Wednesday, February 23, 2005

yesterday nite i had two dreams that did not relate to one another in one way or another. i remember that one of them was weird while the other was freaky,really freaky. though i dun recall which one happened first, i still have the events in my mind. the weird dream consisted of ppl tat i dun tink of. ppl like amy, ber, eunice, clarissa, daryl, etc... plus the events were aso strange. a checkpt at the train platform, aliens attacked upon stopping at various stations and no ending. weird rite? ok..now the freaky dream which i shall elaborate more on it.


the freaky dream gave me a shock when i woke up n i do hope tat it does not happen. if it does happen, i cannot imagine how i will react to it. tis dream took place in what looks like a classroom. it was the day i'm to receive my O levels results. the first result that was passed ard to see, was the emaths results. i remember clearly tat i look down the list, which was according to register no., n most of my frenz in front of me had gd results. when it came to my name, the two letters written there sort of stand up among the rest. i got the biggest shock in my life. a c5 for my emaths. how the rest of the dream went, i shall leave tat out. what i do know is tat if i get a c5 in any subs, i will surely break down. to make matter worse, my O Level results are gonna be released either tis fri or the following mon. i'm so damn nervous n scare now. i do wanna get gd results to make my dad happy. i dun wanna make him sad. he works so hard n tis is my only way of repaying him. ahh!!! God please help me!!


dun wanna tink abt it. the more i tink, the more afraid i become. wellz..Black Hawk Down was a damn nice show. it sort of questioned me of my friendships wif my frenz. how many of dem wld be there for u when u need dem? how many wld stand by u as u go through difficult times? how many wld even risk their lives to save u when u are in danger? i guess tis questions wld remain unanswered for quite a long time.


ok..shall go off le.. hoepfully i dun get any more freaky dreams. tis one is bad enuf already. nitez..

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:05 PM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

today was quite a fulfilling day compared to the past few days. had a really short 'interview' for a photographer post that faith asked me. i gave it a shot since i got noting to do. gotta attend a $200 course and get a camera (my old one went gone case) if i want the job. i asked my mom abt it n she said that she wun mind me getting tis job, plus she will cover all the expenses needed. tat came as a surprise to me lor. but still, it's cool..thx mom.. anyway, she wants me do the course as obtaining a new skill and since i dun mind, yeah la. hee..shld be fun. o yeah..did i mentioned that the 'interviewer' is so handsome and friendly. whoa..he really looks charming and dashing manz. heh ;)


ok..enuf of tat, went to bugis wif sis aft tat juz to jalan jalan ard. den headed back home. was hoping to see replies from the resumes tat i send to a few companies. o wellz..see how it goes.. hmm..still hvn't decide whether i wanna go to malaysia wif my frenz. sumore tat wk got the small grp conference n is by Pastor Benny Ho. his sermons are real gd lor. but i aso wanna go wif my frenz. it's been a while since we last hang out.


ahh..shall decide later. okie..wanna go slp. ZzZz..

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:24 PM

Monday, February 14, 2005

ok..here's the long awaited n anticipated post to some ppl. the reasons behind the Powerpuff Girls..erm..wrong one. it's now known as Powerpuff Guys !!! (cos shaun wanna make it sound more manly).


blossom
-> she's in red
-> the leader
-> tries to 'organise' the ppg but it's hard
kang wei
-> red is one of his *ahem ahem* favourite colour
-> head prefect
-> tries to organise the prefects but it's difficult (cos we heck care)


bubbles
-> cute
-> the joy and the laughter
-> likes to keep clean and cute stuffs
shaun
-> chubby in one sense (parents' definition will be cute)
-> funny and full of crap
-> (last statement tink u all reading wld noe)


buttercup
-> toughest fighter (actions)
-> can be rude at times
-> but not a bad girl
bertrand
-> toughest debater (words)
-> mean at times
-> but not a bad friend


haha..tink i write enuf already. will post the Powerpuff Guys Theme Song another time. hee ;p k..shall go off soon. o yeah..HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to all my frenz. luv u guys ;) nitez..


Note: ck, shaun n bertrand...no offense taken yeah. i'm juz joking ard. if u tink i've gone too far, do let me noe k? thx ;)

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 4:34 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

felt like blogging so here i am. CNY is here and usually for the past few yrs, it was spent mostly visiting my dad's side, which is a lot. however, tis yr gonna be different. there wun be reunion dinner nor will i be visiting them. sad? unhappy? nah.. i dun like the way the cousins treat my bros n i. i'm fine if dey give me the cold shoulder. hu needs dem anyway? *bleah* but dey dare to wrongly accuse my bros n treat dem as if dey are invisible? dey try to hide the truth and in the end, i found out. if happen once, i'm fine wif it. i'll let it go. but again n again? sorry..my tolerance has its limit.


