rooms away from the Hub. If I am not mistaken, we were actually not allowed to eat inside. But in the end, who cares? Haha. Even though there are 2 security cameras insides, I doubt they are working. As a form of distress, daphne and abigail had a race on the roller chairs to see who can touch the rubbish bin first. Then I joined in but not a race, instead ghost. I was wondering what mrs thomas's reaction would be if she heard sounds of the roller chairs zooming pass the room. Haha. It would definitely sound freaky because it was already about 8 in the evening and the corridor was quiet. In the end, we did until the front of the room but decided it was best not to in case she kills us. Wahahaha :P After that, it was back to rushing maddness in completing our HR Report.

Then there was the Children Camp Leaders' Appreciation Dinner on Friday evening and as expected, teacher jessie made mango pudding. Yummy!!! I want another box that she made for me before. Hehe :P Saturday was a knock out day for me. I wanted to get up to study but could not. My body was dead tired after weeks of insufficient sleep and I slept till about 4pm in the afternoon. Gosh. That left me with only the evening to study and of course, half of the early morning till about 3 plus am as I had to go down to Yee Tee CC at 10am. Imagine on your birthday you had to be at Yee Tee CC to conduct surveys and take a look at their collaterals. How sucky is that. Plus when my group was there, we had to see one of the in-charge's attitude face. I think she PMS that day. On the way home, I was falling asleep in the taxi and reached home around 3 plus in the afternoon. I wanted to study but ended up falling asleep and soon after, I went for dinner at Family International Buffet and regretted it. I had a terrible tummy upset the next day up till now plus the food was not really good. I would stick to Sakura instead.

As for yesterday, HR paper was so screwed and I did quite badly for my Comm Skills test with a C+. Arrgghh!!! I want an A for Comm Skills 2 if not at least a B+, which I got for Comm Skills 1. Apart from the 'bad news', I went to town with daphne, hamizah, melissa and tajjlee after that and daphne drove. It was a hearty lunch at Swensen and retail therapy following that although I was tired and had a tummy upset and plus gastric pain later in the evening. I was struggling to collate the survey results at mid-night as I needed to email them with the project details to foo min, my group main contact from PA.

Today, it was Kelly Service attachment as we did not want to go back to school during the break, which actually is no break for me with all the meetings, projects and camp. In the morning, there was nothing much to do except I arranged for an interview that afternoon and helped to 'pack' Christmas gifts for some of the lecturers. During lunch break, james drove us to Tampines and we had lunch at Bistro Delifrance without him though. And the food I ordered tasted horrible, which was a shell-shaped pasta which cream sauce, clams and mushroom. I can't remember what it was called but do not ever buy that to eat. It had a mix of chinese and italian taste, which was not a good combination. So don't ever try that. After that, it was back to Kelly where I conducted an interview together with magdalene and all of us had appraisal by james following that. It felt awkward at first but it was a very short one and that was good. :) Then we discussed the project and talked quite a fair bit about the fashion sense of some of our leactures. Hehe :P Before heading home, we spent a vain effort in finding the HR tutor. But as expected, she was on leave and so were many of the lecturers.

Okie..back to business. I am still thinking how to change my hairstyle. *sigh* Anyway, that is all I want to talk about my life. Nitez. :D

Children's Camp

2006-11-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

Children's camp, REAL (Receive Eternal Abundant Life) is over after 3 long days but I miss the kids in my group. Alpha Bits!!! I was an assistant leader while the group leader was jonathan and it was a great arrangement. Number 1: I did not have to do the devotion with the kids, in other words, teach. Number 2: Being an AL seemed to be more free in a sense. Heehee :) Anyway, I could not make it on thursday morning as I had my Kelly Service attachment that morning and there were VIPs coming down. Getting to that, it was ridiculous as we had to be there early and in the end, they came down late and they stayed only for maximum up to 3 minutes. My goodness. Waste our time only and james is still on his 'win a date with james' thing. Who wants to go with him to watch movie together with his company's people? It is so awkward.

Back to the children's camp, there was an altar call on the last afternoon and the response was overwhelming. Almost all the kids went up. I could see the teachers tearing when they went to lay their hands on the children and prayed for them one by one. It was such a joyful and emotional sight to see. Throughout the whole camp, my group was the most punctual and the most disciplined. Haha. ;) For the talent night, they did their cheer and a drama on Jesus's crucifixion and resurrection. The cheer went like this:

(Guys' part in blue/Gals in red)
Give me an A - Amazing
Give me a L - Loving
Give me a P - Powerful
Give me a H - Holy
Give me an A - Almighty
This spells Alpha.
This describes Jesus.
(Together) Gooooo Alpha.
(One small boy) Bits.

Interesting and meaningful right?? O and my group came in second. Not bad as we did not do so well in the games. Overall, the children's camp was great with good food (thanks to teacher jessie), great fun, wonderful kids and awesome praise and worship songs.

Throughout that week, I had to help my group do the PCC presentation slides and discuss CJP project, which was due on friday. I stayed up nights doing them and even did not sleep on thursday night despite having the children's camp the following morning. After the camp ended at around 6pm on saturday, I had to rush down to yishun where sharon's church is as I had to teach the youths there dance for their mission trip. It was really by God's strength that I could cope with everything and not breakdown.

Besides all these, I felt God speaking to me during that week. It started when irene showed the crusaders a vcd about this caterpillar 'Hermie.' It was about the caterpillar, who felt he was ordinary, normal, plain, and wanted to be like others and tried ways to be like them. And everytime he asked God why, God asked him who made the others and told him that God was not done with him yet. The story ended with the caterpillar acknowledging of who he is because he has a great God and became a butterfly later on. Throughout the whole story, I felt God speaking to me as I am just like the caterpillar. I don't like myself. I tried to be like the people around me who are better than me. I don't know who I am. Surprisingly, this was played during the children's camp as well.

The other thing I felt God speaking to me was about my decision to go to Mongolia for mission trip. I was at first despondent when I saw that after quite long, there was only 1 person who signed up for Mongolia and that person was me. Also, there is the support raising issue as I have to raise up $2,500 which is the most 'costly' as compared to the rest. All these made me think whether I had made the right decision and my second alternative was to go with TRP crusaders to Sabah instead.

But God assured me that I did not made the wrong decision and that it was his calling for me as well. Firstly, irene showed me a Christian magazine article which talked about Mongolia. Secondly, when I went to attend an NE talk by Ron Kaufman on wednesday afternoon, he covered quite a bit about his experience in Mongolia. I remembered he said that the best way to develop a relationship with them is to have a meal with them. Thirdly, I read about an article on newspaper today about Jerry Yen's experience in Mongolia, being the first ambassador of Asia for World Vision International. If all these do not convince me, I seriously don't know what would. These are not by concidence.

Ok..I shall end off here. I need to get back to my work. Cheers.

Busy Semester

2006-11-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I lasted updated which was before school started for this semester 2.2. I can't believe how time passes so fast and soon I will be graduating from TP. Hopefully I will be able to get into either NTU or SMU after that.

Since this semester started, it has been a super busy period as projects came on after another. In addition, I have attachment to Kelly Services every thursday and PA project, which my group is doing on front-of-house. I guess so far things are going quite alright for now but as deadlines are nearing, things will get heated up real soon. Even among all these busyness, I still managed to watch 'Flush Away' together with komala, magadalene, gerald and dinesh. O..and I have gotten the 'BANG' cards. Yippee!!! :D

As for this week, it was slack in terms of tutorials as we only need to come down to school at certain timeslots to meet the various tutors for peer teaching sessions. This week, however, my group had problems with the PA in regards to whether the project internship is align with what we are supposed to learn. If it doesn't, we will withdraw and having substantial reasons to do so. It started on tuesday when my group met up with ms tay for peer teaching and she asked us about the PA project. Now this is one of the tutors who is concerned about their students and not just purely what they need to do. I found out that she was not keen on working with PA in the first place and was cautious about the whole project. We have to learn whatever we are supposed to learn with the additional hands-on experience and not to be runners.

So that basically started everything. I had to call foo min (PA person-in-charge of my group) a few times and Yew Tee CC. Then my group met up with ms tay a few times as well to hear what she has to say in regards to the project. In the end, we decided not to withdraw as it was align with our learning and there was no substantial reason for us to witbhdraw. o_O

O and on wedneday, 4 people from Doulos came down for life meeting to share about their experience and testimony. They were all from different countries, Singapore, Philippines, South Korea and US. Their sharing really touched my heart especially the struggles they had to go through and overcome. It was inspiring as well to hear their experience on Doulos such as what they do in there. Hmmm...I may signed up with them. Let's see how it goes. Hee ;)

Okie..I shall stop here and go back to my work. Till next time. Cheers.

Staff Summit Babysitting/Faith or Blind Faith?

2006-10-21T07:06:00.000+08:00

This week is my last week of holiday before going back to school for the new semester. Sadly, I did not have the opportunity and time to work for a while. But all is not lost as I have gained a great deal during this period of holiday.

Basically, I was super packed this week and feeling quite tired. Started from monday evening till about 1pm today, I was helping crusade staff babysit their kids as they were having their Staff Summit at NSRCC. There were about 19 kids and they were mostly 4-5 years old and below. The oldest one was 8 yrs old. The helpers were as below:

Monday 6pm to 9.30pm - bo chun, jocelyn, annabel and myself
Tuesday 9am to 5pm - auntie patsy, yap min, grace, jocelyn and myself
8pm to 9.30pm - annabel and jocelyn
Wednesday 9am to 4.30pm - yap min, grace, jocelyn and myself
7.30pm to 9.30om - yap min, jocelyn, annabel and myself
Thursday 9am to 1pm - auntie patsy, auntie valerie, auntie irene and myself

What we did with the kids were things like taking care of them, bringing them to the indoor/outdoor playground and outside to blow bubbles, giving them tea (snacks) and so on. It was fun although tiring and soemtimes at my wits end when anyone of them start crying for their mummy. Some of them were quite havoc as well. Overall, auntie shirley was in charge of the babysitting and she is really good with the kids. Hmmm..must learn from her. Hee ;) O and during the summit, I saw the games the staff were playing and it was funny. It was my first time seeing them acting like kids and they were saying luckily no student was around. Haha. Too bad. ;P And I found out that auntie patsy is involved in BRMC's children ministry and she knows uncle alan. What a small world.

On tuesday evening, auntie patsy gave yap min, grace and myself a ride to PS as we were having TP outing. Her car is super nice and spacious . Hee. :) The three of us, together with ben, phyllis and michelle, went to have out dinner at Mos Burger first before meeting the rest at Minds Cafe. This time round with a camera. Haha. It was fun playing the new games and we ended late as well, being the last group to leave the place. What's new?

As for today after babysitting, I was given a ride by auntie patsy to orchard where I was going to meet simon, ben and wen hao. Before that, auntie patsy introduced her daughter, sharon mah, to me and I found out that there are not only 3 sharons but 4. Hmmm...who is the other one? A mystery to me. Haha ;P Anyway, the guys and I ended walking to Cinneleisure to watch "The Prestige." At first, we were still thinking whether we wanted to as simon and myself wanted to crash the staff's party in the evening. It is rarely that we see the staff acting crazy. Hehe ;) In the end we did watched and it was a good show. Dinner at Kobayashi was the same three people as wen hao needed to go off. As usual, it was another eventful and interesting session.

It started off with ben sharing a weird dream that he had yesterday and he wanted to find out what it means. He shared about his pastor (i think) keeping a record of his dreams and how some actually came true. Simon shared a few of his and they were quite an eye opener. For me, my dreams are freaky as the people in my dreams are real life. They seem real as I am looking from a first person point of view. Brrrr... From this conversation, it went to the topic on magic and so concidentally, ben dreamt of magic and the movie we just watched was on magic as well. Whoa!! We started talking the magic that david blaine and criss angel perform, which we described it was black magic. The sharing continued to david copperfield, who ben said is a Christian, and pastor lawrence and we asked ourselves, "What is the difference between the magic these 2 groups performed?" "What is the difference between white magic and black magic?"

And from this topic, we went into Christian stuffs that simon brought up, "Blind Faith and Faith." and he said this that stunned me, " There are errors in the bible." He showed us some verses that his DGL shared with him and there is no mistake about it. At first, I was trying to find some ways to sort of "proof him wrong." But as the discussion went on, I realised why.

The first thing that came to my mind was, "Isn't the bible suppose to be perfect?" It is God's Word and God is perfect. So how can there be errors? Sounds contradicting doesn't it? But think about these: What is perfect? What is perfect to you? When I thought about that, it brought everything to a whole new meaning. Our mindset has been set on the meaning of perfect by the world, by man. 'Perfect' as defined by man means correct, pure, flawless and absolute. But what does 'perfect' mean by God? Have you ever thought that these "errors" were placed in the bible for a reason? That God has intended it to be? Why? No one knows. Only God does. And simon shared that "God uses the foolish to shame the wise." (Paraphrase) This also brought up the topic on "Christian Ego."
After the discussion, I saw things in a different light. We need the wisdom to read the bible that comes from God and not from man. The bible is God's not man's.

Okie..I need to sleep already as I have a long day tmr. Anybody has any views just tag me. I would like to hear from you.

Everything happens for a reason

2006-10-15T17:02:00.000+08:00

Usually for my entries, I just title them with whatever event that happened in during that particular week. But for this entry I am about to blog, I have entitled it, "Everything happens for a reason."

This sentence has been so real and outstanding to me throughout this week. It started when I went to town with simon, ben and avon where we caught a movie, You, Me and Dupree. The show was hilarious especially the '-ness' part and after sending avon off, the three of us went for dinner and that was where everything started off. We were talking about crusade, church and lots of other stuffs. One of the question I asked was, "Why are we going to church/youth ministry?" and it was encouraging to hear one another's testimonies especially simon's. Two main points he brought up were: 1) The place where your life was changed and 2) There is a reason why God has placed you in that church/youth ministry. All the sharings made me think back to the times I spent in youth ministry since I stepped into it. It was only then I realised that youth ministry has actually played a large role in my Christian life. Without it, I may still be a 'Christian' by name.

The second time was when I met up with irene, yap min, lee huan and howe luen for a time of catching up at Kennedy Rogers. It was good food, good fellowship and good sharing. Lee huan shared this one thing that I will never forget, "What I learned and gone through in crusade can be applied in church." That hit me and I asked myself, "Why am I in crusade?" I remembered that I did not want to have anything to do with "Christian stuffs" when I first entered TP, especially crusade since I first heard it from cheryl and jialing. I wanted my life back. It is not that I did not have a life when I was in secondary school. I had a wonderful time going out and spending time with church people and serving in church. It is only that when I thought back, church took up most of my secondary school life and now? Hence when I entered TP, I just wanted to make friends and hang out.

But still, I ended up in crusade and not only that, I became super involved in it. It is so ironic but I never once regretted being in crusade. Instead, I thank God for pulling me into this ministry. And it is so true that what I grew in and learned in crusade can be applied in church (though I am not doing it). Is that why God placed me in crusade in the first place?

As for the third time, it happened during ST meeting today when phyllis shared about her classmate's death. I shall not go into it but I will share some main points. In her sharing, she said that she asked God how come and God replied her through the Word that He allowed it to happen. God allowed it to happen because He has His reasons. And it was true. Lecturers whom phyllis did not know were Christians, went down to the hospital to pray for her friend.When her friend died, she and her Christian classmate,together with 6-8 non-Christians, gathered to pray although she could see the uneasiness in them.And phyllis's only Christian classmate started talking to her about stuffs that they never talk about before until this happened and the deceased happened to be a non-Christian. This whole incident has created a breakthrough and reminded us that life is fragile.

Indeed everything happens for a reason whether you know it or not!!! For me right now, I have no idea why I am still going to church where I feel lost and empty. All I can do is seek God and pray about it.

SM Training

2006-10-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

O gosh! My allowance has been reduced. Bleah. This sux. O well..come what may. Nothing much different has happened for the past week. I met up with yap min and ben for D&R meeting cum lunch in the afternoon on monday. Asriel was supposed to be present for the meeting but somewhere the timing got mixed up with the guys' DG. After that, we went to take a bus down to RP for their life meeting. At the bus-stop, the guys gathered in the circle to pray for daniel as he was heading to work. Then in the bus, they also continued to pray. It was really an amazing sight to see as others (public) were looking at what they were doing. Anyway, life meeting was great especially the sharing. It was wonderful hearing how God has answered some of their prayers. Praise God!!! :) As for dinner, we went to eat at Macs and there, we continued D&R meeting. This time with asriel present. Haha. ;)

Now tuesday was a super duper fun evening. We spent the entire night at Mind's Cafe and it was ladies' night. Hence, the girls all played for free. Wahahaha ;P The people present were bo chun, daniel, ben, wen hao, jia liang, ronald, ron, han sheng, phyllis, yap min, grace, esther and myself. A total of 13 people. All of us were so engrossed in playing that though we were hungry, we continued playing till we had to catch the last train home. Haha. Personally for myself, I was super happy to see esther and grace joining us for this outing. Esther is one of my disciples so it was great getting to know her better. Hopefully. i can raise her up as ESM. Hmm..will see how it goes and is up to God as well though I really hope it happened. Hee :D

There was supposed to have a D&R meeting on wed but I decided to cancel it to give everyone a break. It had been lots of planning since the start of the holidays. As for thursday, there was SM Training at 10am, GCTC. As there were still quite a few details to settle, I asked my D&R com (including yap min) if we could meet at 8am, habourfront station, and have meeting cum breakfast at Macs. And surprisingly, all replied can and they did. We met for breakfast and discussed everything we needed to. I really have to thank each one of them, for all their committment, effort and time. Thanks a million guys!!! :D O..and we got a cake to celebrate joelle's b'dae in advance plus a big card.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOELLE!!!

SM Training was enriching and I learned a lot from the sharing ronald (crusade staff) gave on 'Prayer Movements'. He shared about the passion that TP crusaders have in their prayers and prayer movements happening around the world. He also shared how he saw people praying so frevently that they were crying though they were guys. I guess this happened when we really want something so badly and it can only be done in the Holy Spirit and leaving the results to God. Both TP and RP have been praying non-stop to become recognised as a CCA and will continue to pray till it happen. And I believe we will not stop there. We want to see breakthrough in our campuses and creating movements everywhere. The mission and vision we have taken up and owned and will do what it takes in God's power to make them happen.

And I saw amber and lindy at GCTC. One was a stinter ongoing training there while the other was having meeting there as well, NUS side. I got to know more about amber during dinner at Serangoon Prata and listened to her story. It was somewhat 'shocking', 'amazing' and 'encouraging'. All three combined into one and I was touched by it as well. It is so amazing to hear about how God has worked in her life. Thank God for this sister!!! :)

As for today, I refused to get up of bed till afternoon. Actually I wanted to swim in the morning but was hazy, so I changed my mind. Maybe tmr?? See first I guess. Argh. There are things for me to do but I'm being lazy. Bleah. :P I have better try to get rid of that laziness.

Ok..nothing to say already. Nitez.

Refresh!

2006-09-21T17:37:00.000+08:00

This past two days have really been a knocked off period for me from all the events. I have been waking up only in the early afternoon, trying to recoup all my lost sleep. *Yawn*

Last monday, I had a meeting at GCTC together with irene, phyllis, yap min, wan teng, maggie, bo chun and simon in the evening. We had dinner at the same time while discussing the details and schedule for the retreat. I was tired and BBQ-ed from my morning swim so I was thankful that the meeting did not lasted for more than 2 hours though we went to get a drink after that.

