Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Haven't been updating as my com is having problems. It will soon crash on me though i hope it doesn't. Last wk was my last wk of sch. Whee..but tat means exams is next wk as this wk is study wk. Shucks.. Time passes real fast. One sem is already over just like that.

Went to the beach, booked the bbq pit, went to play pool with daryl before meeting up with jialing jie for dinner on sat. Had a bit of catching up as we two haven't met up for quite a long while or even toked to each other although she is my AL. Then we headed to church for 17-up and we watched a movie on Mother Theresa while eating pop corns and drinking coke at the same time. Quite enjoyable. Heh.. But yeah..the movie was touching and it questioned me abt my faith in God. Is my faith in God as strong as i think it is? I have no idea. Even when jialing jie asked me some questions, i cldn't give her direct answers. Everything to me now is 'i dunno.'

*sigh* Looking forward to my class bbq, which is the day aft my last paper. I'm gg to make pasta, chocolate chip bananas and maybe jellies with fruits inside if there is time. Hehe.. Then looking forward to the chalet organised by campus crusade two weeks aft tat then it will be META soon. O yeah..muz remember to sign up. I keep forgetting.

K..betta go back and study. I seriously have no intention of failing or to retake any module nxt sem. Ciaoz.

I can't explain why i feel this way. Everything that kindles the beginning is gone like a vapour vanishing into the sky. Unseen. Unexpected. How long am i able to take it? Will i disappear? I have no answers. Juz gonna have to wait and see as time flies. Back to the start.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:50 PM

Monday, August 22, 2005

Yahooo..juz came back frm BSC Sub-com Camp yesterday evening. Fri nite was boring as it was icebreakers (nothing much) and brief intro of upcoming projects. I expected that there might be a night walk but heard frm my FA that it was cancelled due to certain concerns. Bleah.

Sat one was much better and a lot more fun. There were station games in the morning and the wet games were super nice. But i hated the station whereby we had to put a certain no. of body parts on the mat filled with water, milo, flakes, honey and egg all mixed together. Luckily my grp had that station as our first if not, i can't imagine how disgusting it wld be and we didn't had spaghetti. The grps aft us had though. I saw one who had spaghettic strands on her shirt. Yucks!! Gross manz!! I never liked playing these type of games/activities.

After changing, it was time for lunch and it was buffet. Yum!! Poor SU only had packet food. Aww..haha.. I'm so bad. ;P O..den i met Liping and her twin sis who was in my grp. Heh..both of them super alike. Good thing both have different hair styles.

Then it was time for dance in the afternoon. We learned the business dance and did the tp dance as well as the chicky dance. Haha..so fun manz. I liked the business dance. Whee.. At the end, the dance floor was opened to dance however we liked. Wah..there were two who danced like they were either in a disco or pub. Solid manz. Yup..following it was prize presentation and bye bye.

Overall, i wld say the camp activites were gd except for the first nite. My grp FA rux and she's frm mass com. Heh..as for my grp mates, they were grt and fun. Haha ;) However, the camp cld have been much better. There were lotsa space for improvements to be made esp when it came to the projects brief description. Instead of telling us that we were gg to assist the main com, they shld at least tell us in what areas and how.

O well..tmr gg to hang out wif my DG. Still dunno whether i will be gg for META. No money no talk as usual. As this wk is gonna be the last wk of this sem, i'm gonna start taking picts. Woohoo..can't wait. Haha..

Kk..me gtg off. Hopefully to study. Haha.. Until nxt time!!

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:41 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Whee..i'm a happy and relieve gal for now. I'm so glad tat all my projects are done and over with. Today was the submission of the last project that i have. Not only that, i scored 14.5/15 for my excel test. Due to the submission of the project, we ended ard 1pm. Shiok manz!! ;) Haha..isn't that great!!