although i did not want it to happen by initiating it, i was more den happy tat it happened. it happened during a phone conversation between my dad n the uncle. my dad called to inform him tat we wun be gg for the reunion dinner. in the uncle's reply, he said in a sarcastic manner tat my dad wanna break ties wif dem. the uncle said it, not us. haha.. i tink u guys out there reading wld be tinking i'm mad, if not crazy, to be happy in a situation like tis. if u knew wat i had to face n endure, den u wld understand.


nvm.. wun be gg for reunion dinner tmr, but will be hafing steamboat at home. hee.. my second one. the first one at eunice's hse was fun n hilarious. ;) hmm.. looks like tis CNY i can spend more time wif my 'jies' at my mom's side. dey are much older den me, tink abt amy jie's age or slightly younger or older. i knew dem ever since i was a baby cos i stayed wif dem. so yeah.. gonna be super free aso. so if anyone wanna go out, let me noe. heh..


okie..gonna slp le..haf to wake up early to meet my frenz before we head to sch. yup..n look out for the explaination of the 3 powerpuff gals. er..correction.. the 3 powerpuff guys. haha.. ;P cya..n HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:31 PM

Monday, February 07, 2005

i wanna slp already so gotta make tis a fast one. yest class gathering was fun. watched white chick though the ck n shuan wanted to watch powerpuff girls. wait..or was it shaun? hmm..nvm.. yeah..den dinner was more of screams n laughter instead of eating. haha..n yes!! eunice n i started naming the guys aft the powerpuff girls. ck -> blosson; shuan -> bubbles; bert -> buttercup. it was damn funny manz. shall spare u all wif the explaination part. heh ;) o yeah..the dessert made by shuan (unbelievable rite?), was really nice. if u get a chance, try it. i nv bluff u..


as f0r today, charlie's session was ok. i wasn't paying much attention as i was tired n bored. yup..was reading a bit of the notes he gave juz now n some parts i ended up blur. den the mandarine orange distribution was crazy cos the gals screamed upon seeing a kitten. best manz.. but it was last minute tat dey decided to join. aft church, had evange meeting tat was a short one. joshua basically went back to the purpose n focus of evange. he also wanted us to ponder over our spiritual walk wif God n such.


okie..tat's all for now. gg to slp le..nitez.. *yawnz*

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:03 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

although sbm had only 4 ppl today (same no. when we started planning), it was a gd time spent. worship was focused on unity in doing God's works. it really spoke a lot esp in these current situations. i decided to skip bible study n we went into a time of planning or wat i wld say it was. aft the discussion, we spent time in prayer n it lasted for more den 1 hr. my mind was like at first, 'hurry up finish!!'


basically, we started off wif personal prayer wif God n later on, we prayed for Singapore, the nations, sbm, our sch (coral sec) n tis generation. yup..n khalis prayed for each one of us at the end. during the prayer session, my feet felt cramped n i was shaking. yes..really shaking. i cld feel it n i saw my arms shaking. the prayer tat i said to God were tings tat i felt burdened in my heart n really wanting to do something abt them. i'm still waiting for God's directions n confirmations, but dunno how long more i can take it. patience is the key. ahh..


ok..tat's all i wanna say la for today. nitez.

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 3:55 AM

Thursday, February 03, 2005

when an invisible wall starts building up, it is difficult to pull it down. first time ever this feeling lasted that long. it's like toking to a stranger. the type of 'hi!' n 'bye!' greetings. worse still, i found out tat it was juz an act as if noting has happened when someone's ard. i tot everyting was resolved the following day it started, but it was juz my part of wishful thinking. now i noe how the phrase came abt, 'easy to forgive but difficult to forget.' dunno how long tis will last..


seeing n hearing many things, but not able to do anyting. or how abt tis? seeing n hearing many things, but haf no choice n to wait and see. which is worse? toking wif my fren n hoping to get some 'advices', ended up receiving the expected usual ans..pray. how many times did the conversation had the word 'pray' in it? most of the time.. pray, pray, pray.. all the time is prayer. watch n do noting but pray? wait n see what God says? ahhh... i dun understand.. tot 'actions speak louder than words'? how will u ever noe He has given a reply? wat if He take years to reply? wat if by the time u got His reply, it's too late?


in Nehemiah 1, Nehemiah mourned, fasted n prayed for some days. then he said to God in the last verse to bless his prayer. aft tat, he went to the king for permission to go rebuild the gate n wall. from this, yes..he did prayed. but he took the action by seeking the king's permission. so which is which? pray n take action or pray n wait for God's directions? my conversation wif my fren was directed to praying n waiting for God's directions. yes? no? dunno? tis is so frustrating.. if it is to keep on praying, i dunno how long i can take it. n u noe wat's my fren's ans to tis statement, pray for God's strength. pray again..i really wanted to scream..argh!!


tink i will go crazy toking abt it. k..shall stop. tat's all..nitez..

Dre@my JeSs Life Written @ 5:45 PM