On Wednesday early afternoon, it was the start of TRP Planning Retreat at Safra Resort. The girls took one 'house' while the guys took the other one. It was OYO (On Your Own) till 6pm, therefore we had icebreakers first before phyllis, simon and I went swimming. It was refreshing as there was not much sun and the weather was rather hot. Then in the evening, we listened to one of John Piper's messages, "Captivated by God through the Word" before entering into a time of planning in our own campus focus groups, Evanglism & Prayer and Discipleship & Recruitment. Interesting presentations after that. Heh. ;) Although it was past mid-night already, most of us stayed up to play 'Bridge' till about 5am. Yap min and I volunteered to sleep in the leaving room as due to lack of space and we slept with the tv on playing songs from the MTV channel. I liked it and how I wished I could do that at home too. Haha ;P

On Thursday, we listened to another message by the same guy. I did not catch the title of the message though. After that, it was lunch and more planning focus by irene and mimi before entering into the details in our own campus. And guess what happened after that? We called for the majong set and started playing. Haha. Then at night, it was Appreciation Night conducted by simon and myself though most of the credit would have to go to simon as it was mostly his ideas. :) Well...we broke the crusaders into 3 groups to act out a certain passage in the bible in two given genres/styles. The first group has to act out a part on "The Fall of Jericho" in army and sissy styles. The second group was on John 21:15-25 and in hip-hop and I think is hong kong style. The last group was on Daniel 6 and in Indian and another style that I cannot remember what. Overall, the performances were hilarious. Wahahaha. Yoyoyoyo!!! ;P After that, we did the appreciating of the passionate freshmens, seniors and our staff, irene, before entering into a time of worship. After which, it was back to mahjong, "White Chick" and "Honey" shows before all headed to the guys' "house" to watch "Full House". All except yap min and me that is. Both of us were not interested in these kind of shows, for me that is.

On Friday, it was booking out at 10am and most of us went to Changi Airport for breakfast where we had an interesting walk too. Haha ;) After that, I headed to phyllis's house to put my bag before we went to meet bo chun to buy the stuff for the BBQ Night the next day. O man..I was like dead tired and it was cold as it was raining. I heard it was 24 degrees that day. Blurrrr... I only managed to leave her house around 7 plus after settling some stuffs.

On Saturday, I went to get some more stuff for the BBQ Night before heading to phyllis's house in the early afternoon. We managed to get everything done in time and I really thanked the Lord for the weather. We were praying real hard for good weather that day when it became quite downcast in the afternoon. So yeah. Thank You So Much God!!! The night went really well with the ice-breakers, opening with the song "Pass It on" and lighting of candles, worship, food, games and fellowship. I was glad that a few of the crusaders from the pioneering mission team could make it. So happy. :D

Then this week's monday, I attended Refresh! (Spiritual Multiplier Conference) at Third Place and I really learned a lot through it. I will share what I learned in the next entry. The mission "Movements Everywhere...So That Every Student Will Know Someone Who Truly Follows Jesus" is becoming more real to me than just being a statement and it is a desire in my heart. I was indeed refresh and more passionate than ever to reach TP campus for God. I pray that God will give me the courage and boldness to carry out "The Great Commandment" and "The Great Commission."

Okie..that's all. I am starting to feel sleepy and I want to go do my QT before I hit the sack. And I have a meeting later on in the afternoon as well. Adiyos and nitez. ;)

Poly Summit

2006-09-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

It's the second week of my school holidays already and I haven't find a job yet. Boo. :( Even so, my first week was taken up by crusade and so is this week, hence I don't think I am able to work juz yet. But I really hope to find a job because I seriously in need of the money.

On the brighter note, I went for my first Crusade Poly Summit last wednesday to thursday at NACLI. Later it was found out that it was until friday. Sigh. Still the two full days rocked!! :) It was great getting to know crusaders from different polys and getting to hear from them about their thanksgivings, problems faced, ideas and views through the discussion sessions. During the problems and ideas discussions, we were spilt to different areas and I felt quite disheartened as TP Campus Crusade is not official so problems faced were different and many ideas were not really feasible for us. Even so, I know that we will is God working in TP Crusade and the campus itself.

Besides the discussions, there was sessions on the message as well and it was mainly on 'Leadership.' This is one topic that interests me a lot. There were teachings on a leader's heart, principles, skills, ect but the one that impacted me the most was on 'Roles of a Leader.' I have been placed in a leadership position as fas as I can date back since primary schoo whether in church, school or outsidel. And this particular session really impressed on me a lot compared to any leadership conferences I have been. It made me realised that my thinking of what a leader is and does has been so narrow and it brought me to look at things in great light and perspective. Here are the 4 roles of a leader:

[Present (People)]
- Coach -> To help individuals succeed at advancing the mission of the whole.
- Spokesperson -> Able to communicate the mission and vision clearly to other inside and outside the ministry.
[Future Realities]
- Change Agent -> Evaluates ministry and alter things that are not working.
- Direction Setter -> Sees a picture of a desired future, and is willing to do what is required to get there.
* In the center of all 4 roles - Heart for God

This session was rounded up by reminding us that we are servants leaders, where we are serving God and others (ministry). I clearly remember the student leaders' motto, "To Lead is To Serve." Overall, Poly Summit was an amazing experience with all the learning, discussions, fun, bonding and not to forget the food. I miss my egg myo prata. Yum! ;P

Okie dokies..I gotta go do my QT before I head to bed. I will be needing my mind and strength for TRP Planning Retreat. Ciaoz.

Holidays

2006-09-01T17:31:00.000+08:00

Exams are over and hello holidays. Hee :) This semesteral exams were much better compared to last year's as I only had 3 papers to study for. Hehe. But still, there were a lot of theories to study, understand and memorize. Last week was my study week and I spent all my weekdays at the airport studying with joelle. At one of the days, mummy and B1 (ben) came to join us for dinner so we went to Popeye to eat and ended up playing 'bridge' instead of studying. Haha ;P Still it was a fruitful studying period. My finance and HR papers were difficult and surprisingly, my marketing paper was rather easy. I think even easier than the mid-sem one. So happy and I noticed ms ng smiling as she saw us. Haha. ;)

As for today, I wanted to wake up early to go back to my secondary school to visit my teachers. But I woke up around 11 plus. Bleah. So sad. :( O wellz.. Dinner today required long travelling time as it was at Serangoon Garden Chomp Chomp together with lao ma, dajie, xiaomei, joelle, B1, B2, deren, shuyi, estalla, simon and meiling. We ordered sting rays, satays, carrot cake, osyter omelette, hokkien mee and sugar cane drinks. The cups for the drink were big, super big but it was nice and we were given an extra cup for free. Haha. Shiok manz. And as the usual practice when crusaders gather, we played 'polar bear' and it was super fun. B1 kept being the polar bear. Haha.

September is here and I can't wait for all the activities to start happening, especially Poly Summit and TRP BBQ nite. :) O and someone's big important birthday is here. Hehe ;) I hope that I am able to find a part-time job as all these activities are going to burn a hole in my pocket soon and I need the money. Mum has pestered me to get a job. Haiz.

I shall end off here for now. Bye.

A sad feeling inside
Of cause yet unknown
Walking in shadow of darkness
Searching a light so dim

Mind in a mess

2006-08-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

This week was the last week of lessons for this semester as next week will be study week before my semestral exams. The semester seems to pass by very fast, even faster than last year. It was quite a good semester considering that I am in new class and everyone is new to me. I have to thank God for all my tutors and project groups' members. Although it was only in the 2nd term that I find my HR tutor alright, all the tutors have been wonderful especially my marketing tutor. She makes marketing interesting and fun and I like the subject now. Too bad I won't be taking it next semester onwards. :( As for my project groups, all my members have been a great bunch to work with though there are a few exceptions. The semester is coming to an end soon and this makes me realised that I will be graduating from TP soon in due time. The clock is ticking every second, minute and hour away.

This week was basically the last time I will be with the people in my class unless they are going to be in the same specializations as me. I wouldn't say I feel sad as I know most of them only by name except for those who are my project mates and whom I go out with. Maybe we will see each other again if we have a class bbq that is still in the pending process. I went down to RP with phyllis and joelle for SM Training on monday as I missed the previous one. We had it in the library and I found out that there is Galilee Cafe inside plus there are more tables then books. Cool huh?!! SM training was on 'Discipleship' and I learned a lot from it especially since I am serving as a DG leader. I wished that the SGLs could go through this session. On thursday, I went to watch 'Too Fast Too Furious. Tokyo Drift" with hannah. The movie was great and I loved the cars and the sound of their engines. It rocks!! :) After the show, I went back to TP for life meeting.

Ok..I shall end here and leave whatever I wanted to say for another time. Ciaoz. ;)

I don't want to think about it.
It's starting to take over me.
Messing my mind.
Making me frustrated.
I don't care.
I don't wanna know.
All I want to do now
Concentrating on my exams.

Events and more events

2006-08-12T04:33:00.000+08:00

It seems that I have not been updatting for quite a while. So I shall start now,

24th July -> I went down for Gen12ii Thanksgiving with TP crusaders and something interesting happened. During worship, the electricity suddenly went off. Instead of pausing, the worship went on with a guitar. It was a joyful and amzing experience as the whole place was filled with voices with a little music at the background. Nice. After that, TRP crusaders and Pioneering Mission Team went to have dinner. Haha..actually more like supper alrdy cos it was quite late. What was there else to eat except Indian food if you are in Little India. Joelle and I ordered chicken nasi bryani and the portion was a lot. I like the chicken. Yum yum!! Then when all of us were at the train station, we realised we hvn't pay. Wahahaha..free food. ;PI think the guy forgot as there were so many of us. O..then we had to take the same train twice as we did not know abt the NE problem that the train cld not go to Outram Park. So there were we, forth back forth.

26th July -> I went to visi joelle together with wan teng, joel and simon as she was still having chicken pox. Before that, I met joel first to decide what to buy for her. As we did not know what she cld not eat, we called wan teng and this was how the conversation went.

Joel: Wanteng! What food joelle cannot eat?
Wanteng: Anything that is toxic.
Joel: Then sweets can?
Wanteng: Cannot. Is toxic.
Joel: Huh? (He passed the phone to me.)
Me: Wanteng. Sweets cannot ar? Then chocolates can?
Wanteng: Chocolates can.
Me: Huh? Then isn't chocolates sweets? How come chocolates can, sweets cannot?
Wanteng: Both can.

In the end, the problem was that wan teng tot joel said 'squid'. My gdness. Haha ;P Well..we played Indian poker except for simon as he was fasting from entertainment. Power manz he. The game was fun and I based mine on my gut feeling. It's quite accurate. Haha. After that, we had to leave for TP's LM.

30th July -> In the morning, I met phyllis together to go CityHarvest as reuben morgan was leading worship there. The worship was great and so was the sermon. Whee. After the service, we both went to buy the latest Hillsong Live cd 'Mighty To Save' and we got his and the band autographs. So happy. ;) I love the songs manz, especially 'Take It All', 'From The Inside Out', 'Oceans Will Part' and 'Mighty To Save'.

Then in the afternoon, we went to meet joelle, ben and ivan (i think that is how his name is spelled) at a train station. And cynthia was there to 'fetch' us. So nice of her. Haha. We were all gg her church for a evangleistic event, 'More To This Life'. We were there to support amber as well as she was singing. The event was wonderful and I enjoyed it a lot. There were dances, dramas, poetry reading, testimonies and a short sermon.

5th & 6th Aug -> Festival of Praise. I went with phyllis and asriel on the 5th and TRP crusaders on the 6th. The 6th, which was the finale, was the best. We were there early so we were sitted somewhere in the front of the queue. And guess what?? We played 'Polar Bear'. Haha. Fun. ;) Then when the doors opened, we were sitted at the floor area. First time manz. The whole thing was great. Great fellowship, great worship and great sermon. After the whole thing, we gathered to pray for our Campus Crusade ministries in TP and RP. Yes indeed!! God will lead us and send revival in our campuses. After that, we went to eat dinner and we saw yong fu. Haha. And we requested him to do the 'Bimbo' cheer for us. Hilarious. Hahahaha :D

7th Aug -> HR project was due by 10am. Hence, my class finance tutor decided to shift our lesson from 9am to 9.30am so that we cld have time to print in sch and hand in. However when I got to class, I saw my finance tutor outside and in the room, there were only my grp mates and one from another grp. In the end, he seemed quite pissed and told us to join any of his class the next day for finance. My grp stayed in the room to discuss our HR role-play as well as to wait for the rest of the class to come to inform them abt the change. In the afternoon, I had psychology presentation and it was so screwed up. I shall not tok abt it. Then I went to meet phyllis and joelle to head down to RP for their LM.

8th Aug -> I went to esplanade to watch fireworks with phyllis, ben and asriel. The fireworks were superb and pretty. Pretty fireworks!! Hee ;D The only thing that was bad was the people. It is during this type of event that you see the ugly side of Singaporeans. They knew they cld not cut through the field as it was sitted filled with ppl but yet, they still did it. Irritating. My fren's burger got stepped on and there was this malay gal, who cld no longer take it, stood up and shouted at them. I badly wanted to go the same too. Argh!! After the fireworks, simon, yu qi and charlton joined us and we played bridge. Haha. So long hvn't play le. So fun.

9th Aug -> My parents brought my bros and I to go watch the fireworks at Kallang. We walked through the red light district and I was shocked by what gals would do to earn money. They actually parade themselves in front of the guys. My gosh. Then I saw where the old airport road used to be. Well..the fireworks were a disappointment. They were nothing much as compared to the tues ones.

10th Aug -> HR and Jap role-play. It was fun. Haha. That's all I can say. At night, I treated aisha to Pizza Hut as I owned her one. Heehee. ;) We ordered the new pizza and a pizza hut. My gdness. First time I ate until so much.

Kk..that's all. Gotta go get ready to go sch for DG then planetshakers concert. Yippee!!! :D

Mass E

2006-07-24T16:17:00.000+08:00

The past 2 weeks had been quite a busy and packed period for me. Projects are coming to a due and after that, it will be exams already. How fast manz.

For my psychology, I had to do IQ/EQ tests and 2 personality tests. And the results were my IQ is slightly above the average and EQ is slightly below average. Wahahaha. The personality tests results were even more funnier. The first test I took indicated that I am an introvert while the second test indicated I am an extrovert. Contradicting la can. But after I thought about it, it is actually true because I at times can be at extreme side. Haha.

I also started my first DG and it was really surprising by the turnout, 8 gals and 1 guy (because 2 gals brought him along). It was ok as it was only the introductory session. I was super happy as they were interactive and opened to sharing. The one thing that encouraged me a lot was their hunger for God and His Word. Although when I asked them about their reason for coming and mostly gave model answers, I could really see the spiritual hunger and thirst in their eyes. Praise God!!! Starting this DG also make me feel happy and refresh. :)

There was also Mass E conducted by the mssion team on thurs and I had to act as the guy's gf. It was fun and it seemed to be a picnic as it took place at a field in bedok reservoir where mats are laid. Then at the end, I gave the mission team people each a towel with their name and a verse painted on. I was very happy to see their smiles when they saw the towels.

Then yesterday, I had to go back to school for finance test. Argh. Imagine having test on a weekend. That suz. Anyway, I went for lunch with gavin, daryl, aisha, corinne and nabilah before we went to watch 'Pirates of the Carribean - Dead Man's Chest'. It was a long and nice show although I prefer the first one. There was no ending as there is going to be a third one. After that, I took a cab to attend rachel jie's 21st birthday. There was lots of food and the people were mainly from church and her Seattle friends. O..and I realised that I was the youngest there. Wahahaha. ;P

As for today, I was glad I went for youth service. Larissa Lam from LA came and she told us her testimony and shared her songs, which told her story. Her songs are super meaningful and of course, I went to buy her album 'Revolutionary' after that and got her autograph. Heehee ;)

Kk..I shall update until here. I have to get back to doing my tutorial and then my project. Ciaoz.

Joel's Baptism

2006-07-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

I felt like blogging so here I am. Haha. Today I did not go for 'The Journey' as I went to witness Joel's baptism. It was interesting as it was different from PMC. Their 'pool of water' is a large rectangular hole on the stage. What I found interesting was what the pastor asked/said before he baptised the person. He asked all of them the same thing and of course, all of them had the same reply, 'Yes.' But then He said a different verse for each one of them after that. Cool eh? Hee ;) O and I found out that Joel's aunt is attending PMC. At first when I saw his aunt, I was sure she looked familiar to me but I could not figure out where I saw her. However, I was pretty sure that she looked familiar to me. Only when Joel asked his aunt that I realised she is from PMC. Haha. What a small world.

After that, I went to attend his youth service and I was quite surprised to find that it was small, really small. There was no ushers or anything. The worship was quite rock and I found the music louder than the vocals. As for the message, it was not really a message but more of a sharing. The surprising part was they actually talked about their youth service 'system' during the service. Whoa. No comments. But I saw and knew that the leaders and some youths were worshipping God freely. Nothing was going to hold them back from praising and worshipping God in ways they want to. When the service ended, I knew one thing for sure. I was really glad that I attended and experienced all these.

It made me looked at things from different perspective in regards to YMPACT. It made me realise and appreciate all the time and effort the youth committee has put into building the youth ministry to what it is today. Without them, I think we will still be a ministry with no proper 'system' and direction. It finally drawn onto me that it is easy to start one but difficult to continue and even build it up. I really really want to thank the Lord for each one of them. If any of the committee members (existing or non-existing) are reading this, I would like to express my appreciation for all your hard work and time and from the bottom of my heart, 'THANK YOU SO MUCH!!' :)

Another thing that struck me was during worship. As I was singing the songs, an image came to my mind. It showed youths with their hands lifted up and worshipping God freely. Rows and rows of youths. It was an awesome sight and what was fascinating about the image, was that I recognised the place the youths were in. It was the chapel that YMPACT is using now. I was overwhelmed that I felt tears swelling in my eyes. Emotions came that I could not understand. My prayer right now is that what I saw in my mind, will become a reality. How marvellous and wonderful it will be when it actually does come true. However there is one thing that I am still not sure about. The image I saw was from was a top view. Is it suppose to mean something or am I just looking too much into it? Is my passion a calling from God?

There are so many questions yet very few answers. *sigh* Anyway, I really thank God for all I had experienced and saw today. It had made a difference in me. Thank you Lord!! :)

Mid-sems' results are ok

2006-07-08T15:43:00.000+08:00

Time for another update on my mundane life. I have gotten back all my mid-sem papers' results and they are somewhat acceptable. Haha. Marketing paper was the one I was most worried but by God's grace, I passed the paper. Yippee. :)

Since the start of school, projects are starting to pile up. My HR project is giving me a headache and I am taking HR as one of my electives next semester. O my goodness!!! Heh. I like HR but I don't like all the theory stuffs.

Anyway, this week was still so so. I went to watch phyllis's dance performance at the Esplanade on Tuesday and o my, it was beautiful and full of emotions. A wonderful performance to watch. Her dance group is now representing Singapore in Macau and they will be there for 9 days. Cool huh? And guess what, I watched my first match of the World Cup where France was against Portugal. Ahahaha... I supported Portugal but France won in the end because of a penalty kick. Bleah. Portugal deserves to win manz and Ronaldo is cute. Haha. ;P

Then I caught 4 hours of slp before heading to sch and I had Japanese culture and language test that day. Wahhhh... I am praying that I pass the paper can already. See, I am easily satisfied. Hehe. O and duing the Japanese lecture, it was on origami and I learned how to fold swans. Yay!!

I shall end here as I don't feel like typing already. Until next update. Bye.

Mid-sems

2006-07-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

Walk Thru' the Bible

2006-06-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

KL family camp was alright but the talent-night was super funny. My bro has become the source of entertainment. Haha ;P The room Abi and I stayed in was freezing cold. Everytime I sit on the toilet bowl, I shiver. Somehow the aircon buttons in the room does not work. No difference at all when 'high', 'medium', 'low' or 'off' was pushed. Out of the 4 days, friday was the best as we got to go shopping. Haha. I bought quite 2 shoes, a shirt, a wallet and famous amos cookies. After that, the youths met at Secret Recipe for 'tea'. My goodness, the food there is half the price of Singapore's and just as delicious.

The highlight of the whole camp was Pastor Benny Ho's sermons. If they did not had invited him to come and preach, I don't think I would have signed up for the camp. The sermons were very interesting and I will always remember this, "If you have knowledge but no wisdom, you have nothing to impart." This sentence really struck me especially being a DG leader. Simple yet an important reminder to all leaders. Also, I felt a calling in my heart to go back serving as an SGL. The feeling in my heart became even stronger when I had to take a group of girls for a time of sharing and prayer as there were only Amy and Vivien. There is another area that I am still praying and seeking God about. I really want to serve God according to His will and direction.

