Sunday, March 27, 2005

before i start, Happy Birthday cheryl jie. ;) though she wun be reading this, still gonna put tat greeting down. heh..


ok..thank God that i was well today. i had a really painful n excruciating stomach pain yesterday. i even vomitted despite only having a small bowl of porridge for lunch. my aunt asked me go n see a chinese doc instead of a western one as western docs will always prescribe the same medication, even my mum says so. but i dun like gg to a chinese doc cos their 'medicines' are mostly bitter. yuck! thank goodness after a few hours of rest n applying medication oil, i felt better. yay..so dun needa see doc le. good thing i din't tell my mum what happened almost the other time when i had this pain. if not, she surely wants me to go visit the doc. phew..


anyway, today was tgigf n truthmin came down to perform a drama skit. to cut things short, i basically screwed up the first part of the program, which was the game. not gonna tok more about it but i have decided not to plan for games anymore if i can help it. guess i'm juz not cut out for it. on the brighter side, i was happy to see yilin came. glad tat she din't feel left out n all alone when i was executing the game. rite yilin? hopefully she had took something back wif her today n am really looking forward to the day when she will finally accept Christ into her life.


yup..guess that's all i wanna write down here. sweet dreams.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:56 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

During the past 3 days at Synerg!z Conference, i have definitely learnt a lot through the sermons and workshops. Although i went for it last year, this year's brought new experiences to me. The feeling of the Holy Spirit anointing, praying in tongues and the feeling of worshipping God in the Spirit and with all my heart. All i wanted to do was to focus on God and Him alone. Don't care what others may think or say. It is only between God and me, no one else.


I remembered that tears gathered in my eyes twice. My heart was crying, crying out loud to the Lord. The first cry was during one of the sermons. It ended with worship and one of the songs that was sang was 'Great Awakening'. As i sang, the words struck my heart...hard. It was tears of declarations and burning fire in my heart. Yes! God's Spirit will pour out and send fire of revival into this land. Yes! His grace and mercy will overflow in abundance. Yes! This generation will rise up in faith and delcare the Lord's name to all the nations. And surely yes! The world will see His glory and power; and bow down before Him. The second cry was on the last night of Planet Shakers' concert. An altar call was given and i saw people going in front. Lives were saved and they were coming to Christ. How wonderful is that!!! There were tears of joy and the feeling inside me were indescrible.


To me, i took something away from these. I desire even more now to win souls for Christ. To see them believe in God, accept Him as their Saviour, receive His grace, love and mercy and grow into His likeness. Rejections and critisms may come, but i will stand up in faith, be bold and preserver. The joy that comes with it, makes every effort worth it.


This coming TGIGF i pray that the youths will have the desire to bring their non-Christian friends along, giving them an opportunity to hear the gospel. And i pray that God's anointing will fill the place and by His grace that they will accept Christ into their lives.


Ok..i pray that you too will have this burning desire in your heart as well to reach youths for Christ. Let this be your mission in life under God and may the Lord continue to work wonders in your life. Nitez.

---------- Open Up The Gates
by Planet Shakers
We come into this Holy place
To bring a sacrifice of praise
Bow down before you and seek your face
We sing of the mighty things you've done
Cry out to you
"let your will be done"
Tell all the World you're the Holy One
Hear the shouts of praise
As they're rising up to you
Come and fill this place
As we bring glory to your name
Open up the gates and let the
King of glory in
Fill this house with praises as now we
Lift our hands and worship you Open up the doors and let your
Glory fill the earth
King of heaven we dance before your throne
King of heaven come and
Take your place
Dwell among us as we
Seek your face

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:34 PM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Supposed to go out wif eunice n abi today but was cancelled in the end cos abi was busy. so i ended staying at home the whole day. if tis continues, i tink i'm gg to become a couch potato and get fatter cos i juz went to top up my house wif drinks, ice-creams n junk food yesterday. so the more i slack at home, the more i will gain weight. tis is definitely not a gd new manz. argh!! but looking on the brighter side, i learnt how to cook laksa frm my mom plus i managed to spend some time wif God. finally started doing the masterlife book aft 'dragging' it for days.