Yesterday, Mr Sim treated the whole class to Norgan Dagz. However as it was ard 11 plus tat we went, there was no ice-cream. Ahh!! So i ended up ordering a pasta, soup and mango Italian sparkling soda. The oreo cheesecake was marvellous as well. Yum yum!! Haha..feeling hungry now? Then kenneth was saying that the food was unhealthy and fattening. But who cares manz? He himself was also eating what. Haha ;)

Then today after sch, i went to watch Charlie and The Chocolate Factory with fadzlynn, aisha, komala, gavin, fiona, corinn and lijing. This was the first time we ever went out in such a big grp and all from the same class. There was in total 8 of us. As the movie was only gonna start in an 1hr plus time when we reached there, we went walking and chatting along the way (expt for 2 who went to play pool).

The movie was gd except maybe for gavin. The rest of us were like joking and chatting after the movie. O..and i like dipping popcorns into cheese. Yummy!! Haha ;)

Okie..gtg off now. Though lessons start at 1pm tmr, more than 10 of us are playing badminton in the morning. Yup..all from the same class as well. Heh.. Nitey nitez!!

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:04 PM

Monday, August 15, 2005

Today was the start of the new sg system of mass teaching. Ber was the first to speak to us today and it was on his mission trip to Tokyo. The desire and fire grew even more stronger to go on a mission trip to Japan and spread God's Word to the youths there after that. After the mass teaching, we broke up into our sg. The problem was there was nothing to tok abt..well..maybe a little. But my sg ended up sharing their wk and i trying to find something to tok abt. Ahh..it's a toughie manz.

The difference that set this sunday apart from no other sundays was when after ym was over, a youth told me that he/she wanted to jump during worship but didn't as he/she felt weird. Isn't this always the case? The differences we see during events such as FOP and Synergiz as compared to our Sunday's worship. Why???

Let me draw back to FOP first. During FOP, we saw youths jumping, clapping, raising their hands and singing. But are they really praising and worshipping the Lord with their hearts and not just with their actions? Or is it because it is just like any other events where we see youths jump and lift their hands?

If the ans is yes for the first one, another qn to ponder over is: are they right with God? Yes they may be singing and jumping but are they right with God? Is God living in them? Are they drawing closer to Him? It is meaningless when they are drifting away from God and coming for FOP is to get a feeling of God's presence or in other words, to feel 'high'.

To me as long as one is right with God and is worshipping Him with his heart, no matter what he/she does during worship, it does not matter. God sees the heart of His worshipper.

As for me personally, the difference when i go for events such as FOP and Sunday's worship, is that i can set myself loose and totally focus on God. Nothing else occupies my mind but only God. It's all about Him. What i meant by this? During FOP, almost everyone jumpped. It was..erm..common. You get the idea anyway. When i'm filled with joy during worship and i want to jump, i just do it. I didn't have to care about what others think about me or how they react. There is no sense of consciousness during FOP. Everything i do, is for the Lord and Him only. But in ym, when i'm standing in the midst of the youths and i started jumping, how would the youths react? That's when i start being conscious about my surroundings again.

Another thing is restriction. What do i mean by 'restriction'? An example is speaking in tongues. I hope the word 'tongues' is clear cut enough and that i don't have to elaborate more on this. Also there is the style of worship. This one i don't know how to put down in words here.

Don't take all these wrongly though. I do still worship God with all my heart during Sunday's worship but not to the depth of it where everything is focused on Him totally.

K..these are just my side of the story. Nitez.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:07 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Festival of Praise 2005 is here!!! Woohoo.. Just went for the past 2 days of it. This time round is Hillsong and Delirious together. Both of them rux and the most wonderful thing is it's all for God's glory. I also gotta thank God for Darlene Zschech and anointing her to be a great worship leader, singer and songwriter. Her songs touch the hearts of many and when she leads, i can feel God's presence in the place and in me. It was awesome and powerful.

For the past two nights, the worship experience was different. I worshipped the Lord like never before, just putting everything behind me and focusing on Him only. The songs that were sang, the words touched my heart and meant a lot to me. God is my Lord and will always be forever. O yeah..not to forget Rev Colin Dye who preached God's Word to us. His sermons are power manz!!

I dun think i will be gg for tmr's one but shall see how. Hmm..looks like i really need to save up already. I wanna buy the Hillsong lastest cd, Delirious lastest cd and a combined of both bands cd.

Ok..i shall now leave you with some the songs.
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Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:52 PM