That's all for church camp. This week is the last week to have a good break and enjoy myself before school term opens and projects start piling up. Monday I met with my marketing project group mates. Surprisingly we finished within 2 hours and went to consult Ms Reena about some things. After that, we went Swensens for lunch before catching the show, 'RV'. The show is funny and it really reminded me that spending time together as a family is important.

As for the last 2 days. I was at Walk thru' the Bible children's camp. Although I felt tired, it was fun and I actually learned from it too. I have actually memorised the OT books and I can say the books out in order. Power right?! The kids were super cute despite being rowdy and there's the usual dose of indulgence. Wahahaha. Teacher Jessie's chocolate cake on the first day and blueberry cum mandarine orange chessecake on the second day. She even made 2 cakes on the second day. Yummy!!! And lunch today was super nice, malay's chicken rice from changi village and I ate a double cheese burger too. Ate until so food and now I have a tummy. I have better start exercising after eating so much. Fattening.

Kk..that's the end of my story. Until next time. Cya. ;)

KL Camp here I come

2006-06-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

In around 6 hrs time, I will in a coach travelling all the way to KL for church camp. So excited. I can't wait!!! Come to think abt it, I realised that the past 3 weeks passed very fast. I guessed it is due to all the projects and mid-sem tests that kept me busy, excluding campus crusade stuffs. Whee :)

But...I am feeling sad as well. Seems quite contradicting rite do be happy and sad at the same time? Wellz...that is how our human nature is like. The reason being is I will be missing TRP and NYP campus crusade combined camp, also known as CIA (Crusaders In Action). The camp was originally supposed to be held from the 12th to 14th june, which means I am at least able to go for 2 days. However due to the venue, it was changed to the 14th to 17th june. If I was just going as a member attending this camp, maybe I won't feel so sad. However, that is not the case as I am in the camp committee. Publicity, registration and mc were all under me plus I am one of the team leaders. Bleah. This sux. And guess what? Theme song, mass dance and the camp shirt also under me and I can't attend the camp. Wahhhh... *sob sob* I can't stop thinking about the camp even as I am about to leave for church camp. I think during the church camp I will also be thinking about it. :(

*Sigh* What's done cannot be undone. Anyway, it is gg to be a fun time during the church camp as abi and yvonne are coming. Whee ;) O yeah, I watched 'Cars' and 'Over the Hedge' already on friday and sunday respectively. The shows were cute and funny; and parents should bring their kids to watch 'Cars' as the show was quite educational. Thx to all the movie shows plus shopping (as usual), I am super broke. No money to go shop already.

Kk...gtg and slp alrdy if not tmr cannot wake up on time. Nitez. ;)

Mid-sems are over

2006-06-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

It's been a month since I last updated. Since the start of sch term, it's been one hectic and rush period. It's been projects and more projects. Well..at least I had fun. Haha ;) This week is my mid-sem tests and I had 3 papers compared to my first yr consisting of 5 papers each sem. Before this week, I had business proposal to hand it, a HR report due, a role play and a presentation to be carried out last wk. Due to all this, I could not have my weekly swim and there was no time for me to go out. In addition, I slept pass mid-night every day. *Yawn*

But for this sem test, I could not focus on my studies and I had difficulty in memorising all the processes especially for marketing. Thus my marketing paper was my worse and I just hope for a pass can already. Does it make it even more saddening if the marketing lecturer, who sets the paper, is ur tutuorial teacher? I liked my marketing tutor as she is different from the rest. She is able to intereact with us and we can even make her laugh. And of course her explanations are thorough and clear.

Anyway, I went out with daryl and corinne after the 2nd paper. I only started studying for my HR paper in the morning the next day. We went to eat at Jack's Place then we went to play a while at the arcade before heading home as corinne and myself were feeling tired and sleepy. O..and I finally caught the movie, X-men The Final Stand. I went to watch it with aisha and it was super duper nice. I don't mind watching it again. Hee :)

Besides all this, as TP, RP and NYP has combined together for a camp, I was busy designing the camp shirt, choreographing new dance steps and doing publicity. I really hope the shirt will turn out the way I wish it to be and that the dance can be learned finish at tmr prac.

Okie..shall go off alrdy. Going shopping with abi then tonight maybe go meet kangwei, jere and khalis. Yay!! ;)

Welcome Tea was a success

2006-05-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last updated so here goes. I have been quite busy for the past 2 weeks with crusade stuffs. There was the survey recruitment that went on for 3 days. Although I was still afraid to approach people and it was tiring, the whole 3 days was fruitful. I also thanked God for the crusade stuffs and brothers and sisters from other school who came down to help out with the survey recruitment.

The week that has just passed was the busiest for me due to the welcome tea on wednesday. There was the contacts for follow-up to allocate, worship practice, mc rehearsal and refreshments to settle. Although on the day itself there was a lot of inpromptos especially at the ending when the mcs had to talk on the DVC, life meetings and ending the whole session off. I really have to thank God for overseeing everything and making the welcome tea such a great success. And I felt the Holy Spirit moving in the place too. It was such an emotional feeling. Praise the Lord!!! =)

Despite all the preparation that was going on, I still had the time to go swimming and catch a movie with abi. Hee..Aquamarine was a really nice show and the guy is hot too. Haha ;) As for school, I don't like tutorials as I don't know anyone in my class. The people in my class also are clickish and most of them already knew each other. What a bummer. During breaks I would contact the friends that I have made last year and meet up with them. Good thing for all my breaks, one of my friends are free. I am so happy. ;) O yeah..abi is now studying in TP too and not NAFA. Yay yay!!! Haha :)

Okie..I can't wait for June to arrive despite the mid-sem tests. I will be having crusade chalet then straight after that will be the church camp in KL. Woohoo..can't wait manz. Hehe.. Ok ok.. I better stop thinking about it before I go crazy. Haha.. Entrepreneurship proposal and presentation are due this month and I better start mugging soon. Kk.. gtg.. ciaoz..

3 weeks details..wahhh..

2006-04-21T18:11:00.000+08:00

Bummer bummer double bummer. I checked my timetable for this semester and I found out that no one from my last 2 semesters' tutorial mates are in the same tutorial class as me. Wahhh..so sad :( I don't mind making new friends but is much better if I know someone in my tutorial especially when it comes to doing projects. Haiz..

Putting that aside, I realised I have not been updating my blog. So I shall list down the stuffs for the last 3 weeks.
- Went swimming with abi 2-3 times per week
- Caught 'Ice Age 2' & 'Tristan & Isolde'
- Went town to shop with abi and to meet the consultant from UAN
- Meeting with irene to catch up and collect the DVC magazines
- Went cycling with komi, daryl, gavin, rachel and corinne

Yupz..so that's about it. As for this week, I went to RP on monday together with irene and bo chun to not only discuss about campus crusade stuffs but to help out with the survey recruitment as well. It was my first time doing it and I was scared and nervous. This was more difficult in the sense that we are only finding Christians to do the surveys. Yeah..but it was an experience.

As for tuesday, I had to go back to school for 5-hour entreprenurship lecture. It was boring and super draggy. Then wednesday, I met up with abi to go swimming before we headed down to TP for crusade meeting to plan for the survey recruitment next week and te welcome tea the following week. After meeting, we went to watch 'Take The Lead'. Hehe..the show was not that fantastic but still, it was a great show. Felt like going clubbing after that. ;P And today we went shopping at town, mostly at far east plaza. Whee..I bought a white skirt, a super nice coat and 2 ear-rings. So happy. Lalalala :) Tmr we meeting again to go town. Haha..

Okie..gtg already. Tired and I need the bed. Nitez.

Sun Burnt

2006-04-05T04:27:00.000+08:00

It's april already and school is starting soon. Hmm..actually I'm quite looking forward to going back to school. Heh ;) I have slacking so much that I think it is time to get my butt off the sofa and do some work.

This week has so far been fun. Sunday I had LG outing and I managed to get abi to come back to church. Although she did not join us for LG outing but she told me she will be coming to church this sunday and will be joining LG. Yippee..so happy :D Now to get the other 2 people to come back. Hopefully I pray that they are still walking with the Lord and not drifting away from Him. Then at night, I went for bbq at aloha chalat. First time going to the terrace one and not the bungalow kind. Hehe.

I went swimming on monday with abi so now my back is kinda red and hot. Yesh..burnt in another words. Haha ;) We spent quite a long time in the pool as most of the time we spent talking. Yesterday, we went to marina sq to eat and shop around. More like window shopping. Broke already so no money to buy stuffs. Bleah. After that, I went to meet lee huan, phyllis, yup min and hown luen at cinneleisure for dinner. It's been a long time since we met up and it was great just catching up with one another.

O yeah..I'm no longer working. I only worked for 3 and a half days. Haha..so short. Just now I received a call regarding a vacancy for 1-mth temporary job but so sad, I starting school soon so can't commit to the job. Sigh..

Okie..shall end off here for now. Going to meet my tp frenz. Cya.

Start work

2006-03-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

This week was a fruitful one compared to the past weeks as I have obtained a part-time job. It's surprising actually. As the holiday is coming to an end and school is about to start in 1 month time, I gave up looking for a part-time job. Most of the jobs would require as at least committment for 1-2 months and so by the time I go for the interview, I won't be able to commit to the required working period.

But miraculously, the career advisory called me up and asked me whether I can work for 2-3 weeks. And of course, I said yes and so now I'm working as data entry clerk. God is indeed always listening to our prayers and answering them according to His own timing. All we need to do is to PUSH and believe. Interestingly, my workplace is the office above the BQ Bar at Boat Quay and lunch is provided. Yummy. I tried their prawn masala and it was delicious.

I started working on thurs and for the past 2 days, all I did was key in data (not much though), opening envelops and sorting and filing invoices, statements of accounts, ect. And I had a lot of time to slack and wait for things to do. It's quite boring and my back hurts but still, it's quite fun and I get the experience. O yeah..plus I don't need to wear formal, just smart casual. Hee ;)

As for today, the location change for ym (or shouldn't in be ys?) was great. It made it more like a service rather than a ministry. That's good as it is a service and not a ministry right? Anyway, today's theme was on Evangelism. The songs sung, dawn's sharing and the sermon preached were related to it. All I can say is interesting but I guess the leaders are going to have be the ones to start the ball rolling. Set an example for the younger ones to follow. O wellz.. dinner was wonderful as my mum cooked western food. Yummy!! And I had red wine. :) But I only drank a bit as I hated it and switched to sparkling juice. I prefer beer and white wine. Hehe.

O yeah..I was watching the news and this news on a case of a Christian facing execution caught my attention. The thing that really shocked me was when the news reported that the court has decided not to pursue the case after hearing he was mentally disturbed. What the heck!!! His conversion is due to mental problems. Nuts manz. Full report on http://sg.news.yahoo.com/060326/1/3zmx6.html.

Now to blog something that I wanted to blog earlier already as it was constantly in my mind but was lazy and not in the mood for blogging. Here goes: Remember the greatest commandment, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." and "The second is this: "Love your neighbor as yourself." (Mark 12:30-31a)? Wellz..I have some pondering questions on these 2 verses:
In Deut 6:5 it says,"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength." Compare this verse with the one in Mark 12:30, how come the mind is being left out? Does it have anything to do with Romans 12:2a where it says, "...... transformed by the renewing of your mind."? How come is the mind and not the heart, soul or strength?

Hmm..okie..gtg slp alrdy. Feeling real sleepy and I have to wake up early to go to work. Nitez.

Lousy Hols

2006-03-14T17:20:00.000+08:00

Exams results were out last friday. And thank God, I did not fail any of my modules and I passed my CDS in the end plus I got Z for one of my module. Yay!! Not only do I not need to take any supplementary paper, I have one distinction. Although I was aiming for two, having one is already good for me. Hee :) Still my overall GPA is only 27.6. So sad.

I have been trying to find a job for the last past few days and so far, no results. Hopefully I will be able to get the job I went for the interview today. The job is going to be a tough one as it does with customer service and the people I will be attending to, are more than twice my age and they are from corporate companies. I hope I am up to the task and be able to handle all the responsibilities of the job...that is if I get the job.

My mind have been trying to bring my body out to exercise but in the end, to no avail. Lazy is the word. I have been sleeping, eating, slacking, surfing net and just being a couch potato since holidays started. When I was in primary and early secondary school years, I wanted to do sports, be an althetic. Now?? Both my stamina and speed has dropped...way down. Haiz.

O wellz..shall end off with this song that I like. Enjoy. Hehe ;P

Safe in a crazy world

by Corrinne May

I try to smile my tears away

i try to keep my cool

oh but one more door gets in my way

i feel like such a fool

trampled and bitter

my heart just wants to bleed and stop

believing in me

it feels like nothing is for certain

and that nothing comes for free

when they're lowering the curtain to the

Theatre of my dreams

I stumble and i crumble and i'm

sinking to my knees but you

you cradle me

You keep me flying

You keep me smiling

You keep me safe in a crazy world

You understand me

Embrace my fragility

You keep me safe in a crazy world

And in your arms i find the strength

to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me

No matter where i go

oh and life likes pretending that it's

on a tv show

When it's hard to tell what's real

From what the world just wants to preach

You are the world i seek

You keep me flying

You keep me smiling

You keep safe in a crazy world

You understand me

Embrace my fragility

You keep me safe in a crazy world

'cause when i'm wrapped up in your arms

Nothing else can touch me

What a wonderful way to recharge

I feel like i can breathe again

You keep me flying

You keep me smiling

You keep me safe in a crazy world

And in your arms i find the strength

to believe in me again

Boring week

2006-03-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

This wk was real bordom. I have been trying to look for part-time administrative jobs but to no avail. It's getting frustrating as I need money. Mom wants me to supplement my own needs. Bleah. That sux. Plus I want to be able to save enough to go Cain and do sky-diving and white-water rafting. Now all these juz seem to be fantasies that would never come true. *Sigh*

Sometimes I wonder what life is worth living for when your life is filled with anxieties, questions, doubts, wishes and dreams that seem to be your own wishful thinking. Many times people would tell you something that goes like this, "When you believe, it will come true." In psychological terms, it is true as our minds controls our entire body, its movements, functions, etc. But is it ALWAYS true??

I think not. Believing is one thing. Having the capabilities and within one's means are another thing. There are limits in whatever we believe in. Let's take for example. I belive I will win the race tmr. I believe I will be the fastest. But in the end, you were outran by another runner. See what I mean. What you believed in turned out to be 'empty.'

I guess life is filled with mysteries and uncertainities. Who knows what will happen the next day? Remember this familiar quote, "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways. " It's true isn't it? Every living being will die in the end. But here's a quote that I find says a lot about life, "We cannot tell what may happen to us in the strange medley of life. But we can decide what happens in us... how we can take it, what we can do with it... and that is what really counts in the end." (Joseph Fort Newton, Author) Indeed we can never know what may happen to us or around us. But we can know what happens inside us. Our personality, our character, our inner being are shaped by us, our will, our choice and our actions. And that is what life counts.

Exams are over..welcome holidays!!

2006-02-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

Phew!! Exams are finally done and over with but I failed my CDS. Bleah. That sux.

It's sad that the coming year 2, sem 1, the tutorial grp will no longer be the same. Still I hope that a few of us will remain in the same tutorial grp for those who are in business. Last friday was supposed to have class dinner but it ended up with the usual ppl I hang out with. O wellz.. maybe have another class gathering during the hols.

So yeah..the 7 of us, lynn, rachel, corinn, aisha, gavin, daryl n I, decided aft much consideration, (heh..we took quite a while to decide) to go eat at Fish N Co at Greenhouse. Lynn's sister came to join us as well and I thought she was the elder. But I found out that she's younger than lynn. Whoopsie..hehe ;)

I ordered swordfish collar and o my gdness, that will be the first and the last time I will ever order that. The portion was super big. The pan was the bigger one compared to the usual pan. Yupz..I didn't finish my food and it didn't taste that nice anyway.

After that, corinn, gavin, daryl and myself decided to go to TM to check out the movie timing as the timings at PS were too late. The movie they wanted to watch was 'The Fog'. And TM had one showing at 9.50pm. Heh..so nice cos we reached there almost at that time. It was the first time for me to watch a scary show in the cinema as I don't fancy/like watching scary shows. In the end, it turned out to be quite alright and the ending was lame.

As for yesterday, I wanted to slp in as I was real tired after a wk of burning mid-night oil. However, nicholas called the day before and I told him I'm free to go play badminton that daryl has decided to hold on every saturday. So I went and play.

Getting sleepy alrdy so I shall go and hit my bed and enter into my dreamworld. Lalalalala. Hee ;P Hopefully I'm able to find a part-time job as well. Kk..until nxt time folks. Cya.

Exams are near

2006-02-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

It's been a while seen I last updated my blog. I didn't feel like blogging as I find myself feeling empty and lost in this world. Living each day as the day passes. Whatever activities fill my day, I juz take them in the stride. So..here are some of the activities for the past few days.

- Went to corrin's hse with komi, rachel, gavin and daryl to gamble and eat her goodies esp bak gua
- Attended Pastor Benny Ho's seminar on Soulish Living for two days
- Met up with irene jie
- Signed up with Prudential regarding some saving thing
- Taught eileen and mitchell a.maths and accounting respectively

Well..sis and eunice are leaving this wk. Sad sia. Plus my exams will be held in the following wk and I haven't started studying yet as I didn't have the mood to. Somemore it is 5 papers in a wk. Wow. Hopefully I will start mugging soon. I guess there is no better time than to start now. Haiz...

Lost. Empty. Alone. Nowadays life has no meaning or purpose to me. My heart and body been discouraging me from doing QT though my mind wants to. I don't feel like going to church, much less for LG. Is this what my dream shows? Everything juz seems to be true. I need to get back to God but how? Hiaz. I wonder if being a non-Christian would my life be much easier. No commandments to follow. No worries about one's spiritual life. No responsibilty to carry. Sigh.

Crusade CNY Bbq

2006-01-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Chinese New Year is here. Hong bao lai hong bao lai hong bao hong bao hong bao lai lai lai. Hehe..Calm down jess. Let's not get too excited so fast. :p

I haven't been blogging much recently due to all the projects and reports that are due this week. Practically I have been staying up late nights till 4 plus 5 plus to finish up my projects. Thurs was the 'finale'. I had two projects' presentations, one in the classroom while the other in the lecture hall. The one that took me a lot of time to complete was my CDS, held in the lecture hall. I had to spend many days and hours to design the map, edit pictures and settle the powerpoint slides as the presentation was a proposal for an island. Interesting yet it took much effort and time. All I can say now is that thank God the presentation is done and over with; and I would say my group did a wonderful job than compared to the rest as our island theme was very much focus. Hehee ;)

As for today, I had statistics test that went rather well even though I didn't study due to my tiredness and my sickness since thurs. I'm still much rather tired and sick. Good thing my slight fever didn't last long. Now left with flu, cough and sore throat.

At night, I had bbq at klement's hse as part of crusade's CNY celebration. See! I sick still go. Hehe. It was fun and good food. The dog however was not friendly and kept barking. So sad..I guess it isn't expose much to people as it is always at the back of the kitchen. Aww..but the dog is cute. Haha ;P

Right now I'm feeling super sleepy and my eyes are almost closing plus I'm sick. I will be sitting the bed soon but before that, wishing all you guys out there a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! =)

Have fun, eat good food and drink lots of water. Hee..take care.

Shopping

2006-01-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

Today was both a bad and great day. The bad thing was I had to go to sch on a sat and sat is supposed to be my slping day where I can wake up late to compensate for the slping hrs that I have been missing, which are actually quite a lot. Hehe. I had to get my early as my accounting test starts at 0920 (10 minutes of reading time) where as I only slpt at 0400 as I was trying to study for the paper. In the end, I kept knocking off a few times throughout the whole duration and nothing goes into my head. Guess I was already tired as I had open house meeting until 9 plus the previous day.

Well..the accounting test was terrible. The questions were tough manz. Haiz..I'm really not an accounting student. It is not my cup of tea. Then had accounting lecture after that, which I only stayed for the first half as I could not take it. The lecturer basically took almost an hour going through 4 pages and teaching it in her monotaneous voice. Can't blame me for leaving right?