Was watching 'Wish You Were Here' and it was showing on Queensland's Sunshine Coast. the place was so awesome, the food looked appetising and lotsa shopping. haha.. i really felt like gg there and see the place wif my own eyes. Oooo.. o yeah, caught SpongeBob SquarePants wif eileen yesterday. it was super hilarious. hee.. u guys really got to watch it manz. u wun regret it one. ;)


k..here are some of the 'stuffs' tat strike me during the 3 days Small Grp Conference last wk. nv regretted gg.
-> We become like the person whom we keep looking at and walk with.
-> Walking with God brings transformation and separation (purity).
-> Jesus was busy but never hurried.
-> When we become hurried, our divine center of focus is not there.
* Building the church not by planning, but by revelation.
-> When we are Spirit-filled (anointing), we have power to overcome and boldness to be a witness.
* Purpose of the church:
- To proclaim the gospel to the ends of the earth
- Living for others
* Don't get caught up with the signs. Get one with the task of evangelism.
-> Don't think prayer. Think prayer mobilisation.
* Baptism is not an optional but a definite expression of coming to Christ.
* Fellowship is a deeper level of friendship. It occurs when all is one and they share with one another.
-> It takes an anointing to see the poor.


okie..shall end here. nitez.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:23 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

tis week was rather fruitful. went to the gym to train wif my frenz on mon. however, i over-stretched my leg muscles while training and it hurts. but it's fine now. aft tat, we had laksa for lunch. it had been a long time since i ate it. tasty sia but hot (cos the guy added xtra chilli!!!). on tues, i had photography course. the director said that i had shown improvements in connections and such. yay!! so happy lor.. o..viv's poses and the way she 'act' were super stylish manz. it's like totally the other side of her. n faith was her cute self as usual and her dancing was really entertaining. haha..


on thurs, went to play pool wif eunice n ck. so fun k? still..i'm a super amateur at it..heh.. ;) funny ting was tat we went back again aft dinner but tis time wif shaun aso. watched the two guys played for a while before all of us rushed down to church for small grp leaders' conference. (we rushed down cos afraid older ones may start nagging at us for being late) Pastor Benny Ho's sermon was informative but had a headache in the second session and was really tired. kept yawning throughout the two sessions.


yup.. den today, went to play pool again wif the same ppl. in the evening, had the main conference n it was even better. the sermon was super 'alive'. really looking forward to tmr's one although it's gonna be super long.


okie..tat's my life for now..cya!!

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:54 PM

Friday, March 04, 2005

although it has been a few days ever since the release of my O level results, i'm still dawdling over it. i juz can't seen to get over the shocking 'news'. i've been trying to keep my mind preoccupied by gg for the photography course, watching tv, sleeping unnecessarily n eating non-stop. but when i'm not doing anything, i start to think abt my results n getting upset n frustrated wif myself. why did my results turned out like this? maybe I shld have studied even harder?


to make me feel even worse, i tot the course wld maybe help liven up my spirits a bit. but instead, it put me even down den i am. the course was not what i had imagined it wld be. i had to learn 'stuffs' which i did not think that were necessary. 'stuffs' such as learning how to pose wif feelings, connections and dance wif style. ahhh!! yes... i can take criticisms in order to improve myself. but i have my limits. who doesn't? who can take non-stop criticisms aiming at u? plus asking me to open up my feelings, that wld be difficult. the percentage of me opening up that easily is low, real low. firstly, posing is seriously not my cup of tea. secondly, i'm the type whose feelings wld not for whatever purpose and open up, whether for posing or not. thirdly, i have asked God before to make me strong in terms of my feelings. in other words, i only know how others feel through their facial expressions or actions unless u are close to me or it's self-inflicted. this course has indeed taught me lots of new 'things'. but having the feelings to pose n such , one cannot force it. if u dun haf, means u dun haf.


*sigh* 'give up' and 'failure' these words do not exist in my dictionary and are not my type of character. so...this will be my first time i'm going to use these words on myself. i'm a failure n i give up. i give up whatever hopes i haf for ym. i give up on my views n suggestions. the next two things i really, really feel like almost giving up already are the photography course and Envision. i seriously can't take it anymore esp since i gotten my results. yes...you may think i've gone out of my mind. but i dun care. the bottom line is 'I GIVE UP!!!'

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:45 PM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

my O levels were terrible. ahh!! although my eng and maths did quite well, the rest were disappointing. my overall for L1R4 and L1R5 were dreadful. everything was totally crashed. I HATE MY RESULTS!!! *sigh*


i know getting all upset over my results is useless. what's done cannot be undone. but still, how am i suppose to tell my dad? argh.. stupid results make all my hardwork and effort look like they all went down the drain. bleah.


anyway, a big thanks to all who encouraged and comforted me in one way or another before or/and after the results. sis, dawn, cheryl, grace, rachel, mitchell, eunice, eileen, nich, vict, faith, jiajun, eunice fu, dajie, etc.. sorry if i missed out ur names but yeah.. Thank You guys!!


haiz..ok..gonna haf to slp soon. gotta wake my early to attend a 2 hr course tmr morning. hopefully i will cheer up by tmr. nitez.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:21 PM