Then afternoon I went shopping at China Town with my parents and I didn't realise there was so many nice clothes. It was my first time buying so many clothes in a day. Fun sia. Must go there and shop again if there's a chance to go there again. Best is go with my mum. Hehe ;)

As for the past few days, it's been raining except for fri and today and I was freezing during lectures and tutorials. So I resorted to buying a cup of hot drink to bring into lectures as a source of heat. Also, my mbs project is due on mon and so have been rushing to complete it, which is most of them I do as my project members are 'access idiots'. Haiz..same as last sem where I had to stay up 3 nights to complete a project using dreamweaver. It's fun though despite all the work, tiredness and frustration.

Ok..I shall end here and not continue on with the dragging. Until next update. Cya.

New Year 2006

2006-01-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

It's a new year 2006!! Unbelievable how time passes so fast. No new year resolution for me as I nv keep to them. Last year 2005 was quite a good yr bur there were bad times as well. Which year doesn't have its downside at all? Hopefully this year will be a better year for me although I don't see the sunshine at all.

I have been feeling tired and sleepy during this whole week when sch started. Tues had open hse meeting in the evening that although it was quite a short one as compared to the previous, I was tired when I reached home. I didn't have any energy left to do my accounts tutorial. Then I attended the motivation talk by Dr William Tan on wed and I felt real tired after that. I'm motivated to strive towards my dream but am not motivated to go for stats lect and it was the most torturing lect I ever had. The lect had started already by the time I reached and my friends and I had to sit in front plus I kept knocking off here and there. Sitting in front means I cannot listen to music, slp a bit or eat. That night I slept ard 4 plus as I was typing out emails.

CDS project meeting on thurs was quite a fruitful one but it is getting to be a headache as we had to come up with a bird eye view of the island. All my grp members including me are from business and not from design or IT. It is gg to be a challenge to get the project done up. The report is no prob at all after the decision and allocation. That night, it was also the first campus crusade life meeting of this year. I led worship and thank God that everything went well. By the time I went home, I was tired that I slept ard 1 plus I think.

As for today, the sch was having WILL@TP. Dr Willian Tan had to go around the sports track in his wheelchair non-stop from thurs 6pm to today 6pm. A new guinness world record. Really gotta give the guy the respect and admiration for his strength, stamina and preservance. Tp has committed to run wif him so there muz at least be 1 person on the track running. O yeah, did i mention that he is a Christian as well? Hee ;)

Debrief was at 0830 before heading to the track. Everyone involved had to run at least 3 rounds without walking or else, 1 round will be disqualified. Proof is by the number of sticks you have. Every completion of 1 round gives you 1 stick. BSC main com had to run from 3am-6am and the average for guys was 20 plus rounds. Crazy rite!! Wait till you hear this. BSC president ran 42 rounds within that time frame. My goodness. He not human sia. Don't forget you cannot walk. I only manage to complete 4 rounds as my stomach hurts badly that I had to stop. Quite sad la. I was aiming for 5-10 rounds.

After that, I was super shagged as I haven't been getting enuf slp. Even though I had LOA from 0900-1300 and I did not need to attend stats tutorial, I went as I wanted to see my mid-sem tests paper. Then I was supposed to have project meeting after lunch but my grp mates persuaded me to go home rest after we had lunch as they saw how tired I was. Really thank God for having such wonderful grp mates. So I went home, rested a while before meeting amy jie at city hall for dinner. We ate a japanese restaurant 'Uma Uma Men'. The food was not bad and yeah, it was amy jie's treat. Nxt time my turn. We had a great time talking, sharing and eating. [Bert-> No arrows. Wahahaha ;p]

Ok..gonna have to go soon as I needa go sch at 10am tmr for lect. Cya and have a blessed year!! ;)

X'mas

2005-12-26T18:27:00.000+08:00

The festive season is here once again. An occasion filled with love, joy and lotsa gifts and wishes. And of course not to forget the true meaning of christmas: The birth of Jesus Christ. This christmas was different as compared to the past years. At orchard, on the wall of Tangs shopping center, there was this sign that said, "Even the wise men seek Jesus." It really took me by surprise when i saw that. A more interesting ones i saw were recently on friday in front of Ngee Ann City, "Jesus Is Born. The Reason for The Season." and "Heart of Christmas. Love Came Down at Christmas." Yup yup...for those of u who have noticed, either one of these two is written in the christmas card i gave.

The past two weeks had been a tiring one for me especially the past one week when i had my mid-sem tests on-going. Despite that, i had good times too. Last week even though it was 5 days after my birthday, the crusaders sang to me birthday song after the short meet-up at the ampitheatre. At first i was like singing along with them as i didn't know who was the birthday kid and i really didn't expect it to be me. It was quite pai sey la as there was a church event abt to go on at there also and they clapped and cheered along. Wah..face turned hot sia. Then after that, hansheng, klement and bo chun treated me to Swensen. Thx guys for the treat!!!

As for this week that had just passed, it was practically a period of studying and buring mid-night oil. But friday was a grt day as it was the day of my last paper. Hehe. After the paper and having fries with cheese (yum!!), i headed down to suntec city with aisha to take a look at my stuff before we went orchard. We ate at Breeks for lunch and it was aisha's treat for my birthday. So nice loh..hee ;) Thx babe!!! Nxt time ur birthday my turn to treat you. The food was ok but i will nv go there and eat again. Just not worth it.

Soon it was time to exercise. In most females' dictionary, exercising here means shopping. Rite rite?? Retail therapy after all the hard work. Heh ;P And of course in the end i bought 2 stuffs, one is a Billabong white handbag and a slipper. So...now i'm broke. Hehe.

Then we headed to Tampines where we looked ard at TM for a while before aisha went to meet her fren and i went to look at the carollers sing at CS. I tot they were gg to sing on the stage which i saw few days back but it was taken down for the product demostration. Sheesh. All their fault that tjhe carollers had to sing beside the christmas tree. Still the carollers did a wonderful job with all their beautiful voices. The attires were interesting too. Bright and colourful ties. Heh. I was surprised though to see one of my secondary junior prefects singing as well. Only knew she joining PMC during TOFU.

Didn't join the carollers yesterday neither did i went for candlelight service yesterday. I was at my cousin's house (dad's side) and i sipped a bit of wine as it was really strong liqour. The interesting thing that happened was when one of my uncles took out his golf club and the mini 'field' and told us that if we shot one in out of 5 tries, we get $1. It wasn't the money but the challenge and fun of it all. And it was really hilarious seeing the different direction the ball went when it was hit. Of course my bros and i got the $1. Haha ;P

As for today, i went for service at usual and giving out all the cards and gifts except that i cldn't give everyone that i wanted to as i didn't have the time to write the cards. Sad sia and i felt bad when they gave me. The youths gathered ard to pray for ber as well as he is leaving soon for his studies. Aww..amy jie gonna miss him. ;P

Afternoon didn't go anywhere as my fren was a late in telling me so as i was going to have dinner with my cousins (mum's side) at Cafe Cartel. I had the christmas set meal which was chicken and i didn't expect it to be so big. It's quite nice though but the best was the baked potato. Yum!! The log cake had wine inside and though it was chocolate, i didn't like it. Tasted weird. My mum bought fruit tarts for everyone as well so we ate that too. Delicious too.

Overall, this year all my celebrations were with my family as compared to the past few years. O and i noticed that i have brownies (thx faith), chocolates, cookies (thx nich and lee huan), lollipop (thx amy jie..so nice that i can't bear to eat it. Heh ;P) and even gingerbread man (Cafe Cartel). Plus is like my house is filled with ferrer rocher chocolates going in and out and in. Lol.

Okie..gonna stop here before u guys start falling aslp. Wishing you guys out there a BLESSED CHRISTMAS (belated) and have a fun and great time. Nitez.

X'mas Outreach Party

2005-12-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since i last updated this blog. Didn't really have the time to do so as i have been quite busy for the past few days. The upcoming one is the X'mas Outreach Party on the 18th dec, which is this coming sunday. The games are roughly done while the dance still needs to be settled completely. Hopefully everything will come out as planned. The next one is my upcoming mid-sem tests, which is next week, and i hvn't really started studying. My goodness...And i have my CDS individual assignment and POM project progress report due tmr.

Besides all the busyness and tiredness (physically and spiritually), i'm a happy gal. Why? My mom bought me an ipod neno for my b'dae. Whee...i din't expect her to get it for me though i asked her for a MP3. Even if she did get me one, i din't expect it to get me ipod neno when i juz casually said i liked that. Surprise manz :) O yeah..i pierced my ears as well. I actually wanted to pierce it quite a while ago but decided to make it a birthday pierce. Heehee ;)

This christmas i really dunno whether i have time to settle the presents. Tmr gg town with yap min and howe luen to shop so hopefully, can get everything by then. But then, there is still the christmas cards. Ahhh...packed sia. Dunno whether i wanna go carolling on the 24th which is to the houses and whether i want to go for the candlelight service. Sianz.

O..before i forgot, eunice z jie told me she saw someone who is both like sis n me. The top is like me, the bottom is like sis. Dotz. She finds it amusing lor while i find it freaky. Can't imagine manz.

Ok..gtg do my tutorial for tmr. Ciaoz.

New Com

2005-11-28T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yippee..i have a new com now to use at home. I'm one happy gal. Hehe ;) The old com is repaired as well so is placed in my bro's room for him to use. The only downside of this is that both my bros will use the coms early in the morning while i'm still in bed to play games. It seems alright but when they start talking loudly across, i can't slp. Waaahhh...

Yesterday i had a fun time at teacher jessie's place. It was some sort of a class reunion bbq and surprisingly, eunice dajie was there. It was unexpected but not really shocking when i come to think abt it. The food was delicious of course and the mango pudding sure hit the spot. Missing the chesse cake though. Hee.. Then played this board game with the Pri6s and one of them was gd manz..real gd. I wonder how her mind can think and process so fast? Haiz.. I admit i getting old le. Haha ;P But yeah..the ultimate goal was still to beat teacher alan, which we did. Wahahaha ;)

Other then yesterday, the rest of the wk was rather ok. Didn't have CDS tutorial as it was self-learning wk so that's one gd news as i get to end sch earlier. Then every wed will have dance prac at city hall for the 18th dec. The dance steps are mostly there but yeah..still cheroegraphing.

As for today, it was the last sgl training or more like a meeting. Amy jie told us abt nxt yr's new system and it seems quite exciting. However, it is easier said than done so shall see how it goes when the new system is being implemented starting of nxt yr. I shall have no comment on this. Also, it was seeker sunday and somehow today seemed to have more youths as compared to the past few sundays. O well... Anyway, the topic was on 'Friendship' and it reminded me of a sentence, 'It's better to have a close friend than to have many friends.' A simple sentence yet the words say a lot. Sadly for me, my world is the other way round.

Gonna have to really start praying abt lotsa stuffs. The matter that i need an ansver most now is whether i will continue to serve in the youth ministry nxt yr. I have been thinking abt this for quite a long while already and i still can't make a sure decision. How am i suppose to give an answer when an older leader ask in a wk's time? Ahhh...i can't take it!!!

The world changes and so does ppl. But there is one world that will nv change and that is my dream world where i go to escape from reality, feelings and problems. Nitez and candy dreams!!

Short Sem

2005-11-17T06:49:00.000+08:00

As usual, haven't been updating as my com is still down. But will be receiving the new com this coming sat. Yay!! I can't wait manz. I'm feeling frustrated without a com to use at home. Sounds like computer withdrawal symptoms loh. Heh ;p

The reopening of sch been quite ok. My CDS is Fundamentals of Hospitality and Tourism. It's quite sad la since i wanted to get either French or Japanese. Nvm..i shall try again nxt sem. My class is still the same as last sem. All the talk abt having a change of class is juz rubbish. As for my time-table, i will say is not that jialat. At least still have time to go out. Hehe ;) But then, this sem is a rather short one. If my calculations are correct, it is only 3 mths. This is after including the term-test wk, one wk break, study wk and the final exams wk. 3 mths is really a short time frame and to bring things to an even down side, i haven't include the sch's open hse and the CNY hols. O my goodness!! That means is less than 3 mths to complete all my projects and papers. Ahhh...

O well..when to FCBC last sat with xiaomei, godmother and godmother's fren. The youth service was gd and the pastor preached on 'Being a gd neighbour'. Interesting eh? No matter where we lived, where we go, whom we are sitting with, ect, everything is done exactly as God wants. However i don't totally agree with this: 'God responds to faith and not to need.' It is correct in the context he was using but if we juz take it as it is, i wld say is not entirely correct. God does responds to needs. He can use that to perform miracles so that others may believe.

Another one was during 11am service when pastor said, 'Once saved is not always save. We need to live out our salvation.' It is quite clear cut la so i shall not comment on it. But my stand is in disagreement.

Kk..gtg for my lecture le..cya ;)

Com's Down

2005-11-05T07:22:00.000+08:00

Sigh..i'm now in sch using the library's com to check my time-table as my hse's com is super duper down. Crap manz. O well..what to do? Hopefully can get my mum to get a new com. Hehe..

Hmm..looks like my nxt sem's time-table is so far alright but i still do not know what my CDS is yet. Argh..so frustrating!!! Still, i can't wait to get back to sch. The hols have been wonderful but i think is time i start activating my brain cells already. Haha ;p Poly life is really study hard and play hard.

As this wk is the last wk of hols, i'm gonna make the most out of it, except for unabling to use the com. On monday, i went to watch 'Zorro' with godmother lee huan, mummy phyllis, yap min xiaomei and hown luan. The show was super nice and the son is so cute. Haha ;) Then on wednesday, mum decided to bring my bros and i for lunch at Jack's Place before catching 'FlightPlan'. Another great thriller movie. Whee.. After tat, we went shopping and dinner at Fish 'n' Co. Super manz.

And yesterday, went to xiaomei's hse for lunch and for bible study on the bk of Relevation. It's interesting and yet scary at the same time. I hope i will be ruptured so that i won't have to go through the tribulation. Scary.

Okie..gtg le..another time peeps. Take care ;)

Dancers' Fun

2005-10-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

Lalala..time for another update plus some photos..hehe.. Thurs i had to wake up early to go back to sch for DG. It was the first DG for me though i joined Campus Crusade for quite a while already. Li huan and xiaomei were already there when i reached. We toked and laughed for quite a while while waiting for hown luan and mummy phyllis. The DG session overall was gd plus all the sharing and laughters. Hee ;)

Then mummy, xiao mei and i took a bus down to bedok interchange and of course, we crapped in the bus. Xiaomei was meeting her frenz while the both of us were meeting the rest of the dancers except for wanteng dajie who cldn't come. Awww..so sad.. O yeah..i met sanjie (cousin) as i was walking out of the interchange. At first i saw her, then she saw me but we cldn't recognise each other. But when i turned back to look again and she did too, we then recognised one another. Sanjie changed her hairstyle no wonder i cldn't recognise her at first. Haha ;p Yup..so we toked a bit before we both had to go off. Hmm..it's been a while since we met up together..

Aft tat, went for lunch, except for joanna who was gg to meet us at mummy's hse instead, before we went to shop for snacks. dinner stuffs and desserts. Yupz..so we headed to phyllis's hse to put our stuffs, prepare some food for dinner tat needs time before snacking in front of the tv watching first half of 'National Treasure'. Aft the first half, we decided to go swimming and we did. Hehe..

Soon it was time to cook dinner. We had 'wine', mushroom and chicken soup, linguine with cheese and potato wedges. Yum. The food was delicious manz. Then clearing up was done before having dessert, jellies (two flavours) and ice-cream (chocolate ice-creams with nuts and marshmallow). Sinful and fattening sia. But who cares?? Wahaha ;)

As there wasn't time for us to go play pool, we decided to watch the rest of 'National Treasure', Lost,snack and play cards. Whee..i learned how to play bridge. So fun..hehe..helps stimulate the mind. By the time we left, bo chun and myself missed the last bus back. Thk gdness paul was super kind to give the both of us a ride home. We own him one manz.

Okie..shall stop here and let the photos do the talking. Cya!!

[META Dance]

META dancers & Sharon

META dancers in full-dress

Our shirts..everything is D.I.Y!!! ;) Shirt's sleeve 'Tell The World"

[Dancer's Outing]

Six of us in the baby pool...

Bo Chun, Miltan & Justin

Phyllis, Joanna and me

The 3 Musketeers...lol.. ;p

Busy in the kitchen..chefs in the making..hehe ;)

Yummy!! Dinner is ready!! *ring ring* *drool*

Cheers and bottoms up!!

Dessert!! Fattening!! Time to satisfy our sweet tooth..hehe ;)

Exercise

2005-10-19T15:10:00.000+08:00

*Yawn* I am going to hit the bed slightly earlier tonight though i woke up pretty late ard 12 plus. Hehe.. Finally i got to exercise aft a long while. It's been quite some time since i went to the gym to workout or to the park to run. Getting lazy nowadays. Haha..but what to expect lohz. *wink*

So yeah..went to play badminton with chu hua and yee hoon. It's been a long while since we met up with each other due to different polys and also, 0ur own busy schedule. Still we like to play badminton when we have the time to meet up and actually book a badminton court. But if CCA is complusory in poly, i will not take up badminton already. I wanna do something else more fun and thrilling. Hehe.

O yeah..met auntie jenny at white sands when i went to return the books i borrowed from the library before heading down for the badminton 'appointment'. And she said i looked skinner and asked whether i have been eating. In my mind was like 'huh? i have been eating and not exercising at all and i looked skinner?' Haha..dun tell me the more i eat, the skinner i get. That's weird and that means that i'm not normal. Wah.

*Yawn* Okie..i think i better stop here. Getting real sleepy. Until next time. Cya.

Into The Blue

2005-10-15T15:22:00.000+08:00

Time for another live update on jess's life. Haha..sounds like i'm running a news show. Nah..boring job. Heh.

This wk has been a rather relaxing wk i can say. Mon went out for dinner then fellowship with crusaders. Quite fun and interesting with all the sharing. Hee. But tues was the ultimate day of this wk. At first, joanna, mummy, milton, justin and i met up at orchard to have lunch. (at orchard cos we meeting dajie later for movie as well) And it turned out to be someone's suanning day. Better not state who if not later tat person read will kill me. Haha ;p

Yup..and practically the whole day we were suanning tat person. We declared tat tues tat person's suanning day. Hehe..Oppsie..This was not the ultimate happening. At first we went to Shaw House to take a look at the movie timings. As the timings were not suitable, we went to CinniLeisure to check it out and of course, i msged dajie to tell her to meet us at summerset instead.

The thing was this. We flooded dajie's hp with calls once we checked out the timings, which were not tat suitable, as she did not keep up her hp. In the end when she did, we found out she and simon were at PS. My gdness. But since the timings at PS were more suitable, we went there instead. Imagine tat. We practically checked out all the cinemas at town. Woohoo..haha.. But yeah, we caught 'Into The Blue" and it was a nice show. Heh..there were Paul Walker and one of my favourite actress, Jessica Alba. Whee..

After show, we discussed a bit abt the crusade dance ministry before dajie had to leave and later on simon and milton. The rest of us had dinner at BK, dessert at Gelare before heading down to play pool. Haha..rux rite?

As for the rest of the wk, i decided to slack at home and edit a blog template, which i shall use later on once it is completed. Hehe ;) Okie..tat's all the news for today folks. Cya and take care!!

Dance Prac

2005-10-02T16:06:00.000+08:00

Ouch!! My thigh is hurting. Pain manz. Hopefully the pain will disappear by tues. *pray* These past few days had been one hactic but super fun time. I had to travel to harbour front four times and my ez-link card is gg bust. Whoa.. But yeah, it was all worth it. Heh ;)

META is coming soon in a few days time and i'm the group ACGL. Wah..fast lor for a freshie like me. Still, it will be challenge to me and i dun mind anyway besides the fact that dajie will be in another team. Sad case can. But she will be joining my group for Project X. Yay!! Really looking forward to META and to the dance. Hehe ;)

It's been a shiong period for the dancers. Mummy, dajie, joanna, bo chun, justin, miltan and myself practised our dance "Tell the World" like crazy as we started only on mon. We only had 3 practices wif jiayi (our choreographer); mon, tues and today. She's the best can. She had to like rush down to another of her dance practices as she has dance peformace in church tmr. Even wif only 3 official practices, all of us did very well. Hehe..we used my church yesterday afternoon to practise for our dance as there was the mirror to synchronise our timing. Super fun lor. O..and frm the look of this week, we ate more than we danced. Wahaha ;P

For today's dance practice, we learned the final steps and sharpened our movements. I was like in pain la as my right thigh hurt like crazy. Still, it was fun. O..then we asked sharon whether starting frm us, cld we set up a crusade dance ministry. And she approved. Yippee!! That's so cool. After that, we went makan before heading down to city hall where we brought our shirts. We are gonna design our shirts. Whee..can't wait manz. Then we proceeded to kfc where we rested as all of us looked damn shagged but in the end, we crapped, told lame jokes and played games. Haha..typical of us. As we left kfc, we went ard looking for fabric paint and it was a fruitless effort. But one thing ican say for sure, we were laughing and laughing non-stop and making a lot of noise. Haha ;P

Kk..looking forward to designing the shirts on mon at miltan's church. Gotta go do some stuffs now. Cya!!

TP&RP Combined Chalet

2005-09-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Time for another dose of jess's borriinng life. Haha..not this time though. This wk was a grt one or shall i say, an awesome one. [Warning: Long entry!!!] Just came back frm TP&RP Campus Crusade combined chalet at Aloha Loyang yesterday. It lasted for 3 days and this is one chalet i will always remember. Why? Read on.

I shall not tok about everything or else this entry will be super duper long. So i will write down the stuffs that had a greater impact on me. On the first day while all of us gathered at macs before heading down to the chalet, irene suddenly asked me to lead worship before the messgae she was going to give that night. I was surprised. What makes it even more surprising was that when phyllis told me she saw my name on the list of ppl leading worship. Alamak!! How come i dunno one? But it turned out grt. Though i only led two songs due to lack of time for preparation, God provided a guit for one song and it was somemore a praise song. Cool right? And i was saboed by amos to use the mic. Argh!! I did use it in the end cuz everyone was like so supporting so how can i reject? Haiz..Haha ;)

Another thing that i will never forget on the first day is when we broke into grps for a time of sharing and prayer. The gals were all together as there were not many of us as compared to the guys. This is the first and only time i ever shared my struggles and burdens in a group. And i was glad i did. The sharings, encouragements and prayers frm the others deeply encouraged me. I felt really comforted by them. Actually in the end was only 4 of us. Yup. O then when yap min and me were resting on the bed, phyllis read her QT material to us. It was like a mother reading bedtime story to her children. So in the end, she became our "mummy" and wan ting our "dajie". I am "ermei" to them cuz yap min was younger than me. Wahaha..it's so seldom that i'm not the youngest. ;p It was only tha first day and so fast we formed a family.

On the second day, dajie told me that while she was doing her quiet time, God revealed to her a verse. And the moment she read the verse, she knew that the verse was meant for me and it really was when i read it. How amazing was that? Woohoo.. There was also a message in the morning by kailin. The message that was brought forth really spoke a lot to me. It toked about barrier(s), unity and so on. O..when she introduced herself at the beginning and she said that she was from NP, i was thinking whether she knew cheryl jie. I did not know her age but yeah la, i still went to ask her and surprise surprise, she knew cheryl jie. Haha..what a concidence. So yeah. Hehe.. As we were going to have bbq that night plus we were allowed to invite our frenz, we prayed for fine weather. At first we were quite worried when we saw a heavy rain coming in the afternoon. But by God's grace, the rain juzt passed by and then, the sky became clear. God is at work manz!! The bbq was wonderful. That's all i can say. Haha..

After the bbq, li huan (godmother), mummy, joel and myself went to the swimming pool to play. We ended getting wet though we only walked in the pool as we splashed each other. Heh..it was fun. Then after bathe, we played "Polar Bear, Hunter and Villagers" together with the rest. I kana 'polar bear' on the first round and i was gd. Haha ;p Joel came out with many variations and somehow 'polar bear' became 'panda'. Haha..funny sia. Then ard 5am, 'my family' decided it's time we hit out beds.

On the last day, it was sharing,thanksgivings and appreciations. It was encouraging and touching to hear what the others felt and learnt. I will never forget the challenge joel set: RP Campus Crusade will become bigger than TP's. And another one by irene: To fill up 2 bungalows nexr time we have another chalet. I am so looking forward to see these 2 challenges being fulfilled. O yeah and before i forget, the 'family' big hug before we departed after having lunch at white sands. Aww..so sad..

To sum it all up, the one thing that sets this chalet apart frm the others is everyone working together in one Spirit. Everybody was helping one another out with the preparation of the bbq, clearing up and even worship. This is one thing i truely feel what is missing in churches nowadays.

Anyway to end it, i really want to thank God that i joined Campus Crusade and got to know all my fellow brothers and sisters-in-Christ, especially mummy and dajie for all their encouragements. Also, i really want to thank God as well that i went for this chalet where my spiritual life felt refreshed, where i see unity and God's power at work. Indeed this chalet would not have been a success without Him. Thank you Lord.

Okie..shall end off here. Cya guys!! :)

Hols

2005-09-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

Time for a dose of updates on my life. Hehe.. A week of my hols has juz flew passed and the release of my exam results are in a few days time. Hopefully i do not have to take any supp paper. The tot of it juz scares me.

This wk nothing much in particular. Been staying at home most of the time as my stomach wasn't feeling tat well for quite a few days. Sickening. So yeah..i ended up either slping, watching vcds or online. I juz found out thah i have vcds that i bought but hvn't watch yet. Haha.

Then also there was PAF briefing cum training. It was ok but what happened at the end can only be described in one word: avoidance. I dun regret what i said. It was the person's own dose of medicine. If this is the way things are going to me, it's fine by me. I dun give a damn.

Yup..aft tat, went for dinner with my family at CAFE CARTEL. Yum!! Delicious. Hee.. Aft filling our stomachs, we went to shop ard at tm and there are so many things i wanna get. I saw the shoe, bag and the vcds i want to get. Hmm..maybe i will get it hhis wk but see how first if have time. This wk i have lotsa stuffs on already. So fun. Haha ;P

As for today, didn't really wanna go for ym since it was classes. But i didn't regret going in the end. Ps Aaron speaker session on tithing was grt. The words he said made an impact to me. And i was happy that all of sg members who were present filled up the pledge cards. It's a wonderfuly feeling isn't it? It's all for God's glory.

i think i have said enuf and i have nothing else to tok abt anyway. Haha.. K..gg off and cheers.

Jess..lyn: I can't tag my blog gal when i'm using my home com. Dunno why aso.

Happy B'dae sis

2005-09-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

Before i start, it's someone's b'dae and i wld like to wish her a happy birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA TASHA!! Continue to rock and dance on ya sis!! ;)

Yup..i'm back and blogging again. Didn't come online much recently as i was busy studying for my exams. But now, exams are over. Yippee!! Hopefully i dun have to take any sup paper and of course i dun intend too. Heh..

My class had a bbq yesterday. And o my, for the first time in my entire bbq i ever went, there were a lot of food. When i a lot, i really mean a lot. There were pizzas, fried rice, pasta, cookies and bags of titbits besides the normal usual bbq food. It was so much that quite an amt was thrown away except for the titbits. My goodness.

But the bbq was fun. Played cards while drinking beer. What's the difference between the different kinds of beer? I can't find any difference at all. All beer tastes the same to me. Hmm.. Then kenneth, thian leng, daryl, corinn and myself went to climb the 'spider web' at ard 11 plus. Heh..no kids so easier to climb. Plus there was this spinning disc thingie and it was super fun but dizzy. Haha.. Howvever, a container of cookies was broken inside it. How? Guess urself. Crazy guys. Heh ;p

As for today, nothing much besides e-games, x-b0x party. I won a competition surprisingly. Yeah..then headed for dinner before visiting my qiu qiu and qiu ma. It's been quite a long while since i saw them. Quite miss the time when i stayed with them when i was a baby and a kid as my parents were busy.

K..life has been fun so far. Wondering what i will be doing during my hols. I wanna work but who wld want to hire someone for 1 n a half mth plus cannot work on sundays? Hiaz..shall see how. Okie..time to go. Smile always ;)

Study Week

2005-08-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating as my com is having problems. It will soon crash on me though i hope it doesn't. Last wk was my last wk of sch. Whee..but tat means exams is next wk as this wk is study wk. Shucks.. Time passes real fast. One sem is already over just like that.

Went to the beach, booked the bbq pit, went to play pool with daryl before meeting up with jialing jie for dinner on sat. Had a bit of catching up as we two haven't met up for quite a long while or even toked to each other although she is my AL. Then we headed to church for 17-up and we watched a movie on Mother Theresa while eating pop corns and drinking coke at the same time. Quite enjoyable. Heh.. But yeah..the movie was touching and it questioned me abt my faith in God. Is my faith in God as strong as i think it is? I have no idea. Even when jialing jie asked me some questions, i cldn't give her direct answers. Everything to me now is 'i dunno.'

*sigh* Looking forward to my class bbq, which is the day aft my last paper. I'm gg to make pasta, chocolate chip bananas and maybe jellies with fruits inside if there is time. Hehe.. Then looking forward to the chalet organised by campus crusade two weeks aft tat then it will be META soon. O yeah..muz remember to sign up. I keep forgetting.

K..betta go back and study. I seriously have no intention of failing or to retake any module nxt sem. Ciaoz.

I can't explain why i feel this way. Everything that kindles the beginning is gone like a vapour vanishing into the sky. Unseen. Unexpected. How long am i able to take it? Will i disappear? I have no answers. Juz gonna have to wait and see as time flies. Back to the start.

BSC Camp

2005-08-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

Yahooo..juz came back frm BSC Sub-com Camp yesterday evening. Fri nite was boring as it was icebreakers (nothing much) and brief intro of upcoming projects. I expected that there might be a night walk but heard frm my FA that it was cancelled due to certain concerns. Bleah.

Sat one was much better and a lot more fun. There were station games in the morning and the wet games were super nice. But i hated the station whereby we had to put a certain no. of body parts on the mat filled with water, milo, flakes, honey and egg all mixed together. Luckily my grp had that station as our first if not, i can't imagine how disgusting it wld be and we didn't had spaghetti. The grps aft us had though. I saw one who had spaghettic strands on her shirt. Yucks!! Gross manz!! I never liked playing these type of games/activities.

After changing, it was time for lunch and it was buffet. Yum!! Poor SU only had packet food. Aww..haha.. I'm so bad. ;P O..den i met Liping and her twin sis who was in my grp. Heh..both of them super alike. Good thing both have different hair styles.

Then it was time for dance in the afternoon. We learned the business dance and did the tp dance as well as the chicky dance. Haha..so fun manz. I liked the business dance. Whee.. At the end, the dance floor was opened to dance however we liked. Wah..there were two who danced like they were either in a disco or pub. Solid manz. Yup..following it was prize presentation and bye bye.

Overall, i wld say the camp activites were gd except for the first nite. My grp FA rux and she's frm mass com. Heh..as for my grp mates, they were grt and fun. Haha ;) However, the camp cld have been much better. There were lotsa space for improvements to be made esp when it came to the projects brief description. Instead of telling us that we were gg to assist the main com, they shld at least tell us in what areas and how.

O well..tmr gg to hang out wif my DG. Still dunno whether i will be gg for META. No money no talk as usual. As this wk is gonna be the last wk of this sem, i'm gonna start taking picts. Woohoo..can't wait. Haha..

Kk..me gtg off. Hopefully to study. Haha.. Until nxt time!!

Charlie & The Chocolate Factory

2005-08-17T16:04:00.000+08:00

Whee..i'm a happy and relieve gal for now. I'm so glad tat all my projects are done and over with. Today was the submission of the last project that i have. Not only that, i scored 14.5/15 for my excel test. Due to the submission of the project, we ended ard 1pm. Shiok manz!! ;) Haha..isn't that great!!

Yesterday, Mr Sim treated the whole class to Norgan Dagz. However as it was ard 11 plus tat we went, there was no ice-cream. Ahh!! So i ended up ordering a pasta, soup and mango Italian sparkling soda. The oreo cheesecake was marvellous as well. Yum yum!! Haha..feeling hungry now? Then kenneth was saying that the food was unhealthy and fattening. But who cares manz? He himself was also eating what. Haha ;)

Then today after sch, i went to watch Charlie and The Chocolate Factory with fadzlynn, aisha, komala, gavin, fiona, corinn and lijing. This was the first time we ever went out in such a big grp and all from the same class. There was in total 8 of us. As the movie was only gonna start in an 1hr plus time when we reached there, we went walking and chatting along the way (expt for 2 who went to play pool).

The movie was gd except maybe for gavin. The rest of us were like joking and chatting after the movie. O..and i like dipping popcorns into cheese. Yummy!! Haha ;)

Okie..gtg off now. Though lessons start at 1pm tmr, more than 10 of us are playing badminton in the morning. Yup..all from the same class as well. Heh.. Nitey nitez!!

Worship

2005-08-15T16:07:00.000+08:00

Today was the start of the new sg system of mass teaching. Ber was the first to speak to us today and it was on his mission trip to Tokyo. The desire and fire grew even more stronger to go on a mission trip to Japan and spread God's Word to the youths there after that. After the mass teaching, we broke up into our sg. The problem was there was nothing to tok abt..well..maybe a little. But my sg ended up sharing their wk and i trying to find something to tok abt. Ahh..it's a toughie manz.

The difference that set this sunday apart from no other sundays was when after ym was over, a youth told me that he/she wanted to jump during worship but didn't as he/she felt weird. Isn't this always the case? The differences we see during events such as FOP and Synergiz as compared to our Sunday's worship. Why???

Let me draw back to FOP first. During FOP, we saw youths jumping, clapping, raising their hands and singing. But are they really praising and worshipping the Lord with their hearts and not just with their actions? Or is it because it is just like any other events where we see youths jump and lift their hands?

If the ans is yes for the first one, another qn to ponder over is: are they right with God? Yes they may be singing and jumping but are they right with God? Is God living in them? Are they drawing closer to Him? It is meaningless when they are drifting away from God and coming for FOP is to get a feeling of God's presence or in other words, to feel 'high'.

To me as long as one is right with God and is worshipping Him with his heart, no matter what he/she does during worship, it does not matter. God sees the heart of His worshipper.

As for me personally, the difference when i go for events such as FOP and Sunday's worship, is that i can set myself loose and totally focus on God. Nothing else occupies my mind but only God. It's all about Him. What i meant by this? During FOP, almost everyone jumpped. It was..erm..common. You get the idea anyway. When i'm filled with joy during worship and i want to jump, i just do it. I didn't have to care about what others think about me or how they react. There is no sense of consciousness during FOP. Everything i do, is for the Lord and Him only. But in ym, when i'm standing in the midst of the youths and i started jumping, how would the youths react? That's when i start being conscious about my surroundings again.

Another thing is restriction. What do i mean by 'restriction'? An example is speaking in tongues. I hope the word 'tongues' is clear cut enough and that i don't have to elaborate more on this. Also there is the style of worship. This one i don't know how to put down in words here.

Don't take all these wrongly though. I do still worship God with all my heart during Sunday's worship but not to the depth of it where everything is focused on Him totally.

K..these are just my side of the story. Nitez.

Festival of Praise 2005

2005-08-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

Festival of Praise 2005 is here!!! Woohoo.. Just went for the past 2 days of it. This time round is Hillsong and Delirious together. Both of them rux and the most wonderful thing is it's all for God's glory. I also gotta thank God for Darlene Zschech and anointing her to be a great worship leader, singer and songwriter. Her songs touch the hearts of many and when she leads, i can feel God's presence in the place and in me. It was awesome and powerful.

For the past two nights, the worship experience was different. I worshipped the Lord like never before, just putting everything behind me and focusing on Him only. The songs that were sang, the words touched my heart and meant a lot to me. God is my Lord and will always be forever. O yeah..not to forget Rev Colin Dye who preached God's Word to us. His sermons are power manz!!

I dun think i will be gg for tmr's one but shall see how. Hmm..looks like i really need to save up already. I wanna buy the Hillsong lastest cd, Delirious lastest cd and a combined of both bands cd.

Ok..i shall now leave you with some the songs.
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Salvation Is Here by Hillsong

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me

Tell The World That by Hillsong

Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C'mon, c'mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

Majesty by Delirious

Here I am humbled by Your Majesty,
Covered by Your grace oh friend.
Here I am knowing I'm a sinful man,
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life,
The greatest sacrifice.

Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I am humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand,
Knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.
And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life,
The greatest sacrife.

Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.
We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the beauty of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

Rain Down by Delirious

Looks like tonight, the sky is heavy
feels like the winds, are gonna change
Beneath my feet, the Earth is ready
I know it's time, for heavens rain.
It's gonna rain, yeah yeah

Cause living water we desire,
to flood our hearts with holy fire

Rain down, all around the world we're singing
Rain down, can you hear the Earth is singing
Rain down, my heart is dry but still i'm singing
Rain down, rain it down on me.

Back to the start, my heart is heavy
Feels like it's time, to dream again
I see the clouds, and yes i'm ready
To dance upon, this barren land
Hope in my hands, yeah yeah

Cause living water we desire,
to flood our hearts with holy fire

Rain down, all around the world we're singing
Rain down, can you hear the Earth is singing
Rain down, my heart is dry but still i'm singing
Rain down, rain it down

Do not shut, do not shut, do not shut, the heavens
But open up, open up, open up, our hearts

Rain down, all around the world we're singing
Rain down

(Rain down) Give me strength to cross this water,
keep my heart upon your altar, rain down
(Rain down) Give me strength to cross this water
keep my feet, don't let me falter, rain down

(Hey,'ey,'ey)

Do not shut the heavens
But open up our hearts, open up our hearts,
Do not shut the heavens
But open up our hearts, open up my heart.

3rd

2005-07-31T16:30:00.000+08:00

Time for an update for this wk. But before that, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ELAINE!! It's belated ss the day is already over.

On wed, i went to play pool with khalis in the morning before heading to sch. Haha.. O and at the interchange, i met ralph and ryan, who were on the way to church. Poor guys gotta plan for the bible quiz. Whose idea was it anyway? Bleah. Then there was SONIFEST which i went on fri night with stef and yvonne. And while we were there, we met isabelle, mary-ann, marie and joycelyn, so we ended up being together. This yr's one was much better than last yr's. There was Planetshakers. Woohoo..plus i bought a cd and a book. The only thing was that there was no proper food being sold. I was super hungry (though i alreay ate my dinner) so we went to KFC for supper at 11 plus. Wahaha..but mary-ann and isabelle didn't join us as they went home.

The most exciting event this wk was the interclass captainball tournament on fri n today as well. Fri was the heats and as we won, we played in the quarters, semi-finals and finals which were held today. I had to wake up early (unusual on a sat) but it was worth it. My team came in 3rd!! Woohoo..not too bad rite? heh.. My team mates are the best. If we had the best supporting class award, i think my class wld win. Out of the 25 ppl in my class, only 5 didn't come. The rest of the 20 came. It really came as a surprise for me. I didn't expect them to come and support us. Yay!! 1B01 rocks!! ;)

On the downside, my team mates was declared as the 'most fouls', which was totally crap la. First, the referee was unreasonable. We didn't know there was a change of certain rules, leading to an unfairness of the game, which we lost by 2 or 3 points. I can't rememebr clearly. We tried clearing it out with the referee that almost led to an argument. I felt like shouting at her. But i really got to give credit to the captain. She told us again and again that this tournament is not only for ourselves but is for the class as well. If we wanna fight, we do it after everything has finished. Anyway, the rules for this tournament was short change.

Secondly, the referee who took my team for the finals was 'blind'. My team mates kana wracked in the face, he either nv see or ignore. Pls la..tat bootch shld have been sent off already. Even my class ppl, who came to support, thought so too. To add oil to the fire, the referee said to one of my team mates immature. My goodness, my team mate was already going to hit him if it wasn't for the rest to hold him back. But it was understandable as the rest of us wld react the same way if we were in his shoes. F*** la the referee. Bastard.

O well..what's over is over. No one can change whatever has already been done. Something i discovered was that two of my pri 2 or 3 classmates cld still remember me. Cool huh? Haha ;P At first none of us wanted to call each other's name as we were not sure whether the opposite person still remember aft many yrs. But yeah..in the end we did recognise one another. Yay!! =)

Okie..tat shld be all i wanna say. Adiyos.

Broke!!

2005-07-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

Before i start, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Rachel jie!! Hope you had a b'dae filled with fun, joy and laughters. =)

Now i'm broke, really broke. Yesterday's shopping with khalis and lynn at town wiped my wallet empty. Bought 2 tops, 1 which is formal, and 2 shorts. O..and i saw this super nice classy white skirt that when i first saw it, i wanted to get it. Heh..lynn liked it too. But it's $49!! Hmm..gonna have to save up if i want to buy that skirt. But saving up wld be a prob as well. There's Sonicfest to pay for and an upcoming makan cum chilling out session.
Ahhh!!

I was late(very) for 17-up but am glad that i managed to hear what poh kiang said at the ending parts plus the showing of a short clip on Mother Theresa. She was indeed a woman who is worth respecting and following. If i cld ask her a qn, i wld like to know how she managed to have the courage to do what she did. Her life indeed sent a touching and heartfelt message to me, especially when i'm a Christian. I truely respect her. Well..i'm looking forward to the nxt 17-up session(can the com change the name?) as it will be a movie setting. Hee..can't wait and stef has agreed to come. Yay!! =)

As for today, it was small grp and as abi's grp members will be joining my grp for bible quiz(splited into 2 teams), they joined mine only for today. Today's was a 'sweet chocolaty' one. As it was clara's b'dae yesterday, i bought 2 tubs of Rocky Pool ice-cream as cake was not a gd idea to our full stomachs. But can you imagine it, 2 tubs!! Wahaha..the chocolate ice-cream with marshmallows, chocolate cookies and nuts was super delicious..and fattening to add on. Heh ;P My grp finished one and a half tub and as for the rest, i gave it to rachel's grp. Yup of course..they finished it. Who wldn't? Haha ;)

I'm looking forward to the captainsball tournament this wk. I shall trash whoever get in my way. Haha.. O..and my grandma's is staying over at my hse for 1 mth, starting frm today. Hope she will make the rice dumplings and the cake. Yum!! Okie.. shall go do my presentation speech for tmr. I pray that the Lord will grant me the confidence and that i will not stammer nor will i speak too fast.

Yupz..signing off. JeSs

Retail Therapy

2005-07-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

Today was a superb day for me. I've never had such a relaxing time for quite some time already. Went shopping with aisha and bought quite a few stuffs. hehe..happy happy.. I still wanna get some more stuffs though. Hmm..maybe another time. Spent too much money aleady.

After that, headed to church for envision. As usual, i felt at peace and calm during the worship session. Juz being able to spend time with the Lord and my fellow brothers and sisters-in-Christ; and not worry or think abt other stuffs. We then went makan at Downtown East before going to play pool. Really had a grt time plus the addition of learning how to play CS. Haha ;)

Besides all these, i have Comm Skill presentation on mon. Ahh..have to wear formal somemore. Nervous sia cos my target audience is boardroom memebers. Then got accounting test coming up on teh 1st of aug and two projects due aft that. But well, i'm looking forward to the captainball match. I'm ready to thrash any class that my clss have to go against in order to win. No space for giving chance.

O ya..had an interview by the senior student of BSC as i sort of want to join BSC sub-com. Haha..why? For CCA points la. I think i might have 'takan' him back a bit as he was asking qns, which were like not specific. Aiya..what the heck manz!! If cannot get in, den dun get in lor.

Nothing much to tok abt already so i shall juz end everything off here. Byez!!

Tired..Burned Out

2005-07-21T08:34:00.000+08:00

Phew..i'm so glad that my CSA project is done and over wif. It was crazy staying up for 3 nights trying to complie and rush everything but to find out that there were problemns. Made me feel so frustrated. Argh!! But o well..i'm glad that's totally over and i dun have to face the dreamweaver and fireworks programs again as we are gg to start on microsoft excel. Heh..now i can slp while the tutor teaches. Can't stand the way she teaches. It's either she is blur and dunno what to do or she goes one whole big round. Sheesh..

I still got another presentation coming up nxt mon for my Comm Skills and tmr is my grp's dry run. An my grp happily put me as the first presenter, which means that i need to have a huge attention-getter. O man..tat sux!! At least i dun really have to do much thinking and elaborating. Heh ;)

*sigh* Wanted to tok to amy jie on sunday aft ym but aft the sgl training session, i felt that there's no need already. A new system was introduced, which is like the extreme of what i wanted to tok to her abt. Although i'm not totally against it, i still do not like the new system. Crap la..

I did not wanna admit it before but now i feel that i have too. I'M BURNED OUT AND TIRED!! Everything is juz not gg right wif me now. I have tots that i did not expect to have before and used words that i tot was not nice and that i wld not use at all. But now, it is the total opposite. Everything's different now. Who am i? The real me? I dunno. It's like i'm back to square one again. If anyone hears what my tots are, he/she wld be shock i think cos it's definitely not gg to be the person he/she sees. The problem now is that the percentage of me gettig these tots done are quite high and actually, i like it. Haha..

O well..what's got to be done will be done anyway. If i have to face the consequences, den let it be. People do change so it's no big deal. Lalalala..let's have fun. Haha..

Ok..tat's all for wat i wanna say. Cya peeps!!

Project Week

2005-07-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

Last wk was test wk while this wk is project wk. Super busy manz. Everyday have to go back sch since i dun have the software. Bleah. Anyway besides with the everyday routine of doing project, watched Fantastic 4 on mon aft the last paper wif aisha. We intended to catch A Lot Like Love at first but the show was not showing anymore. Still, Fantastic 4 was a really gd show. I had lotsa laughs and i find Chris Evans (The Human Torch) quite cute. Haha ;P

Den i had campus crusade outing yesterday, which was held in the evening cos we are combined together with rp. We had worship at Esplanade Park before heading down to marina for dinner and bowling. It's been a while since i last went bowling manz. But aft tat session, i think i will be bowling soon since they also like bowling plus safra is near by. Heh.. O yeah..the ironic thing was that one of the crusaders said i look like her cousin, another one that i look familiar and one that i tot look familiar to me (she tot so too), who ended up to be eileen's fren plus same name as well. Wahaha..in the end, from dunno each other to making the other crusaders think we are gd frens. Haha ;)

Juz found out a way to lose fats at the tummy and heard it is effective. The method is to lift up ur butt den do a cycling movement with ur legs. From the sound of it, it does help isn't it. Hmmm..

Okie..better go back to my research. Sigh..2 more days before sis leaves for aust. *sob* now not only is eunice not ard, but sis as well. Damn sad manz. *sob**sob* Not looking forward to this sat at all. Waaahh..

CORE

2005-07-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm now sort of having my dinner consisting of cup noodles at this insane hour. That's not gd isn't it? Just came back from CORE conference and the worship session at Bukit Panjang Methodist Church. I wonder why they have it at so far. The cost of going there killed my wallet and the time taken to come back was crazy. O well..at least i have learned something out from this and the last song we sang during the worship session had beats like those in a disco. It made me wanna move manz. Haha ;) But if nxt time got this type of seminar again, i dun think i wanna go (unless eunice is back). I felt so weird or in other words, out of place, being with them during this conference. However, i did enjoy the time spent with them 'exploring' the LRT, eating, chatting and 'playing'. Heh..plus all their looneyness in reviving their childhood. ;P

This wk was a heavy loader on me. I had to cram as much information into my head (brain not used for 6 mths) for my tests. As a result, i'm lacking of slp, almost went crazy and my head hurts. Argh!! Left one more paper on mon and i will be done plus the coming wk is my wk break. Happy happy but i gotta complete my projects as well. Blah. This sux!!

Yesterday evening was a grt time though. Went to joey's hse to celebrate her b'dae and got introduced to her pets in an 'interesting' way. It did not happened on me but on someone else. Shall not say but if you wanna noe, maybe he might have blogged it down in his blog. Haha ;) O..and as usual, the cake cream on the faces. ck, shaun, jere and joey all kana on their faces except for me, which landed on my shirt all thanks to joey. Heh :) The only thing is that the cake was an expensive one, a mango ice-cream cake from Swensens. Wah..heart pain manz but i'm not the one paying anyway. Haha ;P

Ok la..better stop here and go do some studying then gotta hit the bed soon if not tmr cannot wake up early for ushering. I hope that it will be spectacular Youth Sunday. Yay!!

Sick period

2005-07-04T03:08:00.000+08:00

This wk was a sick period. Mon and tues, two of my coursemates fell sick respectively. As for the rest of the days including tues, i fell sick, super sick. I came down with a terrible cough, fever and flu. The scary thing was that i had fever at two different days, wed and fri, and both hit 39.0. Did not went to see the doc at all plus my parents do not really know abt my fever. But thank God, my fever subsided to normal, flu has gone and i'm fine now except for a slight cough. Yay!!

Due to my illness, i didn't get to study for my term tests. Not gd news manz. Gonna have to stay up late to finish writing notes and study as i do not have time to spare already. Also i got two projects due the wk aft the coming wk of term tests. It's crazy. One was only make known last wk and the other this wk; and both projects are not simple. They require time and research. *sigh* Now who says poly life is an easy one?

Ahhh..i need to rest. I wanna go shopping. Haha ;) But can only do tat aft tests finish. Okie..gotta go back to my studies. But before tat, here's a small announcement..

Activity: Seafood BBQ
Venue: Pasir Ris Beach, Pit 19
Date: 12 July 2005
Time: To be confirmed
Cost: To be confirmed
Invitation: Christian & non-Christians

The activity is organised by SYCF. If u are interested in gg, do let me know. Thx ;)

Cough

2005-06-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

Hvn't been updating much cos been quite busy wif sch stuffs. Rushing through my essay, projects, surveys and tutorials. Stayed up like till 4 plus last night. It's crazy. O by the way, juz wanna thk all of u who have helped me fill in the surveys. Sry for the spelling and grammatical errors yeah ;)

I'm down wif this bad cough and tat means i have to refrain from sweet. heaty and cold stuffs. Will i be able to do tat? I doubt so. I was in the com lab retyping my essay (cos got to be 1.5 spacing. tat's what i get for not reading instructions..bleah..). The guys were there doing their essay as well. Then daryl got bored andfor no reason started being lame by pestering me. Heh..funny manz he.

O yeah..last sat e-games was grt and unexpectedly my team won. My team consisted of dinah(captain), yi ying, eileen, li yin and myself. I actually expected jassandra's team to win cos got two tall gbs( taller than me). But they got second instead and i'm happy. Haha.. I had to play for 2 teams though cos there wasn't enuf ppl and so does viv, jac and chan min. I didn't mind though. Heh ;P

Something that i learned during e-games was sharing the gospel is a creativity way, using fingers. I was together wif the gbs when jassandra shared by using the finger method. Interesting, easy to comprehand and effective. Yup..den after e-games, i headed back to church for 17-up.

I shall end here. Nxt wk is my term tests already and i hvn't even started studying yet. I am so DEAD!! Ahh..someone save me. Er..nvm. Ok..signing off.

Mr and Mrs Smith

2005-06-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

Whee..today was one unexpected day but a grt one though. Firstly, today afternoon's tutorial was cancelled cos mrs aisha was sick. We then got our care person to do the make-up lesson as well together with the morning lesson. Not that it was faster, we also were able to be dismiss much earlier then expected. Heh ;)

And secondly, i went with 2 of my coursemates, jeispreit and li jing, to watch 'Mr And Mrs Smith'. It was quite a last minute thing actually. But yeah..didn't regret watching. It was a really gd movie. :)

O..i was watching this chinese show and one of the contestants (competition of who can put off as a malay but isn't one) actually shared his story. It was touching that i almost cried (the actress [judge] did). He shared that when he wanted to take part in this show, his mum told him that he was actually an adopted child. He was not their real son though his dad and him look quite alike. Now the questions was, "what was his reaction(s) and how he felt?"

His answers were that he was shocked as he have never ever thought that he was an adopted child even if others were to say so. However even after his 'mum' told him this, he still went ahead to enter the competition. But not only that, when he was praised for being strong and brave to be standing there and sharing all of these, he said that his parents are even stronger, braver and greater than him. This was because they had taken care of him like their own legitimate son despite the troubles they have to bear such as relatives constant disapproval and critisms. And near the end, he thanked his parents and said that he will always love them and take care of them. I can't remember the rest. All i know that the words he said were really heartfelt and touched my heart.

It's like this guy could have like taken the 'shocking news' in another way. He could have taken it in a bad way and ran out of the house, ignoring his 'parents', in a desperation to find out who are his real parents. Something like those that you see on tv. This guy certainly deserves all the praises for everything that he said. A standing ovation!!

That's all i gotta say. Looking forward to 1st of july as grandma (father's side)will be coming over to stay for a month. Yay!! Misses her sponge cake that she wld occassionally make not us when she visits. But now, i will have food to eat. Haha ;p

Okie..have a gd nitez peeps. Zzzz..

SG Outing

2005-06-18T16:08:00.000+08:00

I'm happy!! Haha..today was really a productive and wonderful dae. It started when both my lecture and tutorial for todae, released us like an hour before the exact time. So gd manz..heh ;)

After that, i had SG outing so went to meet the gals at orchard mrt station. The gals, who were able to meet up, were faith, clara, jesslyn, eileen, liying and michelle. And of course not to forget nat as well. We went to Coffee Club to makan or it was more like nat n me. The rest of the time in there we toked and toked. Both of us wanted to order mud pie for them but they didn't want. Wonder why? Mud pie is really delicious. But we did ordered calamari rings for them though. We so nice loh? Heh ;p

We then went to Heeren to jalan jalan ard, took photos and neoprints. Faith had to leave early so she cld not take photos or neoprints wif us. So sad.. aww.. nvm..another time. Nxt time we go Downtown East Theme Park. Haha.. As jesslyn and clara needed to go off by 6, it left wif only nat, eileen, liying, michelle and me. We went kfc for dinner since i was craving for it for no particular reason and they didn't mind.

Basically the whole outing was shopping, taking picts, makan and lotsa toking. The gals are damn cute manz. They can smile for no reason one. Hee.. As for me, i'm quite broke. Spent a lot and bought quite a few stuffs. But i still wanna go shop for clothes. Haha..plus watch movies.

Okie..tat's all. Here are the photos we took. Not many though. Nitez!!

Eileen, Liying, Myself and Michelle

Clare, Myself and Jesslyn

Eileen, Michelle, Nat and Liying

Clara, Nat and Jesslyn

Group shot!! ;)

Neoprints time!! ;)

Pink!! Blue!! Guess whose hands are these? Haha ;p

Quizzes

2005-06-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

Heh..am bored and since i dun feel like sleeping at the moment, i shall do these quizzes taken off frm sis's blog.
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[NOW]
happy or sad : neither..heh..in between can?
sleepy or awake : er..half half?
hungry or full : super full!!!
dirty or clean : clean!!!
sick or healthy : healthy of course

[WHAT]
you last ate : rice dumplings that grandma brought over..hehe..
you last drank : water
you wearing now : tee and berms
are you thinking of : shld i do my qt later or go slp?
do you take for granted : care and concern of my parents

[WHO]
do you miss the most : eunice!! cos she's in aust mah..
do you love : all whom i noe..
do you feel most happy with : lotsa ppl :)
makes you laugh : lotsa ppl too..haha.. ;)
makes u sleep : my accounting lecturer..he's really boring..
makes you cry : God and ppl who mean a lot to me
makes you angry : anyone hu offends, irritates and pisses me off
enlightens you : hmm..august?
ill-treats you : huh? no one bah..

[WHEN]
is your birthday : 10 dec!! take note k? heh :)
is your loved one's birthday : err..got a lot lehz..
is your wedding annivesary : i'm not married yet..hee..
is the happiest day of your life : lotsa happy daes..cannot list all.. :)
did you last swear : i dun swear
did you last have a fight : err..can't remember..
did you last cry : aiya..can't remember also..who wants to remember anyway?

[HOW]
do you break off with someone : dunno..nv experience it before..
do you overcome depression : i dun suffer from depression lehz..
do you live your life : taking it one step at a time as it comes
do you pass your time : watching tv, coming online, maybe reading, ect..
do you pass your exams : study hard and play hard at the right times..plus pray hard as well ;)

[WHY]
do you normally get angry: cos i got irritated, offended or pissed off by someone
do you cry : cos i'm hurt, sad or sometimes happy..hehe..
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1. whose picture is it that you keep on your wallet? no one's except mine..got ic mah..haha ;p
2. what time do you go to bed? no exact timing..when i'm tired or felt like too i guess
3. what was the last thing you did before filling this survey? surfing the net
4. who's the one you always meet the most? tp coursemates..starts sch already mah..
5. who's the person you're gonna call if you need help? help for wat? usually no one..dun like to trouble others unless bo bian..
6. what's on your mind right now? nothing..juz wanna complete tis finish
7. who's number on your speed dials? no one's
8.with whom do you wanna be to have fun? my bros and sis-in-Christ, friends
9. what movie do u wanna watch now? lots lehz..lazy to list them down..heh ;p
10. when was the last time you went out? went out as in? sch?
11. what do you hate the most for now? hmm..it's not for u to noe..
12. when was the first time you slept alone? 2 wks ago
13. what do you wanna do for now? complete this
14. what do you do everyday besides eat and sleep at home? go sch, tok to ppl, do work, watch tv, come online, etc..
15. what could piss you off? when it does, it does
16. fave pet? dun have one though my bros have..wldn't mine keeping a puppy though..hee :)
17. colors that make you happy? er..if i like the colour, den i like it. if i dun, i dun.
18. most fave thing in your room? the cards, notes and gifts i received frm others
19. what was the last thing you bought for your room? uh..vcds?
20. any instruments in your room? nopez
21. do you cook? yesh..but not that superb cooking..
22. miss someone? eunice?
23. plan to buy something? of course..clothes!! haha..
24. are you satisfied with your life now? uh..so so la..can't complain much cos i shld count myself being blessed by God ;)
25.do you like seafood? hmm..to a certain extent..but currently i like stingray..
26. breakfast or dinner?dinner thank you.
27. what do you usually eat for breakfast? no fix..mostly dun eat one..
28. did you eat breakfast today? a chocolate muffin counted?
29. do you recycle? yes..shopping bags that i get frm buying stuffs..haha..
30. do you have a laptop? yes but not using
31. what's your favorite fast food? no favourite..but at the moment, i craving for kfc
32. cats or dogs? dogs
33. salty or sweet? sweet
34. city or country? both
35. what's your favorite kind of jeans? no favourite..as long as they fit me and are comfortable can le..
36. Is kissing normal for your age? er..dunno how to ans this..
37. are you athletic? not really..super slack now
38. do you swear? nopez
39. would you ditch your friends for a date? no way!!
40. do you have your own cell phone? of course!!
41. what do you wear to bed? now? tee and berms
42. ever had a crush on a teacher? nah
43. coke or pepsi? both..but i prefer non-gasy drinks nowadays
44. sugar or spice? both..depending on what food i'm eating
45. can you use chopsticks? obviously..haha..
46. do you like to read for pleasure? yes
47. do you care about getting good grades? of course!! who doesn't want gd grades?
48. have you ever fallen asleep in class? yes..haha..not surprising loh..
49. get a job or ask your parents for money? both can?
50. is your dad strict? yes on certain areas
51. do your parents give you enough privacy? er..i guess so..
52. do your parents trust you? erm..to a certain extent..
53. would you trade places (in life) with your best friends? no best friends..heh..
54. does your best friend get on your nerves? can't ans
55. do you make friends quickly? it depends
56. do you get jealous of your friends? jealous? no. envy? yes
57. do you tell your mom everything? nopez
58. do you and your parents fight? physically no..verbally yes
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Name 20 friends without looking at the questions and answer the questions with regard to your friend of the corresponding number.

1 Tash
2 Eunice
3 Jialing
4 Cheryl
5 Amy
6 Rachel
7 Jeremiah
8 Abi
9 Vivien
10 Yvonne
11 Khalis
12 Kangwei
13 Yilin
14 Chu Hua
15 Chu Yun
16 Yee Hoon
17 Shaun
18 Kai
19 Ailay
20 Corinn

Who is #8 going out with? lotsa ppl..haha..
Is #9 a boy or a girl? Girl or shall i say lady?
Would #11 and #2 go out?: nah..both wun pei one..
How about #18 and #4?: so wrong manz..both are females loh..
What grade is #17 in? sec 5
When was the last time you talked to #12?: Last night of camp
What is #6's favorite band?: wah..i dunno sia..
Does #1 have any siblings?: yup..an older bro and a younger bro
Would you ever date #3? nopez..she's a female!!
Would you ever date #7? er..maybe..haha ;p
Is #16 single?: yup..unless she has found a guy who has met a high standards..haha..
What's #15's last name?: doris
What's #5's middle name?: she doesn't have one does she?
What's #10's fantasy?: hmm..getting married to the guy she loves? heh..
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple?: wah..can't manz..both are females!!
Tell me a random fact about #11?: he's a malay christian
Have you ever had a crush on #16?: no way!!
Are #5 & #6 best friends?: er..dun tink so..but both are sis-in-Christ..hee..
Does #7 like #20?: they dun even know each other
How did you meet #15?: school

One Purpose Camp

2005-06-15T16:02:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating much since i cldn't find anything to really write abt. One Purpose Camp juz ended like 2 daes ago. I went without any objectives but still, it was all worth while.

I made new frenz frm gb, got to know some youths better and all the fun, laughter plus things i shldn't be hearing as well. Think this only my bunk mates wld understand what i mean. The camp was also an eye-opener for me. This was especially during one of the dinners where we had to learn how to share. It was not the sharing that was the problem. It was the way the food was being shared or more like who took noticed of who. It was basically like youth to youth, gb to gb. Erm..dunno whether i'm making any sense but yeah.. something around that line.

Life in tp has been ok so far. As compared to secondary school life, it is much more slack and really gotta be independent. The only problem is my class. Dunno why suddenly got the different clicks here and there plus like some cannot get along one. I see and hear also cannot tahan. And i seriously do not have any coursemates i can say are my friends. Haiz..

Anyway, i tink i may take up kick-boxing but not confirm. Hopefully it doesn't tired be out. Okie..end of story. Tmr gg for Go Forth Missions conference in the evening wif some campus crusade ppl. Nitez..

Leaders' Retreat

2005-06-08T07:18:00.000+08:00

Too lazy to do my tutorial assignments so i might as well update my bloggie. Haha..tink i getting real lazy nowadays. Tat's bad manz esp since my first sem exam will be in July. Gotta get my mind and body up and running fast.

Leaders' retreat last wk was certainly a fruitful one. I really learned a lot from it and never regretted going for it. At one point, we were to be in grps of 3 and write out the problems or burdens we had abt ym on the mahjong paper. For me, it was a time for me to let everything out and i did. At the end of it, i actually felt quite scared but many of my questions were answered or sort of. Yeah.. It was a pity that not all the sgls were at the retreat. They wld be able to voice out and really gain a lot out of it.

Hvn't been doing much recently. I signed up for the Business Interest Grp but it's like not totally confirm. I juz wanna go and see what they do and basically, see how first. Yup.. looking forward to youth camp though i wun be gg for the full thing..sort of.

Okie..tat's all for now. Tata!!

Slacking in TP Library

2005-06-04T06:21:00.000+08:00

Hehe..i'm now slacking in tp's library and typing this post. So i might as well update a bit. I got shot by my OB (organisation behaviour) lecturer to become the sub rap. Damn funny la the way he picked the sub rap. It started when we played this game whereby we were to grp according to the number he called out. The ones tat din't had any grp had to write their name on the board and will haf sabo later on. For my grp, we got one xtra member so someone suggested in 'open numbers'. I dunno why but i decided to go wif it if not we wld be stuck there. So i led the counting and guess wat? It backfired and i'm out. Haha..hilarious manz. Everyone was laughing. Heh ;) At the end of the tutorial, the lecturer chose me to become the rap cos he said i got leadership, can make decisions and so on. What the heck manz!!! So unexpected. Sheesh..but on the brighter note, at least i get SEAL pts. Haha..

O..there was this grp that was caught in the same situation as us as well. But the grp was 'One For All, And All For One.' So all of them wrote their names on the board. United sia. Heh..and yeah, this was also how we got our project grp as well. My grp is not bad. All two guys out of seven. Hee..nice.. Since there was more gals den guys in the grp, we sabo the guy (the other was already class rap) to become the grp leader. Gal power manz!! :)

Okie..gg to meet sis later for dinner den proceed for Leaders' Retreat. Until then, adiyos amigos!!

Broke

2005-06-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

I'm like broke now due to the purchase of lecture notes and books. Still dunno whether i should buy the econs book. Gotta see how first as i need to get a 512mb thumbdrive. Haiz.. No money no talk.

On the brighter note, i'm enjoying myself in tp despite the heavy eyelids. My friends are like super chatty, super siao and super funny. Have been laughing a lot recently. That's gd for the health isn't it? Haha ;) As we had a 2hr break today, we decided to go try the food at the 2 storeys canteen. And guess wat? I met kai along the way. Cldn't recognise her at first when she called my name. She looks different and became a lot thinner. I muz meet up her soon. It's been a long while since we last catch up with one another. Yup..anyway, the food at that canteen were much better than the one at business sch. Way much better. Heh..

Started on learning how to use Dreamwaver. The lecturer was going through mainly the basics and as i was bored, i was typing for fun all the way. When it was our turn to try, angeline and i already finish doing the required details. It was like we both were ahead of what she wanted us to do. Haha.. And i realised that although my eyes are closed, information still enters my head. But if i try to keep my eyes open, i never fully hear what the lecturer talking abt. But i'm not the only one either. Shu Chen also. Is this gd or bad?

Then i went to meet khalis at orchard after sch. We were supposed to catch a movie but in the end decided not since he had to leave off for the 'muslim talk' at 8pm. Poor guy!! But yeah, we went jalan jalan instead and i bought some stuffs in the end. We had dinner and updated one another abt recent stuffs since i seldom see him already. The amazing thing was that he brought this shirt, which i have, with the same design, color and from the same shop. My gdness..how concidental can this be?! And now i get to claim 2 treats, one from jamie and the other one from khalis. Muahahaha!! Can't wait..whee..

Hmm..what else is there for me to update abt? Guess not much except that i will have full scale freedom till nxt wed, 8 june. It's quite fun to have no one home except that i hope there is no appearance of any creepy crawlies, esp cockroaches. O yeah..i wanna watch 'Monster-In-Law'. The show looks nice. Hee..

Okie..tmr sch starts at 1pm. Haha..cool manz!! Kk..gotta go do work. Take care :)

1st wk of tp

2005-05-28T16:11:00.000+08:00

Yahooo..today was a really slack day manz. Got no tut so only haf lect at 9-11am. Heh.. Met up wif this lady, who was a staff in SYCF, at noon since she wanted to tok to me. The funny thing was this: i don't even know her at all. She was asking my frenz n i to complete surveys yesterday but i didn't hear what she was saying. Then in the middle of lect, i received her sms. Fast sia. Din't know whether i shld meet her a not at first but den i was like 'ok lor. no harm wat.' So yeah la, i met up wif her in the end. O..i also met 2 CMM 2nd year students, Esther and Owen. They are friendly and super nice ppl. ;)

Yeah..but i dun tink i will join SYCF, maybe just join them for a time of fellowship during lunch breaks tat's all. Reason being is that the tok i had wif the staff lady put me off. It is not only me but my fren as well who was present wif me. The way she said it was like so forceful and that i must join. Somemore she said that evangelism is every Christian's mission and that we shld share the gospel. Yes i agree. But the way of reaching out to others come in many ways. Hers is like meet up wif our frenz and immediately share the gospel. If i were a non-Christian, it will totally put me off manz. Sheesh. Aiya..plus there are many others that i dun wanna tok abt.

Anyway, i managed to do some catching up wif Debra. Met up wif her for lunch, went looking ard (ended up buying two clothes) and we caught Star Wars 'The Revenge of the Sith'. The movie was not bad. Quite interesting i guess. Heh. After that, went to church for Envision and worship was power!! I was totally ministered to. I really treasure the time all of us gathered to juz spend time in worship and fellowshipping wif one another. I thank God for all of it. :)

Ok..tis wk was my first wk in tp. Not too bad except for wanting to fall aslp during lects. Haha..wat's new? ;p Got to know my coursemates better and yeah, we are more like frenz now. My timetable is actually quite slack la compared to my fren's, which is like totally pack. My gdness!! It's crazy!! Hmmm..still thinking whether i shld join one cca. I want but i dunno what to join. I feel like doing everything but i got only 24hrs a day plus my studies. Argh!! O well, shall see how first.

O yeah..this lady asked me to complete a survey at a bus-stop on wed. I found out that it was actually Campus Crusade. Haha.. Received a call frm them today so shall see how whether to join them on wed. Yup.. I attended an NE session on wed since there was no tut. Hee.. It was on 'responsible citizen'. The interesting part of that the speaker used a Catholic priest as an example, used the words 'faith', 'believe', 'God' and 'unseen'. I was wondering whether he is a Christian or Catholic. But of course i din't ask la. Heh.. However, whatver he said does apply to us Christians as well. Do we believe in our leaders, not only that, but have the faith in them that they will lead the church according to God's good purpose for us? What does it mean to be a responsible Christian? And so on so forth.

K..shall leave you wif 'Angels Brought Me Here' since i cldn't find 'Inside Your Heaven'. I luv these two songs sang by Bo and Carrie. Cya!!
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Angels Brought Me Here by Guy Sebastian (prefer Carrie's renediction)

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

17-up Retreat

2005-05-25T05:13:00.000+08:00

I'm back from 17-up retreat. Ok..more like i was back home yesterday afternoon. Suppose to be in sch today but they said first wk got no lab and tut; and since i haf both today, it means no sch for me. Haha..cool manz. An extended one day hol. ;)

Anyway, the retreat was grt. It was slack, fun, food but lotsa mosquitos' bites. I got bitten like so many times that i kept scratching. First time i ever had to scratch and scratch. At least now i knoe nxt time better not have retreat there again. It's a no no for me.

During the retreat, we did the Network bk and for me personally, it was grt. I discovered the gifts that i'm not aware of having them but they are certainly true in my life and affirmed by others. The only confusing thing was my personal style, which ended up right in the center of all four categories. It was like the left and right brain test that i did. The result was also mostly directed to both. Sheesh..but i was glad i wasn't the only one. Kris also had the same result. He asked maurice and maurice said that we are balanced ppl. Hmm..true mehz? I seriously dunno. Haha..

Leaders' retreat and youth camp are coming up. Leaders' retreat probably i will be going but not totally confirmed. But for youth camp, i dunno whether i shld go. I dun tink i will be taking leave and if i do sign up for camp, i will be going for half of the camp. Then i go for what? All my batch ppl, who will be going, will be leaders except for me. I will feel weird. *sigh* Shall see how it goes.

Kk..that's all for now. Cya!!

Tp Orientation

2005-05-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

I'm now like busy msging, chatting, doing the assessments n getting ppl to help me complete one as well. It's been a long time since i felt this way. Nice though cos it's all basically admin work. Haha..

Anyway, i had TP Orientation for the past two days. They are smart lor. They purposely only give the matric card n time-table on the second day. In other words, those who actually intended to skip the second day (like me!!) had no choice but to come. Ahhh!! But in the end, i never did regretted going.

My SL (Synergy Leader) rocks big time manz. She 'took care' of us despite being sick and she's really fun and nice. Heh ;) But so sad she wun be ard cos she will be at Sentosa Campus as she is in Hospitality and Tourism. Darn manz. As for my course class ppl, i got to know them better during these two days and they are indeed not what you see them to be on first impression. There are guys who represent their youth clubs in basketball, another in Singapore Orchestra, freelance dancer and so on so forth. The list goes on and on. O yeah, not to miss out my care person as well who us also the course manager. Woohooo.. He is nice and quite funny but i dun tink i will ever approach him for help in terms of stress and emotions.

To cut whatever that happened during the orientation short, it was quite fun but also sian at the same time. Business School is really ra ra and hyper. We kept cheering non-stop esp the leaders and helpers. They are even more on and energetic than us. Haha.. No wonder some of them are starting or even have lost their voice. But i like the cheers and the mass dance. So fun..heh ;)

Okie okie shall end here. Will be having 17-up retreat during the weekends and monday. Looking forward to it. All the food we gonna eat and the photos we gonna take. Haha..

Kk..nitez dudes!!

Sun, Water n Speed

2005-05-15T14:55:00.000+08:00

Looks like its raining and with a loud thunder plus the lightning that basically lighted up the whole sky. It's really a bright one. Scary though as the bigger it is, the higher the voltage. Wah.. Remind me of an incident i had barely escaping begin hit by a lightning. Phew!!

My face is a bit red and i am quite tan now. It's better than begin fair. Went to Wild Wild Wet for the first time with jere, shaun and joey. It was fun..lotsa sun, water and speed. The rate we came down on the tube was super fast (and reckless) that the crew remembered us and did not want to push the tube down for us. So we had to move it ourselves. Haha.. Most of the time we were in the shiok river where joey and i were capsized again and again by shaun plus me getting tickled by jere. I want to relax and lie on the float also cannot. Haiz.. But i capsized shaun once. Heh ;)

After that, we went makan then the guys went to play pool as kw and jamie came along. I want to play too but i did not bring ic with me. Argh!! Wasted manz. Then there was this drive-in movie thing and they were showing Dodgeball. So we went to watch as well. Nice show.

As for today, i went for the Prayer Concert and was happy to see 3 of my grp members there. Though there were only 6 gals and a few guys, it was a grt time of worship, prayer and sharing.

Anyway as i couldn't tag into my shoutbox or anyone else's, i wanna thank sis and jere for the encouragement. Thx a million guys!! ;) Okie..signing off.

Leaving Church?

2005-05-13T05:43:00.000+08:00

I have no intention to write all these down into here but since it has been pointed out and talked abt in the blogs and email, i felt the need to do so and not hold back anymore. The more i keep it to myself and not voice out abt it, the more frustrated i feel. Whatever i am going to say in here is in general. I'm not targetting anyone. I am just going to let my thoughts be written down in words here. (I may leave some things out and it is going to be a long entry)

Divisions in the ym. Joy and unity are absent. The fire is disappearing. Purpose of staying in ym is fading. Feeling of leaving is starting to set in or even at the verge of it. All these signs only make one thing truely visible, ym is falling. Do we just leave it here in this final conclusion, sit back and not do anything? Anyway, it's God's will for ym. So no matter what we do, it will still happen. It is pointless in taking any actions. Do we feel that way?

Frankly speaking, yes i do feel that way. I feel like not doing anything else but just carrying out the 'orders' of the leaders and my duties. During worship, i don't even feel like begin part of it with the others. You may say that it shouldn't be this way. Worship is a time between God and myself. If it is so, then why do we gather together for a time of praise and worship? I may as well stay at home. I can still worship Him the same. Everytime during worship, i don't feel the joy, the spirit of hunger and thirst. I am watching 'dead' youths standing there, eyes on the screen, lips moving and clapping slaggishly. Is it suppose to be this way? Taken frm jere's blog:"when we express ourselves, our love to God, it's surely not just standing there arms folded and stuff. but its natural like rev beat said...anyone in right mind wun worship their God standing there watching. there's an expectation...to connect and for God to move...something must change!!!!" Do the youths come with expectation that something will happen? This may be the reason of the differences we see between the worship in church and outside such as camps and events.

How abt unity? How does it come abt? For me, unity comes frm fellowship. In this world, fellowship usually refers to a time of fun, food and chit-chats. But real fellowship goes beyond that. It is experiencing life together, helping one another, building each other up, sharing each other's troubles and encouraging one another. All these can be achieved when we love one another. In John 13:34-35,"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Now coming to the pt of leaving, i will not deny that i also do feel like leaving. Why do we feel that way? No more fire? Left-out? Worn-out, tired and dry? Purpose of staying on is zilch? Friends leave i also leave? Our reason may be one of these. How abt seeing this from two different categories, youths and sgls? For youths, most of them probably and mainly come because of friends and duties. And when they start to leave, it is either because of friends or feeling left-out. As we can see from here, their purpose of coming is not..erm..how to put it..totally right? Somewhere around there i guess as one of my reasons of staying on in ym is also because of friends. For sgls, most of them also stay on mainly because of their responsibilities, committment and friends. But then, they start to have the sense of dryness, feel disappointed, no more purpose in staying and totally tired. In other words, maybe it is tahan until cannot tahan already. Hmm..does it sound right? You get the idea can already.

But coming back to the top of everything, why did we become sgls in the first place? To fit in? Peers? To feel a sense of importance? To serve God? To want to try to make a difference through a small grp? And when ideals are not met and fire disappears, we feel like giving up and leaving as we no longer have the purpose of staying on. Some of these do apply to me. But why do i stay on begin an sgl? Yes, i agree that it is because of friends in ym but then, the main reason came drawning to me. It is because of my small grp. Their smiles during small grp sessions, seeing them grow in the Lord and their sharing make everything worth it. I am accountable to them to God and they are beginning to open up. If i leave, how wld they feel? What i am trying to say here is although we may not feel important in ym, we may be important to others even though they may not say. We can each make a difference in one way another especially begin a sgl although it may not be a big one. Some of us may even not realise that we are a great influence and can make a greater difference in ym. It is whether we want to or not. If we as sgls leave, what keep our members leaving as well. Are we not suppose to be examples for them to follow and look up to?

Let us give it some thought. If we individually feel like leaving, what abt the leaders in ym com? Don't they feel the same way we do? So what keep them from leaving ym? They also know what're happening in ym but why do they keep trying their best in making a difference? I do not want to keep elaborating abt all these but those of you who has the Purpose Driven Life book, do read up Day 15-21. I find these chapters very related to our current situation now.

That's all i want to say. If i continue on, this entry will be a really long one. I am going to leave you with a sentence frm the book itself. Only the Holy Spirit can create real fellowship between believers, but he cultivates it with the choices and commitments we make.

2005-05-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

It's time for me to update cos someone has been bugging me to loh. Heh.. And i think i wanna change my blog design already. Quite bored wif it. Anyway, yesterday night Envision (sch-based ministry) had bbq at joey's chalet. But before that, the guys went to play pool while the girls went to macs and had a toking session of lotsa crap. Haha..wat's new manz!!

Then during the bbq, i was taking photos and jamie was saying i like one of the paparazzi. Hmm..i wonder why he got 'irritated'. It's not like he's one of the celebs. Nvm. My cam is wif shaun so i can't upload the photos into my com yet. Will do soon i hope when he returned it to me. Aft that, we went to the beach to take a walk and shaun tried to scared kw. It was scary k cos the whole area was dark, quiet and super deserted. There was no one ard except us. Eerie aso lor. O..we spotted a sign near where all the trees are and it looked like a tombstone frm afar. Plus it din't help when kw said it's like there's a man there. Wah. Scary manz. Brrrrr...

Enuf said cos i am starting to feel chills running down my spine. I finally listened to the latest Hillsong United cd, 'Look To You'. It's ok but i prefer the previous one. Nicer. But yeah, who am i to judge. It's all for God and He is gonna look into the hearts of His worshippers; and not the songs they sing nor the actions they do. Yup.

K..starting to think abt something and i shall not write it into here. Maybe i will, maybe i will not. O wellz.. Candy dreams!! ;)

2005-05-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

There is nothing to do and since i am online, i decided to blog. My com is finally rid of most viruses and it's all thanks to jere, who stayed up the whole night downloading, scanning and restarting the com again and again. We had a nice long chat, drinks and porridge. But now i got black eyes. Heh.. It was a gd change as i went to his hse a few times but he hasn't come mine. ;) Still my com will be at his hse soon as he is gonna upgrade my hard disk and ram. Yup..my dad had agreed. Yay!!

O..and i met up wif khalis in jere's hse on thurs. Glad to hear that although he is being bombarded wif all the muslim doctrines, he is also growing in Christ. Pray that God will continue to grant him the strength he needs and guide him always. Yup..then on fri, envision did a short film on 'rescue hostage' all thanks to shaun's idea. Cool rite? Shall not elaborate on it as it will be long. Haha.. And as for today, i had e-games meeting (was roped in) and it was productive. But there are still many things to settle.

Ok..there's nothing else to rumble on abt so i might as well end here. Nitez!

2005-04-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm..it's been a wk since i last blogged. There's nothing much to blog anyway as my life is a boredom. Wait..that doesn't sound rite. Err..nvm. Anyway, today there's small grps. I continued frm the last session which we started off and din't had time to complete. Basically to summarise everything, I talked abt this yr's theme, Life Transformation Through Prayer And Discipleship. In the past two sessions, i focused on the purpose of a small grp such as fellowship and accountability. Hopefully my members took back something and try to put them into action.

The difference in today's session was amy jie sat in. Erm..dunno for what reason. But yeah la..I was quite taken back went she told me she wanted to sit in. Another thing was that i wasn't gonna teach frm the book of Joshua. Opps..still i covered everything i wanted to. Aft that, i had a debrief from her and really thanked her for her comments and suggestions. I shall ponder over it and see what i can improve on. Haha..not for me but for my small grp. Yup..then had the membership during service and i dun like standing on the stage. O wellz..

In the afternoon, there was sgl training. It was on chapter 2 of Joshua and it's cool. Haha..the notes given were in depth and i liked it. ;) O..and today is jeslyn's b'dae so..Happy Birthday!!! Nothing else to write abt so i'm gonna end here. Cya.

PS: To all those present during sgl training who may be reading this, eunice sends her regards to u guys. She misses you all and says that you all had better treasure the trainings as they are really great. And as she don't have them at all, she really misses it. Okie..that's the msg she wanted me to tell u guys. Guess u know what she's trying to say.

2005-04-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

I'm eating my dinner at this insane hour while tying this. Crazy rite? Later i grow fat or worse, suffer frm indigestion. Ahh..dun tink too much jess. Juz eat and be happy. Haha..sound familiar? ;)

Hvn't been blogging much cos there is nothing much happening in my life. I very boring loh?! Anyway for the past two nights, i attended this prophetic seminar by Tahama Winslow at Christ the Rock church. She is one of the biggest prophets in America and a methodist, though her 'ways' seem to be more on the AG side. The topic she talked on was 'Hearing God's Voice.' Through the two nights, i really gained a lot frm her sermons. Never regret going for it. O yeah, she can sing in chinese as well. Not gonna talk about what i had learned but more on what i had experienced at the church.

The church firstly is totally not like PMC, tat type of building. It is at a leaving room of a house. If i'm not wrong, it is the place where the first Emmanuel Assembly of God church was situated. But this is not the main point tat i wanted to emphasis on. The one tat caught my attention was during worship. Although there were only a worship leader, a piano and the screen, people was dancing, jumping, smiling, lifting their hands and singing with all their heart. I could see the joy on their faces, hear their voices and even sense the Holy Spirit presence in the place. What amazed me was that it is not the youths who are doing the jumping and dancing, it is the adults, even elderly people. I was atonished at the sight manz. Whoaz. If 'old' people can jump and dance, what more the youths?

Okie..shall end here. Tmr is the day of my water baptism and suay suay, i'm the first. Hee..was saying tat the first is the trial and error. If the person is blur and makes a mistake, at least the rest will know what to do. Sound logical?

K..Nitey nitezzz.

2005-04-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite, there was the renunciation and dedication prayer for the candidates who are gg for baptism tis coming mth. at the end of it, all of us had to be pair up wif someone in the prayer team (i think) who wld pray for us. i refused to be prayed for. in the end, yoke lin wanted to pray for me so i gave in but it was short n in general. yup.. i'm one stubborn-headed gal.

at one pt, we were advised to put down the past and forget abt it. tat's wat make it difficult for me to do. i want to but i can't seem to leave my past behind and forget abt it. for the past few days, my past has been coming back to my mind. it sometimes makes me afraid tat it may happen again. even my thoughts are becoming more and more pessimistic. i want to be free but how? den today, tis song came into my head, 'RENEW MY LIFE, LORD JESUS.' the words really speak into my heart. i guess tat's wat i need to pray and ask God for.

ok..shall end here n leave u guys wif the song.

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RENEW MY LIFE, LORD JESUS

Renew my life, Lord Jesus,
I never want to be the same.
Renew my life, Lord Jesus,
place Your heart inside of me.
In my life and thoughts,
there are so many things.
That need the change that,
only Your love can bring.
And I need to be transformed
into Your likeness O Lord.
Change this heart inside of me.

2005-03-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

before i start, Happy Birthday cheryl jie. ;) though she wun be reading this, still gonna put tat greeting down. heh..

ok..thank God that i was well today. i had a really painful n excruciating stomach pain yesterday. i even vomitted despite only having a small bowl of porridge for lunch. my aunt asked me go n see a chinese doc instead of a western one as western docs will always prescribe the same medication, even my mum says so. but i dun like gg to a chinese doc cos their 'medicines' are mostly bitter. yuck! thank goodness after a few hours of rest n applying medication oil, i felt better. yay..so dun needa see doc le. good thing i din't tell my mum what happened almost the other time when i had this pain. if not, she surely wants me to go visit the doc. phew..

anyway, today was tgigf n truthmin came down to perform a drama skit. to cut things short, i basically screwed up the first part of the program, which was the game. not gonna tok more about it but i have decided not to plan for games anymore if i can help it. guess i'm juz not cut out for it. on the brighter side, i was happy to see yilin came. glad tat she din't feel left out n all alone when i was executing the game. rite yilin? hopefully she had took something back wif her today n am really looking forward to the day when she will finally accept Christ into her life.

yup..guess that's all i wanna write down here. sweet dreams.

2005-03-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

During the past 3 days at Synerg!z Conference, i have definitely learnt a lot through the sermons and workshops. Although i went for it last year, this year's brought new experiences to me. The feeling of the Holy Spirit anointing, praying in tongues and the feeling of worshipping God in the Spirit and with all my heart. All i wanted to do was to focus on God and Him alone. Don't care what others may think or say. It is only between God and me, no one else.

I remembered that tears gathered in my eyes twice. My heart was crying, crying out loud to the Lord. The first cry was during one of the sermons. It ended with worship and one of the songs that was sang was 'Great Awakening'. As i sang, the words struck my heart...hard. It was tears of declarations and burning fire in my heart. Yes! God's Spirit will pour out and send fire of revival into this land. Yes! His grace and mercy will overflow in abundance. Yes! This generation will rise up in faith and delcare the Lord's name to all the nations. And surely yes! The world will see His glory and power; and bow down before Him. The second cry was on the last night of Planet Shakers' concert. An altar call was given and i saw people going in front. Lives were saved and they were coming to Christ. How wonderful is that!!! There were tears of joy and the feeling inside me were indescrible.

To me, i took something away from these. I desire even more now to win souls for Christ. To see them believe in God, accept Him as their Saviour, receive His grace, love and mercy and grow into His likeness. Rejections and critisms may come, but i will stand up in faith, be bold and preserver. The joy that comes with it, makes every effort worth it.

This coming TGIGF i pray that the youths will have the desire to bring their non-Christian friends along, giving them an opportunity to hear the gospel. And i pray that God's anointing will fill the place and by His grace that they will accept Christ into their lives.

Ok..i pray that you too will have this burning desire in your heart as well to reach youths for Christ. Let this be your mission in life under God and may the Lord continue to work wonders in your life. Nitez.

---------- Open Up The Gates
by Planet Shakers
We come into this Holy place
To bring a sacrifice of praise
Bow down before you and seek your face
We sing of the mighty things you've done
Cry out to you
"let your will be done"
Tell all the World you're the Holy One
Hear the shouts of praise
As they're rising up to you
Come and fill this place
As we bring glory to your name
Open up the gates and let the
King of glory in
Fill this house with praises as now we
Lift our hands and worship you Open up the doors and let your
Glory fill the earth
King of heaven we dance before your throne
King of heaven come and
Take your place
Dwell among us as we
Seek your face

2005-03-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

Supposed to go out wif eunice n abi today but was cancelled in the end cos abi was busy. so i ended staying at home the whole day. if tis continues, i tink i'm gg to become a couch potato and get fatter cos i juz went to top up my house wif drinks, ice-creams n junk food yesterday. so the more i slack at home, the more i will gain weight. tis is definitely not a gd new manz. argh!! but looking on the brighter side, i learnt how to cook laksa frm my mom plus i managed to spend some time wif God. finally started doing the masterlife book aft 'dragging' it for days.

Was watching 'Wish You Were Here' and it was showing on Queensland's Sunshine Coast. the place was so awesome, the food looked appetising and lotsa shopping. haha.. i really felt like gg there and see the place wif my own eyes. Oooo.. o yeah, caught SpongeBob SquarePants wif eileen yesterday. it was super hilarious. hee.. u guys really got to watch it manz. u wun regret it one. ;)

k..here are some of the 'stuffs' tat strike me during the 3 days Small Grp Conference last wk. nv regretted gg.
-> We become like the person whom we keep looking at and walk with.
-> Walking with God brings transformation and separation (purity).
-> Jesus was busy but never hurried.
-> When we become hurried, our divine center of focus is not there.
* Building the church not by planning, but by revelation.
-> When we are Spirit-filled (anointing), we have power to overcome and boldness to be a witness.
* Purpose of the church:
- To proclaim the gospel to the ends of the earth
- Living for others
* Don't get caught up with the signs. Get one with the task of evangelism.
-> Don't think prayer. Think prayer mobilisation.
* Baptism is not an optional but a definite expression of coming to Christ.
* Fellowship is a deeper level of friendship. It occurs when all is one and they share with one another.
-> It takes an anointing to see the poor.

okie..shall end here. nitez.

2005-03-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

tis week was rather fruitful. went to the gym to train wif my frenz on mon. however, i over-stretched my leg muscles while training and it hurts. but it's fine now. aft tat, we had laksa for lunch. it had been a long time since i ate it. tasty sia but hot (cos the guy added xtra chilli!!!). on tues, i had photography course. the director said that i had shown improvements in connections and such. yay!! so happy lor.. o..viv's poses and the way she 'act' were super stylish manz. it's like totally the other side of her. n faith was her cute self as usual and her dancing was really entertaining. haha..

on thurs, went to play pool wif eunice n ck. so fun k? still..i'm a super amateur at it..heh.. ;) funny ting was tat we went back again aft dinner but tis time wif shaun aso. watched the two guys played for a while before all of us rushed down to church for small grp leaders' conference. (we rushed down cos afraid older ones may start nagging at us for being late) Pastor Benny Ho's sermon was informative but had a headache in the second session and was really tired. kept yawning throughout the two sessions.

yup.. den today, went to play pool again wif the same ppl. in the evening, had the main conference n it was even better. the sermon was super 'alive'. really looking forward to tmr's one although it's gonna be super long.

okie..tat's my life for now..cya!!

2005-03-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

although it has been a few days ever since the release of my O level results, i'm still dawdling over it. i juz can't seen to get over the shocking 'news'. i've been trying to keep my mind preoccupied by gg for the photography course, watching tv, sleeping unnecessarily n eating non-stop. but when i'm not doing anything, i start to think abt my results n getting upset n frustrated wif myself. why did my results turned out like this? maybe I shld have studied even harder?

to make me feel even worse, i tot the course wld maybe help liven up my spirits a bit. but instead, it put me even down den i am. the course was not what i had imagined it wld be. i had to learn 'stuffs' which i did not think that were necessary. 'stuffs' such as learning how to pose wif feelings, connections and dance wif style. ahhh!! yes... i can take criticisms in order to improve myself. but i have my limits. who doesn't? who can take non-stop criticisms aiming at u? plus asking me to open up my feelings, that wld be difficult. the percentage of me opening up that easily is low, real low. firstly, posing is seriously not my cup of tea. secondly, i'm the type whose feelings wld not for whatever purpose and open up, whether for posing or not. thirdly, i have asked God before to make me strong in terms of my feelings. in other words, i only know how others feel through their facial expressions or actions unless u are close to me or it's self-inflicted. this course has indeed taught me lots of new 'things'. but having the feelings to pose n such , one cannot force it. if u dun haf, means u dun haf.

*sigh* 'give up' and 'failure' these words do not exist in my dictionary and are not my type of character. so...this will be my first time i'm going to use these words on myself. i'm a failure n i give up. i give up whatever hopes i haf for ym. i give up on my views n suggestions. the next two things i really, really feel like almost giving up already are the photography course and Envision. i seriously can't take it anymore esp since i gotten my results. yes...you may think i've gone out of my mind. but i dun care. the bottom line is 'I GIVE UP!!!'

2005-03-01T16:21:00.000+08:00

my O levels were terrible. ahh!! although my eng and maths did quite well, the rest were disappointing. my overall for L1R4 and L1R5 were dreadful. everything was totally crashed. I HATE MY RESULTS!!! *sigh*

i know getting all upset over my results is useless. what's done cannot be undone. but still, how am i suppose to tell my dad? argh.. stupid results make all my hardwork and effort look like they all went down the drain. bleah.

anyway, a big thanks to all who encouraged and comforted me in one way or another before or/and after the results. sis, dawn, cheryl, grace, rachel, mitchell, eunice, eileen, nich, vict, faith, jiajun, eunice fu, dajie, etc.. sorry if i missed out ur names but yeah.. Thank You guys!!

haiz..ok..gonna haf to slp soon. gotta wake my early to attend a 2 hr course tmr morning. hopefully i will cheer up by tmr. nitez.

2005-02-23T17:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite i had two dreams that did not relate to one another in one way or another. i remember that one of them was weird while the other was freaky,really freaky. though i dun recall which one happened first, i still have the events in my mind. the weird dream consisted of ppl tat i dun tink of. ppl like amy, ber, eunice, clarissa, daryl, etc... plus the events were aso strange. a checkpt at the train platform, aliens attacked upon stopping at various stations and no ending. weird rite? ok..now the freaky dream which i shall elaborate more on it.

the freaky dream gave me a shock when i woke up n i do hope tat it does not happen. if it does happen, i cannot imagine how i will react to it. tis dream took place in what looks like a classroom. it was the day i'm to receive my O levels results. the first result that was passed ard to see, was the emaths results. i remember clearly tat i look down the list, which was according to register no., n most of my frenz in front of me had gd results. when it came to my name, the two letters written there sort of stand up among the rest. i got the biggest shock in my life. a c5 for my emaths. how the rest of the dream went, i shall leave tat out. what i do know is tat if i get a c5 in any subs, i will surely break down. to make matter worse, my O Level results are gonna be released either tis fri or the following mon. i'm so damn nervous n scare now. i do wanna get gd results to make my dad happy. i dun wanna make him sad. he works so hard n tis is my only way of repaying him. ahh!!! God please help me!!

dun wanna tink abt it. the more i tink, the more afraid i become. wellz..Black Hawk Down was a damn nice show. it sort of questioned me of my friendships wif my frenz. how many of dem wld be there for u when u need dem? how many wld stand by u as u go through difficult times? how many wld even risk their lives to save u when u are in danger? i guess tis questions wld remain unanswered for quite a long time.

ok..shall go off le.. hoepfully i dun get any more freaky dreams. tis one is bad enuf already. nitez..

2005-02-17T15:24:00.000+08:00

today was quite a fulfilling day compared to the past few days. had a really short 'interview' for a photographer post that faith asked me. i gave it a shot since i got noting to do. gotta attend a $200 course and get a camera (my old one went gone case) if i want the job. i asked my mom abt it n she said that she wun mind me getting tis job, plus she will cover all the expenses needed. tat came as a surprise to me lor. but still, it's cool..thx mom.. anyway, she wants me do the course as obtaining a new skill and since i dun mind, yeah la. hee..shld be fun. o yeah..did i mentioned that the 'interviewer' is so handsome and friendly. whoa..he really looks charming and dashing manz. heh ;)

ok..enuf of tat, went to bugis wif sis aft tat juz to jalan jalan ard. den headed back home. was hoping to see replies from the resumes tat i send to a few companies. o wellz..see how it goes.. hmm..still hvn't decide whether i wanna go to malaysia wif my frenz. sumore tat wk got the small grp conference n is by Pastor Benny Ho. his sermons are real gd lor. but i aso wanna go wif my frenz. it's been a while since we last hang out.

ahh..shall decide later. okie..wanna go slp. ZzZz..

2005-02-14T16:34:00.000+08:00

ok..here's the long awaited n anticipated post to some ppl. the reasons behind the Powerpuff Girls..erm..wrong one. it's now known as Powerpuff Guys !!! (cos shaun wanna make it sound more manly).

blossom
-> she's in red
-> the leader
-> tries to 'organise' the ppg but it's hard
kang wei
-> red is one of his *ahem ahem* favourite colour
-> head prefect
-> tries to organise the prefects but it's difficult (cos we heck care)

bubbles
-> cute
-> the joy and the laughter
-> likes to keep clean and cute stuffs
shaun
-> chubby in one sense (parents' definition will be cute)
-> funny and full of crap
-> (last statement tink u all reading wld noe)

buttercup
-> toughest fighter (actions)
-> can be rude at times
-> but not a bad girl
bertrand
-> toughest debater (words)
-> mean at times
-> but not a bad friend

haha..tink i write enuf already. will post the Powerpuff Guys Theme Song another time. hee ;p k..shall go off soon. o yeah..HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to all my frenz. luv u guys ;) nitez..

Note: ck, shaun n bertrand...no offense taken yeah. i'm juz joking ard. if u tink i've gone too far, do let me noe k? thx ;)

2005-02-08T17:31:00.000+08:00

felt like blogging so here i am. CNY is here and usually for the past few yrs, it was spent mostly visiting my dad's side, which is a lot. however, tis yr gonna be different. there wun be reunion dinner nor will i be visiting them. sad? unhappy? nah.. i dun like the way the cousins treat my bros n i. i'm fine if dey give me the cold shoulder. hu needs dem anyway? *bleah* but dey dare to wrongly accuse my bros n treat dem as if dey are invisible? dey try to hide the truth and in the end, i found out. if happen once, i'm fine wif it. i'll let it go. but again n again? sorry..my tolerance has its limit.

although i did not want it to happen by initiating it, i was more den happy tat it happened. it happened during a phone conversation between my dad n the uncle. my dad called to inform him tat we wun be gg for the reunion dinner. in the uncle's reply, he said in a sarcastic manner tat my dad wanna break ties wif dem. the uncle said it, not us. haha.. i tink u guys out there reading wld be tinking i'm mad, if not crazy, to be happy in a situation like tis. if u knew wat i had to face n endure, den u wld understand.

nvm.. wun be gg for reunion dinner tmr, but will be hafing steamboat at home. hee.. my second one. the first one at eunice's hse was fun n hilarious. ;) hmm.. looks like tis CNY i can spend more time wif my 'jies' at my mom's side. dey are much older den me, tink abt amy jie's age or slightly younger or older. i knew dem ever since i was a baby cos i stayed wif dem. so yeah.. gonna be super free aso. so if anyone wanna go out, let me noe. heh..

okie..gonna slp le..haf to wake up early to meet my frenz before we head to sch. yup..n look out for the explaination of the 3 powerpuff gals. er..correction.. the 3 powerpuff guys. haha.. ;P cya..n HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!

2005-02-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

i wanna slp already so gotta make tis a fast one. yest class gathering was fun. watched white chick though the ck n shuan wanted to watch powerpuff girls. wait..or was it shaun? hmm..nvm.. yeah..den dinner was more of screams n laughter instead of eating. haha..n yes!! eunice n i started naming the guys aft the powerpuff girls. ck -> blosson; shuan -> bubbles; bert -> buttercup. it was damn funny manz. shall spare u all wif the explaination part. heh ;) o yeah..the dessert made by shuan (unbelievable rite?), was really nice. if u get a chance, try it. i nv bluff u..

as f0r today, charlie's session was ok. i wasn't paying much attention as i was tired n bored. yup..was reading a bit of the notes he gave juz now n some parts i ended up blur. den the mandarine orange distribution was crazy cos the gals screamed upon seeing a kitten. best manz.. but it was last minute tat dey decided to join. aft church, had evange meeting tat was a short one. joshua basically went back to the purpose n focus of evange. he also wanted us to ponder over our spiritual walk wif God n such.

okie..tat's all for now. gg to slp le..nitez.. *yawnz*